Pirate101 Kane

IVE ALWAYS IMAGINED HIM TO BE MORE WOODEN. AND DOLL-LIKE. WITH FABRIC PERMANENTLY BUILT INTO HIS MECHANICS BUT. I DONT KNOW !!! MY HANDS MOVED ON THEIR OWN!!!!! i had One thought knocking around my skull, and it was phule maintenance. i NEED to get in between his gears i NEED TOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUHHHHHHH.

in a hypothetical world, i like to imagine there’s a phule out there embedded with some portion of kane/el dorado material. i want to believe that sacrifice fundamentally affects how they both function. i want that hypothetical world to debilitate them BOTH. i want them BOTH resentful.

i don’t think kane could salvage a whole Body’s worth of material from leftover dorado reserves. but. him wanting to make his inner court naturally expensive with your everyday, run-of-the-mill gold just to abandon the idea with phule because it was too malleable/made him too susceptible to damage is another cool concept to me.

cool in the sense that i want phule’s position in the armada to feel more intensely altered/accidental. he was built with vague, INSPIRED purpose in my head… because i view kane as very emotionally driven despite the apathy that runs (cough ran cough. lmao. rip bozo) his actions.

it’s the kind of drive that would have intensified the resentment kane felt for his “failure” while also ensuring he’d be too fond of its origins to see it destroyed. (consider. also. that scrapping phule would have been its own embarrassing show of hand. emotion-wise)

like i want more emphasis on phule being an off-kilter product. a rusty, yet highly incomparable prototype. like kane’s initial hopes and ideas of perfection were all accumulated into his first piece and had to Die there.

something something. make that dynamic more on the nose and indicative of family trauma. something something. the passing down of negative traits through genes. something something. the selfishness of parenthood shining through despite it being an act of “giving” at its core. something something the imposition of perfection. something something. art is pain? whatever i have too many thoughts on this matter im all Jumbled.

and Ugh i didn’t mean to make my phule post armada family dynamic/kane-centric. but. what do you Know. the implications of birth and existence infect every aspect of every narrative. booooooooo.

(i actually really enjoy delving into this kind of stuff, but this is Not where this post was supposed to go. rest in peace to the other bits of analysis i deleted from here. as well as the lyrics i once had attached about el dorado, the armada, phule's purpose, and. the very nature of his existence. going off topic + the media limit have struck again, unfortunately ((unfortunate for Me))

you know. i haven't started on/rendered the pieces i Should be rendering, but... i've been having some fun cranking out phoodles while trying to practice things related to values and tonal corrections and. Stuff. art things, you know the drill. messing with greyscale.

now am i improving? who knows. but i Need this sort of outlet for my love regardless LMAO.

love this song when it comes to the #phule dynamic sorry. i haveee to include it here. nihilistic pirate prone to brooding vs phule “lock the fuck in cause i’m right here” pirate101. the world is a cruel and unjust place… omg wait kissing phule hiiiiiiii. hashtag "stupid as ever, i see" 😍 and also hashtag. Stop saying hashtag, man. my Bad.

furbyvore sanctioned torture is almost over guys i promise. i've just gotta purge my full scale pages.

i think about the color clown more than i breathe. probably. phule full legal name pirate101 you’re everything to me and More. i wish i could get less caught up in how i go about sharing this sort of stuff.,, cause i just want my feelings materialized and Out there.,, , , but i always feel a littleee (understatement) bad when i don’t have anything entirely cleaned up or worthwhile to offer,,. like i really wish i was more dedicated to producing stuff that’s quality .,, , , as opposed to. my Wacky two pixel doodles. made out of pure cravings.

but. practice is practice i guess. and Phule is Phule.

and i fucking LOVE phule.

he’s chapel ceiling worthy. i will not let myself fall completely into my bouts of anguish and tragedy (which happen often) until my endeavors lead into me painting phule exactly as i see him. On a chapel ceiling. that i Own. how’s that for a life goal huh.

sorry i have to reiterate i’m insane like this Every phost to avoid coming across as something i’m not. which is normal. i never believe i’ve conveyed the full scale of my feelings for him, OKAY!!! you’re just gonna have to DEAL with my soothing techniques.

you didn't come here to hear all that, though. and i'm like. 99% you haven't come here Willingly at All. so. thank you for enduring my rambles and images!! i Will be back. and that's a threat.