Pixie

Ok so maybe I might be a lesbian because I’ve been on two dates with two different guys and I really had no interest in them. I’m starting to think I might be a lesbian or asexual because I’m not really sure if I even have interest in men anymore.

I watch la la land a few years ago and I still think about it from time to time because of the soundtrack. I walk around with the music playing in my ears wondering when I’m gonna experience love that sounds like that … but then I remember how the movie ends 😭

I feel like every time I eat, I get an overwhelming sense of nausea to the point where I feel like I never want to eat again. I’m not sure if others feel this, but it’s starting to make me feel like I don’t even like food at all and that it’s all just for show.

It’s so frustrating when you’re reading a good tumblr fanfic and you put it down for a few minutes and when you go back to it, tumblr refreshed your page and now you can’t find it :(

I know that losing people is hard, but I feel like it’s even harder when they’re still alive, but just gone from your life in particular. To you, they were your one in a million, but to them, you were just their one of a million. You had devoted so much time into one person that didn’t put you first the same way you did for them.

I just read the most beautifully written fan fiction of my life. It was 100+ chapters and written on Wattpad, but it touched my soul in ways no story ever could. The drama, the angst, the deception; I have never been so affected by outcome of the story as I was when reading it. I may not be religious, but whatever brought me to the same timeline as this story is something I will thoroughly appreciate and worship until I find another.