a game of lost and searching

You had a version of me no one else ever got & you wasted it.

Sending love to those who are over-stimulated, over-giving, under-held, and trying to feel something while also trying to become someone. Be patient with yourself.

they should normalize saying "I'm thinking of you fondly but don't have much to say and frankly I don't even really want to talk rn but you have appeared in my thoughts and it's nice"

what you allow to be done to Black people will always be done to others. If you decide rape, cannibalism, lynching, genocide and slavery are fine for one group, you're saying you're fine with it being done to everyone else. And it's very tragic that the misery of Black people must always be the dead canary in the coal mine

People who are “meant for you” don’t usually require you to override your own nervous system to stay.

The Epstein stuff is only mind blowing if u forgot what this country did to the Africans they enslaved and wore their flesh as wallets and carried them around in their coat pockets and sat their sons and daughters down for dinner on chairs stuffed with black hair. After culling the land of 10s of millions of natives like when I talk about this world just being a sick cold deplorable wasteland of treacherous beasts and monsters I’m being “negative” or I’m “depressed” oh okay …..

i am once again experiencing urges and desires

y’all thinking this is a horny post but it’s about violence actually

unfortunately very true. Doing Better does not always mean never being upset or never being triggered or never having trouble. often Doing Better means experiencing those things and being able to keep going/cope healthily/move on. if you’re in a bubble with no sensation, if you’re numbing yourself out, that’s not what recovering really is. it won’t help you have a happier life it’ll just make your world smaller and smaller until you can’t fit anywhere anymore. gotta learn to make peace with the hard stuff too, that’s the only way to keep going

the thing about giving up is that it isn’t permanent. one must give up like twice a week in order to keep going