Live. Love. laugh.

I know I was not really going to pass that exam. The moment I submitted my requirements, I asked myself “Am I really sure about this?”. During that time, I know I was really not that prepared for the board exam. I was distracted, disoriented even. I really want to back out. The moment my friend and I stepped out of the PRC building, I want to go back inside and have my application cancelled. I even asked the Lord for signs to the point I dreamt about my name being not included on the list of passers.

It really feels different now that you’re gone. It’s been almost 2 weeks since you left us Riley. Every corner in our house reminds me of you, your smiles, your cries, everything. Like now, I long for the sound of your voice. Every morning I wake up, I look for you, but then I will realize that you are now gone. Every time I go home from the review center, I still look for you, and I will realize again, you are no longer physically with us. 

Earlier, I was searching for universities that offer MS Degree related to Chemical Engineering (you know, Energy, nuclear energy, envi, those stuff). I have shortlisted some options if ever I pursue it but I still don’t want to decide because first, I still have to pass my board examinations, second, I want my Master’s Degree be related to my job, and third, my parents told me that I have to pay my fees for grad school.