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Horny but on my period 💔💔💔 fmllll

The amount of people who don’t know the difference between fem and femme should be studied!!!

And all I’ve ever wanted was to be desired and loved in every mood I’m in no matter what.

Okay story time! So basically me and my ex girlfriend broke up about two weeks ago and she was planning on taking space and healing and then coming back together 😒… so she posts a picture of her kissing her friends cheek but it’s entirely too intimate. She’s holding her face and like closing her eyes and all. This wouldn’t be as big of a problem if she hadn’t gotten pissed at me for kissing my guard friends forehead (this friend is in color and winter guard with me and our friendship isn’t intimate and me kissing her forehead was entirely platonic and I didn’t hold her face and it was literally a peck after a show?) she was super upset about it and pissed at me for like the rest of the night over it. THEN SHE TURNS AROUND AND DOES THE SAME SHIT BUT WORSE???? Plus she was saying that like “we’re exclusive like I’m not seeing anyone during this break up/time apart” I think the fuck not? And then she texts me randomly and was like “I’m sorry for the thing on my friends story and like it’s all platonic” shut the hell up. So now you just made urself look guilty as hell. And now I know that you know you did something wrong. She apologizes but I go back and look at the screenshot once again and the music on said story is “somebody’s doing me right” by KEITH WHITLEY. Which is the song she first posted me on her note about me! So obviously I’m pissed. That’s when I realize how intimate the picture is, maybe I’m overthinking it but it has a warm filter over it, she’s entirely too close to the other girls body and the other girl has her hand on her forearm. So I’m irritated. AND MIND YOU, she’s on a camping trip with the girl and her other two friends… so I text her and I’m like “Hey, I’m letting you know that after today we’re not talking anymore! That thing with (other girls name) sent me lowk over the edge and it all seems too intimate and it made me rethink a lot of things and we’re done! We’re not getting back together, and quite frankly I don’t want to be your friend or want to see you in my everyday life. Most likely forever! This is what’s best for me so I can take my time and heal from this whole thing so bye!” And she texts me about how much she’s sorry and how she understands and how she’s always gonna love me and a bunch of fucking lies. I throw up, because when I get super anxious or upset I throw up. So she calls. I leave the room with my sisters in it and answer. And she’s talking about how she’s so stupid for messing up and is all like “if you need anything like money or someone to talk too” and all this actual bullshit. And she’s just really guilty and it made me think about a lot of situations involving emotional cheating almost. She went to some party and was super sneaky about where it was and what was happening because I was invited and I guess she didn’t want me there? My older sister brought up how it seems like she’s been emotionally cheating on me with said girl the whole relationship. Now I have no concrete proof of this but when someone shows who they are and their ethics you believe it the first time. Like I said I have no concrete proof other than my gut and I promise ladies your guts ALWAYS Right. My chakras are balanced and my third eye is open, I see bullshit a mile away. Anyways, I just wanted to let you all know that the lesbians are evil. That masc will do you wrong. I’m having a bad day so I better not see *anybody* having a good day. Okay holla holly rant no I don’t care.

Me when my ex girlfriend is playing in my fucking face but it’s okay because “everyone is replaceable” from the mouth of Abby Lee.

I find it so interesting how I change alongside the seasons! Last fall I started to express myself more! Talking to new people, stepping out of my comfort zone! Then in winter I started discovering more parts of myself, maximalism, career planning and after graduation plans! Then spring came along and I started to learn more about plants and yearn for new things, then summer rolls around and all I am is pissed, depressed, flirty and yearny! Fuck my actual life!

I’m always like “summer yay!!” But like I miss school and all my extracurriculars and my friends and classes and the structure

I need to do something drastic or I’m gonna lose my shit