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✎ RECENT WORKS someone to hold me down - LN4 part one , part two , epilogue ; anything but all of you - LN4 ; drop dead - OP81 ; sue me (i wanna be wanted) - IH6

lando seeing g exploring wouldn’t have bothered him particularly in my mind?? i think maybe only to the extent that it touched on his insecurities about being the filler guy/backup/good enough until what you really want comes along. if he saw yn exploring though… whew he’d be sick to his stomach genuinely and would be trying to convince himself it’s bc it’ll hurt carlos and that’s the only reason he cares, certainly nothing else to see here, not his own heart being broken!!! carlos would probably just use it as fuel to keep moving crazy though 😭

the only thing i really planned out for her was that her last relationship was with a guy who was like the life of the party, a really nice guy, spontaneous and adventurous, and i think she thought she’d found the one but he just couldn’t do anything hard/serious when it mattered. probably something happened in her personal life where she really needed him as an emotional support and he just dipped bc he couldn’t handle it. lowkey i think he ghosted her after like a year of dating?? which obviously she didn’t take well at all. her reactions to carlos and lando and their perceived “seriousness” at the beginning of the show are so informed by that, a complete overcorrection to a terrible experience!!

and i DO see what you’re saying but also i have to be brave and admit that unfortunately any time oscar looks like Just Some Guy is when he is the hottest to me…. let’s discuss

omg... baby i did do an oscar fic based on drop dead if you haven't read it !!!!! but actually i have been kicking the tires on an ex!carlos x singer!reader x alex smau based on the album... idk... watch this space !

ohhhhh bryce... that lil white boy moves me so bad. like of course he was tumblr famous back in the day. my spiritual kinnie. but to answer your question: yes! im laughing so bad bc i didn't wanna spoil and this is like very prominently featured in the soon tbr casa chapter but yeah oscar's sleeping on the daybeds with half of a photostrip he and lily took in the photo booth together. he literally will not even look at any other woman like its so over for him until he gets back to his girl

literally #everythingislandoyn final bosses... they are everything to me. trinity beefing tierra and bryce giggling and watching with googly eyes is soooooo lando watching yn tell carlos she doesn't wanna talk to him ever again

Compared to the quiet darkness outside, the lights of the Beach Hut are so bright you have to squint against them. "Tonight was mental," you sigh, settling back into the chair and wedging yourself between the piles of throw pillows. "Dunno. I thought going out there and dancing in front of everyone in this stupid outfit was going to be the hardest thing." A tiny, humorless laugh escapes your lips. "Spoke too soon, I guess." The spotlights brighten almost imperceptibly and then dim again. The producer's voice rings through the tiny speaker behind the camera: "Seems like Carlos wasn't too happy with your results." "I mean — yeah," you say, puffing a gust of air out of your cheeks. "He was a bit upset. And like, I get it, I do, but it's like I said to Lan. It's just not that deep, is it? Like, it's not real, or anything. I dunno. It's a bit frustrating. We sorted it, though. Carlos just needed some reassurance." You pause, then add hastily, not wanting to sound too harsh, "Honestly, though, he was really mature about the whole thing. Like G absolutely kicked off massively, so I'm happy he was at least willing to hear me out." There's a burst of static over the speaker before the producer scratches through again. "How's Lando doing after the row with Georgia?" You can feel your expression sour, brow creasing, mouth pulling into a frown as you tug a pillow into your lap and hug it tightly. "I think he's okay now, but he was pretty upset. Some of the stuff G said to him, it just really wasn't on. He cares so much about her and he really takes things to heart, he just doesn't broadcast them all the time. I'm just glad I could be there for him after, you know?" you say. "Like he always is for me. Even when he was sad tonight, he had me properly laughing in, like, under a minute." The smile stretches across your face almost-involuntarily at the memory of it, the same way it always seems to when you talk about your best friend. "He's gotten so good at reading me, it's like I've known him forever. He just — he gets me, I guess. I don't think anyone else in here does, at least not like he does. I'm lucky I have him." It's silent, for a moment, only the recording light on the camera blinking steadily back at you. The lights feel uncomfortably hot against your cheeks. Normally, you don't mind the Beach Hut — actually, you usually welcome the chance to talk your feelings out — but for the first time, you're sitting here replaying your own voice in your head and wondering if it sounded the way you meant it to. "Right," you say uncertainly, standing and brushing down your dress with clumsy, desperate fingers. "Well, I'm exhausted, honestly, and Carlos is waiting for me. Are we good here?"