why won't you conform why won't you just conform if you don't conform you'll be hurt you'll be sad you'll be alone why won't you conform don't you want to be accepted don't you want to be part of the norm I had to conform my parents had to conform you have to conform if you don't conform it means I didn't actually have to conform it means the rules are fake why won't you conform the rules are real because I enforce them I will hurt you I will make you sorry why won't you just conform you should do it for me you should do it so I don't feel uncomfortable so I don't have to think so I don't have to question what I did to myself what I did to others pursuing this norm that I want to be absolute why won't you conform your difference is so loud it's an attack on who I am you are hurting me you are hurting me no matter what I do you just won't be normal you just won't act normal can’t you just repress who you are forever for my convenience you have to do it for me just for me your existence is unbearable to me why won't you just shut up why won't you just disappear why won't you just die why won't you just die just die

i know i’ve talked about this before but it’s really insane when you were passively suicidal for two decades and out of the blue you catch yourself saying shit like “i’ve been trying to eat a lot of fibre because i don’t want to risk colorectal cancer in my 40s” like okay … 40s are part of the plan now?