The Wacky Hi-Jinks of Philip CM

I really do think that I'm a good person, with a lot of qualities that women want in a partner. And I do think I would be a good one.

But the whole finding dates thing is so hard for me. I don't know where to look anymore or what to do. I can be friendly with anyone, but being personable is not the same as being attractive or magnetic. I really don't think I have whatever "it" is that makes a woman see me in a romantic way. (Which is totally my fault, not theirs.) Maybe I'm not exciting enough, or assertive enough. It's not always conducive to meeting new people or asking them out, when I think that women should be allowed to live their lives without having a man butt his way in every five minutes.

I do worry that my inexperience will be a turn off, or that makes me not good enough. A grown woman shouldn't have to feel like she's dealing with a baby.

But of course, everything I just said sounds like it's either an anxiety or self-esteem problem lol.

I told my therapist once that dating feels like flying the space shuttle into reentry. There are a hundred steps to do right, and if I do any of them wrong at any point, I either bounce off the atmosphere and float back into space, or I come in too steep and burn up in reentry.

Why is it so hard for too people to just find each other, who like each other and would be a good fit? Why can't that happen to me?

I know if I don't figure this out, I'm going to be alone forever. And I don't want that.

Or maybe I need to start taking Ritalin to deal with ADHD thoughts that always lead me back to thinking about singleness. Or I could just learn to really and truly be happy on my own.

how many followers do you have?

when’s the last time you went on a date

how many posts have you made?

What type of shoes do you wear?

what colour are the walls of your room

where are you right now? (not exact location. ex: at a park)

would you consider yourself good at art?

who was your first kiss?

do you still sleep with stuffed animals?

what’s your favourite piece of clothing you own?

do you live in an urban, suburban, or rural area?

what’s your favourite store to shop at? (online or irl)

if you had to choose one POSITIVE word to describe yourself, what would it be?

do you collect anything?

what’s the last thing you ate?

if you go to therapy, do you like your therapist?

what’s one thing you want to buy, but don’t have the money or resources to get?

Who’s the first person you can think of?

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

If you could revive one tv show that has been cancelled, what show would it be?

do you consider yourself a part of any alternative subculture? if so, which one(s)?

who was your childhood favourite music artist?

CDs or record players?

Do you believe in any conspiracy theories?

would you get back together with an ex if given the opportunity?

favourite kid’s show character?

is the person you call your best friend actually your best friend?

when you’re sad, do you prefer to listen to music to match your mood, or listen to happy music?

what’s the last outfit you wore?

do you have any online friends?

least favourite clothing style that is currently popular

how often do you do your laundry?

do you prefer silver or gold jewelry?

what’s your book/movie/tv guilty pleasure?

if you could change your hair however you want, how would you change it?

do you paint your nails?

what’s an uncommon/specific /obscure topic you’re interested in?

what’s the name of your first pet/what would you name your first pet if you had one?

what’s one feature you would change on tumblr?

what’s the most interesting item you own?

would you rather go on a date at a museum or a concert?

Red-crowned Cranes (Grus japonensis) raising a ruckus, family Gruidae, order Gruiformes, Hokkaido, Japan

Vulnerable.

Blue-winged Kookaburra (Dacelo leachii), family Alcedinidae, order Coraciiformes, northern QLD, Australia