shadow ghost

Hey! Very occasionally I’ll check up on it, but no, I don’t really use it much. I have a wordpress account (https://neuronontransmitters.wordpress.com) where I write a few updates mixed in with opinion and advice type articles, but I’ve been slacking on posting there too recently bc I’ve not been doing so great! I also have an instagram where I post a couple of times a week (@bea.lives)

I guess though at the minute things are a lil wobbly...I’m not sure when I last updated this blog, but since being diagnosed with bipolar two years ago, I’ve gone through periods of doing really well before stopping my medication and relapsing and ending up in hospital as a result. So at the minute I’m still ~recovering from the last relapse and I’m trying to sort my shit out with getting back into uni to do a nursing degree and/or getting a proper job (preferably in healthcare). At the minute I’m doing this voluntary work placement scheme where I have a ~job/voluntary position as a nursing assistant on a ward in my local hospital, which I love

I guess while things at this precise minute aren’t too good in that I’m still kind of finding ~strength and building my confidence back up after another spell in hospital, overall I’m doing a HELL of a lot better than I was back when I used this blog- lithium works really well for me and pretty much completely levels my mood out and it’s coming up 3.5 years since I last self harmed, so really, anxiety is the biggest thing I struggle with atm, but even that is a lot more manageable than it’s been in the past! And while the past few years have been frustrating with a lot of time spent in hospital, I’m generally more hopeful about the future bc each time I relapse I learn a bit more about myself/this illness and I’m coming round to the idea that I need meds and that on meds, I actually have a pretty damn good quality of life :)