Plug Love

“Your sweet, you know that?“

Smiling I nodded my head, "I know."

Planting a soft kiss on my shoulder, he stood up straight just as the bartender handed us our drinks.

"Thank you” I said picking up my glass and taking a sip.

Turning around to face Dre, I smiled at him as dark brown eyes bore into mine. Andre was like no man I’d ever experienced in my life. He was stern, but gentle. He had never handled me with anything other than care. His guard was always up, he didn’t allow much people to see who he really was expect for the people he kept close. And to have the privilege to get close to him meant he cared about you. He’d shown me more love in the last three months than I’d received in the past 25 years.

“What?” he asked.

“Nothing, I just don’t know what I’d do without you” I said.

“Aww, you going soft on me?” he asked mockingly.

“Only for you” I said standing on my tippy toes and giving him a kiss on the lips.

“Umm, I like the sound of that” he said gripping my waist.

“Come on before you try and do something nasty” I said taking his hand.

“Nah I’ll behave, but when I get you home it’s a wrap” he whispered in my ear causing a jolt of electricity to course though my body. I felt the pulse between my legs and my thighs clenched in response. The smirk on Dre’s face told me he’d noticed the effect he’d had on me.

“Don’t” I said groaning and dragging him back to where our friends were sitting.

“Cass, is Cash coming?” Stephanie asked.

“Why you asking me? I’m not his keeper” she replied looking down at her phone.

“Bitch please, you gone act like you not texting his ass right now?” Steph asked.

“Oh you fucking with Cash Cassidy? I'm about to start calling you C-money ” Wayne said blowing the smoke the blunt he was smoking out of his mouth.

“Oh my gosh, no I’m not fucking with him” Cassidy replied, but the crack in her voice told us other wise.

“Ummhm, we can just ask him now since he just walked in"

"What?” Cassidy asked her eyes flew up from her phone and looked around.

We all bust out laughing. “Umm, but you not checking for him right?” Steph asked

Cassidy flipped her off and went back to scrolling through her phone.

Pulling up a chair Dre sat and pulled me onto his lap. “I hope y'all getting ready for our Christmas trip” I said.

“Hell yeah, I can’t wait. It’s going to be so dope” Steph said.

“Where we going again?” Dre asked.

“Aspen baby. So you better make sure you got some warm clothes” I said.

“We live in Miami, where the fuck am I supposed to find snow gear out here” Wayne asked.

“It’s called online shopping Dwayne” Stephanie replied.

“What I told you about calling me that?"

"It’s your name nigga” Steph stated matter of factly.

"Only my mother call me that shit" he said.

"Wasn't you calling me mommy last night?"

"Honestly do you guys stop?" Cassidy asked in disgust.

Before Wayne could answer with a smart comment. The DJ was on the mic; “The guest of honor has finally arrived. On the count of three I want everyone to wish Chanel a happy birthday." He announced.

We all turned our attention to the door.

"One.. Two.. Three"

"Happy Birthday Chanel” we all screamed as Chanel and Meek walked out hand in hand. They looked like they belonged on the cover of a magazine. Chanel wore a Dior swimsuit and a white knit skirt and matching Dior sandals. Her hair fell in loose curls down her back and her face was made up to perfection. Meek wore Dior trunks that matched Chanel’s swimsuit with white Dior sneakers and a white t-shirt.

Walking over to us Chanel flashed us a million dollar smile. “Oh my gosh, you guys this looks amazing” she said looking around the backyard.

The backyard was decorated with White and Purple balloons. There was a Taco truck, a Hibachi station, a Sweets table and a fully stocked bar. Meek also insisted we had a tent for a dispensary so everyone had enough weed for the entire night. The guest list was small but there was no expense spared for her big day.

“Well you know we had to go big for your 25th” I said giving her a hug.

“Happy Birthday Coco” Steph said giving her a hug.

“Thank you guys this is amazing. Y'all about to make me cry” she said giving the rest of the group a hug.

“Nah, you did enough of that already” Meek said.

“Chanel you were crying? On your birthday ?” I asked.

“It’s his fault, he’s been spoiling me all week” she said pointing at Meek.

“Because that’s his job” Cassidy said.

“Thank you sis. Please tell her ass again for me” he said.

Laughing Chanel shook her head and pouted. “Honestly you guy’s I love y'all so much” she said.

“We love your ass too Coco, now enough of all this sentimental shit. It’s time to get lit. It’s your birthday I’m getting your ass fucked up tonight” Wayne said.

Cassidy: 

"I’ll be right back, I have to get something from my car” I said getting up from my chair and stumbling into the house.

I was on my sixth shot of 1942 thanks to Wayne and I was starting to feel the effects of it.

Grabbing my car keys I walked out of the house and onto the driveway. Opening my trunk I pulled out the two gift bags I left and closed the trunk. When I felt a pair of hands on my waist.

“Who the fuc-” I started to say when I turned around and saw him standing in front of me.

“Damn you expecting someone else?” Cash asked looking down at me.

Smiling I shook my head no. “You just can’t be sneaking up on me like that” I said.

“My bad, I forgot I’m dealing with a gangster” he said smirking.

“Exactly, you could’ve gotten yourself hurt” I said.

“Ummhmm, I bet."

I watched as his tongue came out wetting his top lip. My thighs clenched thinking about how good his tongue would feel between them. I groaned in frustration, because the thought alone had my body hot. I felt like a little caesar’s pizza hot and ready just for Cash.

"What’s going on in that pretty little head of your’s?” he asked me placing a hand on my car trapping me.

“Umm, nothing” I said.

“You sure? Because the way your clenching your thigh’s together and the way your hearts pounding tells me otherwise"

"I’m just hot” I said.

“Umm, I can see that” he said tucking a strand of hair behind my ear with his free hand. His thumb grazed my cheek and I shivered at the contact.

“You know I’ve been thinking about you everyday since the last time I saw you?” he said.

“Have you now?"

"Ummhmm, that’s why I been blowing up your phone everyday. I don’t usually chase a girl but you. Ms Cassidy I can’t help myself.”

“Why is that” I asked looking up at him.

“I’m not sure but you’re doing something to a nigga” he said lowering his face so that we were eye level. He was so close, too close I could feel the heat of his breath on my face. Our lips were touching as he spoke to me, my body felt like I was on fire.

I wasn’t sure if it was the liquor or the fact that I hadn’t had sex in months. But I couldn’t take it anymore, dropping the gift bags I grabbed his shirt and pulled him into me pressing my lips against his. Cash groaned as he pushed me against the trunk, he pressed his dick against me and I moaned against his lips.

When he broke the kiss, I was breathless. I’d never had a kiss that made me feel like I was weightless.

“What are you doing to me Cassidy?” he asked looking down at me.

“I was just going to ask you the same question” I said.

Cash stared down at me, and I could see the heat in his hazel eyes. He wanted me and god I wanted him so badly. Feeling my phone vibrating in my pocket I looked away from him and pulled it out. It was a message from Chris.

Chris: Hey babe I hope you’re having fun, tell Chanel I said Happy birthday and I’ll see you tonight when you get home I Love you.

Quickly closing the message I looked back up and Cash was watching my every move.

“Umm, we should get back to the party"

Cash glared about me, "I hope you know I’m not letting up on you lil mama. I’m applying heavy pressure”

“Actions speak louder than words” I said.

“I don’t have nothing if I don’t have my word lil mama"

Nodding I reached for the gift bags but Cash got to them before me. "Lead the way gorgeous.”  

Walking back into the backyard I could feel Cash’s eyes on me the entire time I walked.

“Aye my boy” Meek said walking up to Cash and embracing him.

“Wassup G” Cash said.

“Cassie, you had to get his ass? He too good to enter alone?"

"Nah, I ran into him when I was getting some gifts out of my car. I didn’t even think he was coming"

"You knew I wouldn’t miss a party especially not one when you’re going to be there” he said looking down at me.

I blushed and Meek smirked at the two of us. “Parties starting to wind down so it’ll just be us soon”

“Cash, you made it” Stephanie said with a smirk on her face. Groaning I rolled my eyes and took a seat.

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world. Happy birthday Coco” Cash said giving Chanel a hug and handing her an envelope. It was so stuffed that it barely closed. A stack of hundreds peeked out.

“Thank you Cash, you really didn’t have too” she said.

“Aye you family now, we always take care of family” he said nodding at Meek who nodded his head in agreement.

After greeting the rest of the crew he came next to me and tapped my leg, motioning for me to stand up. When I did he took my seat and pulled me onto his lap. “Much better” he said in my ear and I smirked as I felt Chanel, Aria and Steph’s eyes watching our every move.

I knew I was playing with fire, I had two men in my life but there was only one that I wanted. I had to get rid of Chris and quick, before this got ugly.

Ahmeek:

"Ok, I’m exhausted and I’m way to drunk to drive home” Cassidy said laying down on the couch.

“I think we’re all too drunk to move, there is more than enough space in this house. You guy’s can just stay here” Chanel said sitting up.

“You sure?” Aria asked.

“Yeah we have seven bedrooms, me and Meek only need one” she said.

“Shit you don’t have to tell me twice” Wayne said picking up a sleeping Stephanie and walking up the stairs.

“Yeah, Dre we should head to bed to” Aria said.

“Umhm but I’m taking the room two doors away from them” he said.

“The bedrooms are soundproof” I said.

“Oh word?” Dre asked looking at Aria.

“Andre, let’s go” Aria said as Dre smirked walking up the stairs.

“Alright, I’m exhausted and very drunk. The room feel’s like it’s spinning so I should go to bed. I’m sure you guy’s can find yourself to your room” Chanel said getting up from the couch. "Baby don't take forever coming to bed" she said giving me a kiss before walking up the stairs.

“I’m going to head up too” Cassidy said following Chanel up the stairs. Leaving Cash and I alone; “So Cassie huh?” I asked.

Cash, sighed and ran a hand down his waves. “What you want me to say? I fuck with her I can’t change that” he said.

I scuffed knowing the exact feeling, them Wright girls were a different breed. Once they hooked you were hooked forever. I knew first hand how deep that hook was, the thing’s I’d do for Chanel Wright was insane.

“You know she has a boyfriend right?"

Cash, sucked his teeth "That nigga, can become a distant memory. If it ever comes to it, but I’m not worried about him. He’s just a place holder”

Laughing I shook my head and leaned over resting my elbows on my knees. “Just be careful with that” I said.

“Always G” he said standing and patting my shoulder before jogging up the stairs to bed.

Walking into the kitchen, I grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge and headed upstairs to my own bed.

When I walked into our bedroom, Chanel was spread across the bed. Stepping out of my clothes I removed my chain and watch and climbed into bed beside her.

Her eyes fluttered open, “I love you” she said curling into the side of my body.

“Wassup G?” I answered.

“I need y'all to meet me at the warehouse, we need to have a meeting” he said.

“All of us?“

"Yeah, I need talk to y'all tonight” he said.

“We in the middle of getting this week’s drops. We could be there in about an hour” I said.

“Ight, wrap it up and come to the meeting when you done” he said.

“Ight G” I said hanging up.

“Yo we gotta wrap this up, we gotta go to the warehouse after this” I said.

“Everything good?” Dre asked

I shrugged “ he just said he wanna have a meeting with us”

“Ahh shit, that don’t sound good” Dre said.

“I mean everything on our end is good. Payments come in fast and on time and he doubling our drops so we moving shit fast” I said.

“Well I guess we’ll find out in a few” Wayne said.

Nodding my head I sat back down and continued counting the money.

                                                       _______

An hour later we were walking into the warehouse. Greeting the guards, we made our way into the office. Carter, and his right hand man Dee sat at the table.

“Finally y'all made it” Dee said.

“You always so damn dramatic” Wayne said and Dee cracked a smile. Giving them a dap I sat across from Carter with Dre and Wayne on either side of me.

“So what’s going on?” I asked.

“Y'all been moving weight like crazy. I gotta say I’m impressed” Carter said. Dee nodded his head in approval.

“Appreciate it G” I said.

“So with that being said I wanna move y'all up in positions” he said.

“What you mean?” I asked

“Listen I’m turning 52 in a couple months, Dee is almost 53. We can’t be running the dope game for much longer. We wanna get you prepared to take over for us when we retire” Carter said.

“Wait what?"

"You giving us your business?” Wayne asked

“Yeah, we’ve only known each other for a little while. Thats a big move to make” Dre said.

“I know, but I also know everything there is to know about the three of you. We’ve always made money, but adding you guys to our payroll has doubled almost tripled our monthly income. Not only that you guys move smart, the legit business you’re using to clean your money makes it almost impossible to tie anything to you. Plus 10 years in the game and neither of you have so much as a parking ticket shit is impressive. I see Me and Dee in each and every one of you, if I can trust anyone to take over my operation it’s the three of you. It’ll take some time to get you guys fully in position but it’s yours if you guys want it” he said.

“Hell yeah we want it” Wayne said.

Dee smirked and shook his head. Carter smiled but his eyes were fixed on me waiting for my answer.

“So, I’m guessing this is another thing I have to keep from her right?” I asked.

“For now, this information doesn’t leave this room. It’s a quiet transition until everything is in order” he said.

Sighing I nodded my head. Running the Cartel would make me rich beyond my dreams. It was what we were hustling for our entire lives. Carter was putting us in a position to take over Miami.

“What’s the word Meek?” Dre asked.

All eyes were on me, it was still my call at the end of the day. And I knew what my answer was it was a win-win. “Yeah we taking it” I said.

Carter smiled and leaned back in his chair.  "Well, let’s talk business now” he said.

Chanel: 

“So what's the plan for your birthday?” Aria asked.

“I’m honestly not even in the mood to do anything big” I said leaning on the couch.

“Seriously your turning 25 we have to do something” Stephanie said.

“A small get together is honestly all I wanna do. I don’t wanna do the club or nothing plus we have our Christmas trip planned so I don’t need to go on a trip.

“Fine we gone plan you a fire ass party” Cassidy said.

“You guys have like two days, to plan everything” I said

“Girl we got this don’t even worry about it” Aria said.

“Enough about me can we talk about Cassidy and Cash real quick” I said.

“What about me and Cash?” she asked.

“What happened when he dropped you home? Cause you guys were very cozy the other night” Stephanie said.

Cassidy smiled and shook her head. “Nothing he just dropped me home and that’s it. He’s cool” she said.

“So what about Chris?” Steph asked.

Cassidy sighed, and played with the string of her sweatpants.

“Cass what’s going on?” I asked.

“I don’t know how to say this to you guys so you understand where I’m coming from” she said.

“Hey we’re here for you; whatever it is” Stephanie said.

“I’m not in love with Chris. I haven’t been in love with him for the past two years” she said.

“Wait what?” I asked. I could see the pain on my sister’s face and I pulled her into my chest. “Cassidy if you don’t love him why are you staying with him? If you’re not happy?” I asked.

“Because, he doesn’t deserve this he treats me so well and I can’t bring myself to leave him. He’s so sweet. But I just don’t feel the same about him anymore” Cassidy said leaning on my shoulder.

“Cassidy but your suffering, because you’re with someone you don’t love anymore. You don’t deserve that you’re only 23 you deserve to be happy. You’re not a bad person and if you don’t love him don’t force yourself to stay with him” Aria said.

“I just don’t know. I keep thinking that I’ll snap out of this faze"

"It’s not a faze if you’ve been feeling like this for the past two years” Steph said.

“Maybe, you’re right. I just can’t do that to him right now, I’m not ready I’ve been with him for the past 4 years. That’s like my entire adult life I don’t know what to do without him” she said.

“Cass, you do what you’re already doing without him. You live your fucking life. Don’t feel like you can’t be you without him” I said.

“Exactly, plus it looked like you and Cash were getting along and he’s fine af. So there’s always that” Stephanie said.

Cassidy smiled at the mention of Cash’s name. “Cash is honestly the sweetest, we’ve been texting none stop since he dropped me home that night. He makes me feel something I’ve never felt before and that shit is fucking scary” she said.

“I say see how it goes with Cash and leave Chris. Even if nothing happens with Cash, you don’t need to be forcing a relationship you’re not invested in. Shit it’s Miami there’s men everywhere you don’t need to be stuck with one you don’t love” Stephanie said.

“Leave Chris before you start anything with Cash” Aria said.

“Honestly she’s going to leave him anyway so it honestly doesn’t matter” Stephanie replied.

“All right can we change the subject please” Cassidy said getting up from her spot on the couch and walking into the kitchen.

“Fine, but don’t think we’re letting this go” Stephanie said.

“Oh trust me, I know” Cassidy said.

Before I could say anything my phone rung. It was Meek’s custom ringtone.

“Hey baby” I answered.

“Wassup Mama, you busy right now?” he asked

“Not really just hanging out with the girls”  I said.

“I need you to meet me somewhere” he said.

“Umm, ok when and where?"

"Now and I’ll send you the address” he said

“Alright, i’ll see you soon"

"Ight, love you ma"

"Love you too” I said hanging up.

“You leaving?” Cassidy asked.

“Yeah, Meek want’s me to meet him” I said standing up.

“Alright, we need to do some party planning anyway. So that’s good that your leaving” Steph said.

“Please don’t over do it, no more than 15 people cause I'm most likely just going to have it at my penthouse" I said.

"Ummm, maybe" Stephanie said.

Cassidy and Aria both glared at her. And I shrugged my shoulders.

"Anyway I have to go, but please keep it small" I said hugging each of them before I walked out of Aria's house.

                                              ___________________

Thirty minutes later I pulled into the driveway of a multi-million dollar home. I raised my eyebrows in confusion, if I didn't see Meek's Ferrari next to me I would've sworn I was at the wrong address.

Parking my car I grabbed my purse from the passenger's seat and got out of the car. Looking around the house I couldn't ignore how beautiful it was. It wasn't overbearing for such a big house, it was simple but modern but it didn't feel cold or like no one lived here. It was the exact style house I saw myself raising a family in.

Walking up the stairs, I rang the doorbell when I reached the black wooden door.  A few second's later a small middle aged women came to the door.  “Hi, you must be Chanel. I’m Isabella” she said flashing a warm smile.

Returning her smile I nodded in agreement “Hi Isabella, my boyfriend told me to meet him here” I said.

“Yes, yes come in. Ahmeek is in the living room it’s just straight ahead” she said.

“Thank you” I said watching her disappear to the other side of the house. Walking down the hallway I walked into the living room. Meek was standing in front of the glass doors looking out onto the backyard.  

“Baby, what’s going on?” I asked walking over to him.

“What do you think?” He asked

“About what?” I asked.

“The house"

Looking around I noticed how beautifully decorated the interior of the house was.

“It’s beautiful.. Who’s house is it? ” I asked.

“Our’s” Meek replied.

“Wait what?” I asked.

Meek smiled, pulling two set’s of keys from his pocket. He dropped one into my hand. “Happy birthday beautiful” he said.

Staring down at the keys in my hand I could barely form word's I was stunned. “This is our’s?”

“Yes, unless you don’t like it. But I’m pretty sure I got your taste down packed” Meek smiled confidently.

I was at a loss for word’s I didn’t know what to say. I could feel the tears, forming and I tried my best to blink them away but I couldn’t. And as one fell down my cheek Meek brushed it away. Cupping his finger under my chin to force me to look up at him. "Baby, talk to me” he said.

“I-I love it, I love you so much. I don’t know what I did to deserve you but I swear I thank god for you every single day” I mumbled in between sobs.

Grabbing the back of my neck Meek pulled me into his chest. I clung to him as I cried. I wasn’t sad I was happy. Ahmeek was the kind of man you only read about in books. But to experience such a man; to be with him made my heart swell. I couldn’t imagine living a day without him and I hoped to god I never had too.

“You’ve changed me ma, I never thought that I’d be in love or be buying a crib with someone else. But I want it all with you ma, I'mma give you my last name and I'm putting 7 little one's in you. And they're going to look just like you. You are my heart" he said.

Looking up at him through wet lashes. “I am not pushing out 7 kids Ahmeek. And I swear you making me soft" I said laughing.

Meek smiled and pressed a gentle kiss to my lips.

I looked around the house one more time “Does the house come furnished? ” I asked.

“Nah I hired someone to take care of that"

“Wait how long have you had this house?“

"Little over a month, if you don’t like it they can redo it if you want” Meek said

“No, it’s perfect, thank you baby” I said kissing him.

“We move in whenever you’re ready” Meek said.

“We can start moving tomorrow, but right now I think you should show me to our new bedroom” I said.

When I looked up at her she was smirking at me and shaking her head. Looking away from her I picked up the bag of weed off the table and the rolling tray and stated rolling up. I needed to distract myself from looking at him and I could feel Cash's eyes on me.

“Yo Cash I’m coming to the shop this week I need a new tat” Wayne said.

“What you getting ?” Steph asked.

“You’ll see when it’s done” he replied.

“Just lemme know when, so I can squeeze you in” Cash replied.

“Where’s the lighter” I asked

“Here” Cash said pulling one out of his pocket.

Looking at him I took the lighter out of his hand and lit the blunt. "Thanks" I said taking a pull, I let the weed fill my lungs and rested my head back against the chair blowing the smoke out of my mouth.

I felt Cash's eyes boring into the side of my face “You wanna pull?” I asked.

Cash smirked and took the blunt from my hand. When his finger’s grazed against mine I felt like i'd been shocked. It must be the weed she thought.

We spent the next two hours smoking and talking. I felt a sense of comfort talking to Cash as if I’d known him my entire life. He was easy to talk to and he made me laugh. We were in their own bubble tuning out the rest of the group around us.

“Yo I’m so smacked, I feel like I’m talking too much” I said laughing.

“Nah you not, I like talking to you” Cash said leaning his head back against the chair and staring at me.

I felt hot all over again, the more he stared at me the hotter I got. And when he licked his lips I felt my center pulse. Oh no please no !!

“I should probably get going I got an early day tomorrow” I said sitting up.

“You good to drive ?” Cash asked

“Nah I came with Coco but I’ll take an Uber home I don’t look like she’s ready to go” I said looking at Chanel who was snuggled into Meek's lap.

“Nah I can take you home I’m bouta head out too” he said

“No that’s ok I don’t want to take you out of your way"

“Your not I offered Ma, come on” Cash said standing up.

Standing up I said my goodbye's and waited for Cash. “You ready?“ he asked.

“Yeah”

“Aye Cash tread light nigga that’s family” Meek called out to him but I saw the smirk on his face.

Cash chuckled and shook his head “Nigga I’m family” he replied as he lead me out of the backyard.

When we got to the driveway Cash opened the passenger door to a cherry red Ferrari.

“Aren’t you a gentlemen” I said as I slid into the buttery seats.

“Only for you” Cash said closing the door and getting into the driver’s side.

“Alright where we off to?” Cash asked when he was behind the wheel.

Telling him my address I rested my head against the window. The weed in my system had me super relaxed and it was only a matter of time before I fell asleep.

When we pulled onto the highway, Cash broke the silence. “You sleeping over their lil mama?“

“No I was about to but your loud ass interrupted me"

Cash laughed and I couldn’t help but smile at the sound of his deep laugh.

“You can’t fall asleep on me, I need you to entertain me” He said

“I look like a clown to you? Plus I’m losing beauty sleep right now"

“Nah you not a clown lil mama, and I'on think you need beauty sleep"

"And why is that?"

"Because you're already so beautiful” he replied.

I bit my lip trying to hide the smile that threatened to spread on my face. "You're real smooth, you say that to all the girls?"

"Nah only the one’s I’m really interested in” he replied.

“So your interested in me?"

"Hell yeah I’m tryna be invested though if you let me "

I couldn’t find the right words to say so I nodded my head and looked outside the window. I heard Cash laugh.

Pulling in front of my apartment I sighed and looked up at the tall building. "Thank you for the ride Cash” I said unbuckling my seat belt.

“Wait” Cash said putting his hand on my thigh.  “I was wondering if you could do something for me in return" he said.

"What?” I asked glaring at him.  

Cash smiled “Noting like that lil mama. Can I have your number? You know to work on my investment?” he asked.

I playfully rolled my eyes “Who said I was available?"

"Nobody but if you are he obviously ain’t doing his job right"

"Why would you say that?"

Cash leaned into me, his lips only inches away from mine. "Because I wouldn’t let your fine ass out of my sight if you were mine."

"Oh” I said feeling my pulse quicken.

Cash bit his lip and tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear. “So them digit’s? You might as well give them to me cause I ain’t gone stop till I get them. All I gotta do is text Meek and they’re mine” he said.

“He wouldn’t"

"Oh but I’m very persuasive” Cash said.

I knew he was telling the truth because he was finessing me right now. I knew this was a bad idea but I took his phone and typed in my number. When I handed it back to him his smile was so cocky I rolled my eyes.

“Good night lil mama” Cash said cupping my chin in his hand and kissing my forehead.

"Goodnight Cash ” I said getting out of the car.

I quickly walked into my building fighting with myself not to turn back and look at him. When I got on the elevator I rested my head against the cold metal trying to calm myself down. My heart was pounding against my chest. What the fuck was that? I thought.

I went to sleep that night next to Chris but dreaming of Cash. And I knew I was in trouble.

Chanel: 

Stepping out of my Louboutin's I sighed feeling my feet hit the bare wood floor. My feet were killing me and I desperately wanted to take a hot bath and climb into bed with my man. Unfortunately for me I was the girlfriend of a gangster which meant most nights I went to bed alone.

Walking into my bedroom, I dropped my Birkin bag on the dresser. Noticing the balcony door opened I stepped out onto the patio. When I saw Robert standing on my balcony I paused.

"What the fuck are you doing here?” I asked

“I’ve been trying to talk to you for a while. You have me blocked on everything and I’ve tried to get to you at work but Stephanie hasn’t let me talk to you. I got lucky that there’s a new guard downstairs and he let me up” Robert said.

“You wanna talk to me? You have 30 seconds make it fast” I said.

“Chanel I love you I know I fucked up believe me I know and I’m sorry about that if I could take it all back I would. But you not really with this nigga Chanel if you think I was bad what do you think a nigga like that is gonna do?” Rob said.

“He’s never given me a reason to think other wise Rob I can’t say the same for you though. And your thirty-seconds are up” I said.

“Just tell me do you love him more than me ?"

Rolling my eyes I shook my head. "You really want this answer?"

"Yes, if you do I promise I’ll leave you alone"

"Robert I loved you since I was 18 years old, you were my first real love. But I’ve never loved anyone the way that I love Meek” I said.

Robert looked at me stunned by my confession. “Oh okay then. I’ve only ever wanted you to be happy Nel and if he makes you happy then I’ll fall back"

"Thank you"

"I just hope he realizes what he has and holds onto it before it’s too late”

“He knows” I replied.

Nodding his head Rob walked over to me and planted a kiss on my forehead. “Take care Chanel” he said before walking out.

When I heard the elevator doors close I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. Stepping off the balcony I walking into my ensuite and set myself  a bath. Pulling my hair into a high bun on top of my head I connected my phone to my beats pill. Kehlani’s voice poured through the speaker as I sank into the tub.

The hot water eased my tense muscles.Closing my eyes I let out a deep breath and sank deeper into the tub. My mind replayed the last few minutes over and over again. I had finally closed the door on my relationship with Rob, he was my first so I knew I would always have love for him. But the love I felt for Ahmeek was different it was borderline obsessive, dangerous. Someone had already lost their life over it. And I wondered what or who else would pay the price of our love.

Then there was the detective who was looking into Jennifer’s disappearance. You mean murder.

Meek promised me that it was all taken care of but I still feared the worst.

That wasn’t the only thing that bothered me though. I knew that if the detective hadn’t told me; Meek wouldn’t have and that bothered me. He was so good at hiding it from me he didn’t even seem fazed by it. If he could hide that from me then what else would he hide from me?

I wanted to trust him but something told me that there was more to Ahmeek Brown than I knew and I wasn't sure how much I really know the man I slept next to every night.

I sat in the tub for almost an hour deep in thought and when the water got cold I quickly washed my body off and stepped out of the tub.

Throwing on some boy shorts and one of Meek’s shirt’s I climbed into bed. Glancing at my phone it was already 3 am. I was exhausted but my body fought to stay awake. I just needed to see him before I closed my eyes. Rolling over to his side of the bed I hugged his pillow. His scent still lingered on it and my body relaxed deeper into the mattress.

I was addicted to this man I needed him I craved him and on night’s like this when I couldn’t have him I felt uneasy.

Picking up my phone I sent him a quick text message.

Chanel: I love you, be safe and I’ll be waiting for you at home.

I didn’t wait for an answer because I knew he’d be busy. Gripping the pillow tighter I fell asleep.

                                                      ___________  

It’d been two days since I had heard or seen Meek and I was going crazy. I’d reached out to Dre and Wayne and they assured me that he was fine. Which turned my worry into rage, because it meant he was purposely avoiding me but I wasn’t sure why.

Sitting on the edge of my bed I fastened the straps of my Tom Ford heels. The girls were dragging me out of the house to get my mind off of Ahmeek. But there was no use my mind was constantly on Ahmeek he had infected my entire body and mind. Days without him had been torture for me.

Sighing I stood up from the bed and walked to my mirror. The distressed jeans and crop top I wore weren’t my normal club attire but I wasn’t in the mood to put any effort into my outfit.

Pulling my hair into a high ponytail I grabbed my wristlet and headed for the elevator. Reaching for my car keys, I noticed the keys for Meek’s Ferrari on the hook. Smirking I picked them up and stepped onto the elevator.

Pulling up in front of the club I noticed my friends waiting for me. Putting the car in park I stepped out of it and walked over to my friends.

“You wanna start a war tonight I see” Aria said.

“What are you talking about?” I asked smugly, I knew exactly what I was doing.

“You know someone’s gonna spot his car and snitch on your ass right?” Aria asked pointing to the custom car.

Shrugging my shoulders I walked into the club with Steph and Aria close behind.

I had plans to make a scene tonight, if Meek wasn’t gonna answer me. I was just going to have to get his attention another way.

Meek:

I clenched my jaw as Wayne pulled up in front of the club. When I saw my Ferrari parked on the corner my blood boiled. Wayne hadn’t even fully put the car in park before I hopped out.

“Where is she?” I asked the bouncer.

“Last time we had eyes on her she was by the bar” he said.

Nodding my head I stepped into the crowded club with Wayne and Dre on each side of him. I scanned the bar looking for Chanel.

"Aye we got action” Wayne motioned towards the end of the bar where Chanel, Aria and Steph were doing shots. My jaw clenched when I saw the man standing behind Chanel wrap his arm around her waist.

"Ah shit” Dre said shaking his head because he already knew what was going to happen next.

Pushing through the crowd I got to them so fast that Steph and Aria didn’t have a chance to warn her.

“If you like having your hand I would move it” I barked out.

I noticed how Chanel’s body stiffened when she heard my voice. When she turned to face me her eyes were red and low. She was high and from the empty shot glasses on the counter she was drunk as well.

“Oh now you care” she asked, leaning closer into the man’s arm with a smirk on her face.

Chanel was definitely drunk and she was testing my patience.

“Chanel let’s go” I said.

It was taking everything in me not to knock this man’s head off his shoulder’s and fling Chanel over my shoulder to my car.

“No, you ain’t speak to me for fucking day’s didn’t even check on me. For no reason now you think I’m just going to leave with you? No fuck you” Chanel spat. She was fuming, her eyes were wild and her breathing had picked up.

We glared at each other, the tension between us was  thick. Each one of us daring the other to do something.

“I'on think she wanna go with you my man” the man who lingered on Chanel said.

Breaking my eye contact with Chanel I glared at him. “What the fuck you just say to me ?” I asked taking a step closer to him.

Dre and Wayne watched on ready for whatever. That’s just how we rolled, if one bussed we all bussed.

“Yo I don’t mean no disrespect but she don’t seem like she wanna leave with you. Maybe you should just fall back” he said.

I let out a throaty chuckle, danger flashed in my eyes. As he locked one hand over the opposite wrist. I stared my opponent dead in the eyes.

“You see you’re trying to keep me from my girl and that is what I take as disrespect. Look around you, think about what you doing before you have your mama crying in all black ” I stated.

I didn’t want it to come to this because the clubbed was packed and I wasn’t one who believed in leaving witnesses. But if it came to it, I would handle it.

The man glanced around the club, he hadn’t noticed before the two men that sat on either end of the bar. Or that the guards all seemed to be staring at him. He was out numbered, this wasn’t a fight he wanted.

Nodding his head he glanced down at Chanel “take care of yourself” he said before walking away.

Chanel rolled her eyes at looked back at me. “You happy now? You ruined my fun” Chanel said.

“Let’s go now” I said reaching for her hand but Chanel snatched it back. “Don’t touch me” Chanel said pointing her finger in my face.

I had enough of Chanel’s attitude. Groaning I scooped her up and threw her over my shoulder.

“Pass me her bag?” I said while fighting to hold Chanel still.

Aria smirked and handed him Chanel’s bag. “Thank’s. I'mma hit y'all later” I said walking out of the club with Chanel screaming and punching at my back for me to put her down.

When they reached my car, I finally put her down. Opening the door I motioned for her to get in. Chanel stood still with her hand crossed against her chest.

“Chanel stop fucking playing with me and get in the fucking car” I barked at her.

Chanel rolled her eyes and slid into the passenger’s seat. Slamming the car door I got in on the driver’s side.

                                                      ___________________

“You gonna talk to me now, or you gonna keep acting like I don’t fucking exist” I asked.

“You wanna talk now? You been gone for two fucking days and now you wanna talk to me? I had to go to the club and make a scene to get your fucking attention ? My own boyfriend. So I don’t have shit else to say to you Ahmeek.” Chanel yelled.

“I needed to handle some stuff” I said

“So you didn’t think to let me know that?” Chanel asked.

“I needed to calm down before I came to you”

“Calm down for what?"

"I know you had him here” I said my jaw twitching.

“Who?"

"Bitch ass Rob"

Chanel looked at me for a few minutes and then started laughing. "This was because of Rob? Are you serious right now? He was here when I got home, I’ve been avoiding him for months and there’s a new guard downstairs who obviously didn’t know not to let his ass upstairs. But I told him that we were done and that I loved your dumb ass. He respected it and left he wasn’t even here for five fucking minutes"

"He shouldn’t have been here"

"No shit I just said he was here when I got home. So that’s why you been ignoring me? Instead of opening your fucking mouth and actually talking to me” Chanel shook her head and walked out of her room.

I followed behind her. “I’m trying to handle you differently. I don’t wanna be barking at you and fighting with you so I needed a couple days. And then you pull this shit tonight, you testing me Chanel on god you testing a nigga. I was so close to turning that nigga lights out” I said running a hand through my waves.

“You can’t be hurting people because of me” Chanel said.

“I don’t know how else to get this anger out. Two nigga’s already lost they lives cause I was in a bad mood because of you” I said.

Chanel sighed and shook her head. “Talk to me first, if it’s not needed and it’s just because your mood is sour talk to me Ahmeek. I’m not here just to lay down with you I’m here to be your sounding board, if there’s something on your mind or something that’s bothering you tell me I’m here. But please don’t shut me out again. Because I’m gonna be petty and you’re gonna be mad. It’s a dangerous cycle"

"Loving you is dangerous ma. Because for you I’ll do anything” I said.

Chanel’s anger softened. Walking over to me she wrapped her arms around my waist. “25 to life with you pa. I love you” Chanel said.

“Yeah it was just a drunk club fight” I said shrugging.

The detective scanned my face trying to sense if I was lying. My face held no deception, I had mastered a good poker face it was a skill I had inherited from my father.

“Well, if anything comes to mind or you remember anything just give me a call” he said taking a card out of his pocket and handing it to me.

I nodded and gave him a polite smile before he spun on his heels walking towards the door.

Before he walked out he stopped and looked at me “Oh one more thing, you’re too beautiful to be fighting in clubs” he said with a smile and walking out before I had the chance to say anything.

The rest of the day was a blur I couldn’t stop thinking about Jennifer. Sure I wasn’t her biggest fan but that didn’t mean I wanted her to completely disappear off the face of the earth. I hoped that she was ok but I had a bad feeling about this. Something felt off about this whole situation.

When I finally made it home the smell of food invaded my nostrils. My stomach growled in response. Stepping out of my heels, I walked into the kitchen.

Meek was putting food on a plate, when he looked up at me he smiled and my knee's buckled in response. That was just the effect Meek had on me.

“Hi beautiful” he said walking over to me and giving her a kiss on the lips. “You hungry? he asked.

“Hi baby, and yeah I'm starving ” I said walking past him and quickly washing my hands.

"Get me a water from the fridge" Meek said. Getting a bottle of Pepsi for myself I grabbed a water bottle for Meek and followed him to the living room. Flipping through the channel's he stopped when he got to Law and Order SVU.

We ate in silence, but it was mostly because my mind was racing about Jennifer. When we finished eating I got our empty plates and brought them into the kitchen and loaded them into the dishwasher.

"I'm going to go take a shower" I yelled from the kitchen.

Walking into the bathroom I turned on the shower and undressed. Stepping under the hot water I let it run down my body trying to erase the thoughts from my mind. Grabbing my loafer I squeezed my coconut body wash on and lathered it against my skin.

When I stepped out of the bathroom, and into my bedroom. Meek was sitting on the bed with his elbows resting on his knee's his head was hung low.

Tossing the towel off my body I pulled on one of Meek's t-shirts and a pair of boy shorts I pulled my hair into a messy bun on top of my head.

"You wanna roll up for me?" I asked him.

Meek looked up at me. "I got three on my tray on the nightstand" he said.

Grabbing the blunt from his tray and a lighter I stepped onto the balcony. Sitting in the chair I brought the blunt to my lips and lit it. Inhaling the weed I felt my body relax when I blew out the smoke.  

“What’s wrong with you Chanel? What did I do?" Meek asked standing in the doorway.

"It's just been a long day that's all" I said taking another pull from the blunt.

"So talk to me" he said sitting next to me, pulling my feet onto his lap he rubbed my feet.

I sighed feeling the tension leaving my body. "A detective came by the shop today"

“Detective?” He asked

“Yea he came asking me questions about Jennifer. She’s been missing since that night at Liv” I said blowing smoke out of my mouth.

“Ok and what does that have to do with you?" Meek asked.

He didn't even seem fazed by the fact that she was missing. Like he'd already known, about it. Which had my mind racing even more.

"Ahmeek, we got into a fight the same night she went missing of course I'm going to be someone they question. Everyone saw us fighting" I said.

Meek took the blunt from my hand and took a pull. "Umm" he replied and the coolness of his tone made my blood run cold.

"What did you do to her?” I asked

“What are you talking about?" he asked me blowing smoke out of his mouth.

"You went out that night and you didn’t come back for hours. You said you had something to handle” I said remembering that night.

“Chanel I’m gone damn near every night I work at night’s. You questioning me about some shit like I don’t hustle. That shit is an after hours all types of hours job baby girl" he said.

I knew Meek was gone most nights and I wanted like hell to believe him but I had this gut feeling telling me he was lying about this. "Ahmeek, just tell me the truth" I said.

Meek glare at me and I could see him battling with what to say to me. Outing the blunt he stood from his seat. "I didn't do anything Chanel.. I have to make a couple moves" he said walking back inside.

Getting up I followed behind him, when I saw him putting on his sneakers my heart sank.

“Where are you going Ahmeek?” I asked stopping right in front of him.

Meek looked up at her and shook his head. He tried to walk around me but I blocked him. "Chanel take your ass to bed" he said grabbing his car keys.

"No why are you walking away from me when I'm trying to talk to you?"

"Because I don't have shit to talk about and I have money to make" he said walking around me.

“Ahmeek !” I shouted after him.

Meek stopped dead in his tracks, but he didn’t turn to face me.

“Where are you going" I asked.

"Like I said I have business to handle” he said stepping onto the elevator. He looked up at me and pressed the button for the garage “don’t worry I’m not going to kill anyone since that’s what you think I do” he said as the elevator door’s closed. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes and I  blinked them away.

My heart felt like it was breaking, I wanted to believe Ahmeek so badly. But one thing I always trusted was my gut and it was telling me that Meek had something to do with Jennifer missing.  I didn’t want to believe that Meek could do something like that but my mind raced back to the first night I met him. He drew his gun on Rob like it was nothing, I saw the look in his eyes when he glared at Rob. It was as if someone else taken over his body.

I loved that Meek was a hustler, his street qualities was something that I found attractive. He was a boss he commanded attention and demanded respect. I saw the attention he got when he entered a room; the fear that lived behind the eyes of people who got close to him. I knew he’d killed before but would he kill Jennifer? And over what? Most importantly how did that make me feel?

Meek: 

When I walked into the office Carter was sitting behind his desk taking a sip of his Scotch. "What did you need to talk about?" Carter asked sitting up in his chair.

I paced back and forth my hand running down my waves. "Remember that girl I made  disappear" I said.

“Mmhmm"

"A detective came by Chanel’s spot today asking her questions. Now she’s asking me questions"

"What’d you tell her ?"

"I said I ain’t have shit to do with it” I said matter of fact.

Carter scoffed “I know she ain’t believe your ass.”

“Obviously not. But I can handle that, I just need this detective off her back. She don’t need to be dragged into my mess” I said.

"Well if she wasn’t fighting then Jennifer wouldn’t be dead. But what are you going to do about this detective?"

"Jennifer was a loose canon and it was a matter of time before she tried Chanel. I wasn't going to take that chance. So I handled the problem. The detective now I need help with"

"You want me to make the investigation go away?"

"Yeah, I know you have Miami PD and all that on your payroll. I just need it of Chanel, I'll take my chances if the protection doesn't extend to me" I said.

“Ah so that’s why you're here. Here I was thinking you wanted to hang out with me" Carter said.

"Stop playin man” I said

Carter chuckled, "Listen when you started working for me my connections became your connections. I don't extend that to just everyone but you being with my daughter along with me actually liking you its yours. I'll call them and see what I can find out and let you know and it won't be a problem anymore" he said.

“I appreciate it G” I  said.

“Like I said, my connections are your connections now. You’re apart of this operation now you’re covered. However I think you need to tell Chanel the truth about Jennifer, because I know my daughter she’s not going to let this shit go. I taught her well, when she get's an idea in her head she won't stop till she finds out the truth. And I think you're good for her, I know how much you would do for her and that's a father's dream for his daughter to have. Plus I haven't seen anyone flip shit the way you and your crew do so you more than have my respect. But tell her about Jennifer, if you explain it to her she'll understand." He said.

Nodding my head I let out a sigh, I wanted to tell Chanel, but I was just scared that she would feel differently about me.

“Go handle that, I’ll get at you in a few days about the drop” Carter said.

"Ight G" I said giving him a dap and leaving the warehouse. Lighting the blunt I pulled out the warehouse heading to Chanel’s house.

                                                     ___________

Walking into Chanel’s room I quickly scanned it searching for her. I noticed the balcony door slightly open.

Letting out a deep breath I stepped out onto the balcony. Chanel was sitting in the chair smoking a blunt.

“How much did you smoke” I asked.

"2 blunts since you left" she said looking at me.

Sitting down next to her I took the blunt from her hand and brought it up to my lips.  

“Did you finish what you needed to handle” Chanel asked.

“Yes"

“Are you going to tell me what happened or you going to keep lying to me ?” Chanel asked.

Sighing I took another pull of the blunt and let the smoke out of my mouth. “What exactly do you wanna know ?“  

“Have you ever killed anyone?"

I ran a hand down my waves and face sighing. "Yes"

"How many?” Chanel asked

“Chanel.. "

"How many people have you killed ?"

"I don’t know ma, I’m not keeping numbers of the bodies I’m lining up” I said honestly.

“Did you kill Jennifer?“

I took another pull of the blunt and blew the smoke out. "She was threatening you, Jennifer was spiteful and I wasn’t taking that risk with you. I’m not the good guy, Chanel. I don’t take kindly to disrespect, the minute I feel disrespected nigga’s stop breathing. You’re mine Chanel, you got a nigga whole heart and I don’t play about you. Any threat or harm that comes your way is disrespect to me and I’m body bagging anyone behind you.I’m all street baby, I’m not gone apologize for any of that, because this is all me Chanel. I can’t change this” I said.

Chanel took the last pull of the blunt and set it in the ashtray.

"Baby say something please” I said my voice held my fear that she would up and leave me. I couldn’t handle that, I wasn’t letting her go. The only way that was happening is if they put me in a body bag.

Chanel turned her head and looked at me. “I love you Ahmeek. The love I feel for you is border line toxic. People don’t love this hard, I’ve never loved this hard. When I’m not with you I feel like apart of me is missing, like I’m walking around with only half of me. When we’re fighting I feel like I can’t breathe, I can’t eat I can’t sleep. I was alive before you but you make me feel like I’m finally living. I thought knowing this would scare me away from you, but there isn’t anything you can do for me to leave you. I’m all in with you 25 to life like you always say. I ain’t never wanted to be anyone’s ride or die until you. It took me two months to fall in love with you and I’m not going anywhere. I’m here forever baby. No matter how crazy you are or how crazy you make me” Chanel said.  

I was on her in seconds, pulling her shorts down. Chanel grabbed the waist band of my sweats and  boxers pulling them down and freeing myself.