I had a chameleon soul.

All too well. the number one question I get asked a lot is; “how do you know what to write a song about? Where do you start?” And for me, I guess the easiest answer, the most simple answer is think about how many things do you want to say to someone who you have been too scared to say it to them because you’re scared of their reaction to what you would tell them? Over the course of the day we get hundreds, if not thousands things we wish we could say if we were brave enough or if we didn’t have to see the reaction, or hear the reaction or response to saying what we actually feel--about someone, about a situation. Writing a song is kinda like saying what I really wanted to say to the person--whatever you wanted to say the most and being able to push pause on the moment and not having to see that person’s response. It’s like putting a message in a bottle, whatever you wanted to say, whether it’s saying “I really love you” or “I am still really heartbroken” or “what you said really hurt me”, or “you make me happier than anyone in the world and I’ve told you before” or “you’re my best friend and I never want to lose you”. All those things. It’s like saying any of that, putting it in a bottle throwing it into the ocean, maybe they’ll see it, maybe they won’t. Maybe it’s a really cowardly way to love your life--but maybe it’s also the bravest way you can live your life. I haven’t really decided which one. This is a song, that was all the things I wanted to say to somebody but instead I just wrote this song because everything about this person i just couldn’t forget, you know, I just remembered it all too well. Good memories can leave even more of a mark or a scar on your heart as the bad times, and the bad memories, and the slamming doors, and the fights. I think you can have a lot of ghosts that you're carrying around with you. Sometimes you wish you could forget the good times even more than the bad times because you just keep replaying the things you remember all too well. I think for me when I sit down at the piano to write a song the main goal is just to say exactly what I’m feeling at the time that I’m feeling it so its like your trying to write in real time and what you end up with I guess is albums that are kind of like massive collections of journal entries  and I think the thing about a journal entry is when your writing it you think you must be the only person, the only person who’s ever felt that way and you feel completely alone in that moment and I guess what I’m tyring to say to you now is thank you for taking those collections of moments when I felt really, really alone and um memorising the words to them and singing them back to me when I’m in concerts so I really don’t feel alone anymore. a lot of times I write songs in order to cope or to forget someone and um the thing about trying to forget someone its just the most complicated thing you can try to do um so its hard to write how you feel about trying to forget someone when um you don’t even know how you feel half the time so how can you write about it I guess in case of this song I stopped trying to write how I felt I would just write down a story from beginning to end because I remembered it all too well. I’m trying to forget somebody, and chances are it’s because maybe I miss somebody that I shouldn’t miss, because they’re bad for me, and I know that I can’t pick up the phone and call them, so I write a song instead. The term trying to forget someone is so awful because you‘ll never forget someone if you’re TRYING to forget them. This was a song that I wrote when I was trying to forget someone but really all it did was remind me that I remembered it all too well. if I’m writing a song in the middle of the night, chances are it’s either because there’s something that I haven’t said to someone that I really need to, or the number one reason is that I’m trying to forget someone. And if you’ve ever tried to forget someone, it’s impossible to try to forget someone ‘cause it just happens over time. There’s nothing you can really do to make it better and when I tried to write this song, it was to forget someone and all I ended up doing was writing a song about how everything about him, I remembered it all too well.