some character development questions!! what is keith's favorite memory? what is his love language like - what things make him feel loved / cared for? what's something keith's proud of himself for? what's one insecurity?
LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT KEITH KOGANE / always accepting. / @madefate
KEITH’S FAVORITE MEMORY : oh, anything & everything with his father in it. all things considered, keith didn’t remember much about his dad prior the quantum abyss, seen how the human brain tends to forget obsolete information in order to retain new things, so he understandably didn’t quite remember his father’s voice, or many details of his face, before the trials of marmora ( but the quantum abyss gave him a lot on his dad, & family, & sense of self ). therefore, he remembers how he felt whenever he had kurtis with him — be it the most mundane of the activities, such as post dinner lessons, or making waffles together, or his favorite of this batch, which is waking up every saturday morning real early so he & his pa could watch speed racer reruns, each with a bowl of soggy cereal ( both of them put the milk first, by the way ). & then, of course, there are the special memories. going to the carnival, the first time he got on the hoverbike with kurtis, stargazing with him, learning how to mess with the radio in the shack to hear all kinda weird noises… all of this brings keith a sense of fondness — now no longer tarnished by regret & guilt. his dad was a hero, he is not to blame for his father’s death.
HIS LOVE LANGUAGE : certainly isn’t very verbal. keith isn’t the sort of guy who speaks what he feels, he just feels it & does his best to make it known through his actions, which is known to be misinterpreted quite often. however, when it’s the other way around, he won’t know he’s loved until he actually hears it. he’s not that great understanding cues, & a lifetime of trauma says people can do something & mean something else entirely ; he likes to hear he’s loved, care for, that he’s needed & wanted for who he is, not for what he got to offer ( it is one of many reasons he left the team for the blades back then. he didn’t feel necessary, & the team made him think he was no longer wanted. experience says that’s his cue to leave scene ). but also, push him. push him to be more. push him to realize whenever he’s going too hard, too fast. push back when he rages, but not with aggression. loving keith is a rollercoaster, but it pays off. once he grows used to the feeling, keith becomes extremely physical, in the sense that he will want to touch & be touched whenever ; hugs, hand holding, cuddling, leaning on each other, etc. as aforementioned, he is a man of few words.
WHAT BRINGS HIM PRIDE : keith relearned to be proud of himself, sometimes to the point of cockiness. he knows what he’s capable of, he knows how good he is as a pilot & as a soldier, & with time, he also learns to be proud of how his brain functions. he’s not the emo, dumb kid sitting in the back of the classroom. he’s none of those things, really. he learned to be proud of how he sees the world & understands it, that’s no cause of shame when he makes a mistake that no one else would. he is also proud of his sexuality, you know. he’s gay, he’s trans, & nothing in the world ( besides his own dysphoria sometimes ) can make him lower his head when it comes to those two things. bottom line, keith takes pride in feeling comfortable in his own skin after so long, with its own scars & differences ; he’s galra, he’s human, he’s asian, he’s on the spectrum, he’s gay, he’s a trans man, he’s an abuse survivor, he’s a kogane, he’s a damn good pilot, he’s a good swordsman. knowing all this & being ashamed of none of that makes him proud.
THE ONE INSECURITY : despite all that ? he’s insecure in the face of being cherished for. being acknowledged positively is not something he’s used to, despite shiro’s many attempts. he fears being pushed away ( in any sense ) so for a long time he reduced himself to people’s expectations. he’s the lone wolf ? okay then, he’s the lone wolf, no matter how much he actually likes being around people every now & then. one of his biggest insecurities, too, is being in the center of attention for something he didn’t quite prepared himself for. yes, i am talking about leading voltron. keith rarely second guesses, but whenever he’s in black? he does. he hesitates in the same way he does when reaching for someone. he doesn’t know if he’s doing something wrong, or what he should do instead. anxiety is a bitch.
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