☆tyler☆

having to hear people tell my mom to just let me die cuz it's obvious I'm never gonna recover is the worst pain I've ever felt in my life this disorder truly has taken everything from me

I don't think food will ever go back to just being food

I went to my friend's birthday party and I was the only one not eating so her dad came up to me and asked me why I wasn't eating and I told him I wasn't hungry and he looked at me and just ohh so ur on a diet and laughed am I really that fat?

fyi if I seem unstable it's cuz I am because I don't take my antidepressants cuz I'm afraid they'll make me gain weight :D

I will keep denying I have an ed until the day i die

I can feel my health rapidly declining but it's okay cuz ☆skinnyyy☆

ik recovery isn't an option for me anymore cuz I just searched up how many cals are in lipstick... 😭

guys oatmeal is worth the cals and if you say otherwise ur lying cuz ana literally told me herself

I cant help but feel selfish for doing this 2 the people I love but at the same time I don't think I can stop

refusing food from someone you've told about your ed is like war they keep pressuring you to eat stuff like if I wanted it I'd accept? but I don't so it's weird 😭 they all have savior complexes I swear