mentally ill artist

i think my purpose in life is to just skip from one unhealthy coping mechanism to the next. its like fucking pokémon, gotta catch em' all

i want people to care but not too much but if they don’t care enough it triggers my fear of abandonment and rejection. i want to be alone but i want to be surrounded by people who admire me but i don’t really feel worthy of admiration. and how i can simultaneously want these things that are at opposite sides of the spectrum really just wreaks havoc on my brain

addiction does not make someone a bad person

It can make someone do bad things tho

i feel sick when i remember how i opened up to you

do you ever sabotage your own free time? like wtf is that about? i want to play this game or read or do something specific but instead i will just stare out the window or scroll mindlessly???

Lying down and feeling your ribs and hip bones>>>>>>>>>>>

Why tf do I keep telling myself it’s okay to eat like no bitch you’re fucking fat go starve 🥰