i miss her.

Surrounded by friends but feeling like there’s no one to talk to. It’s the absolute worst feeling in the world. I don’t even know what to say if/when people ask “what’s getting you down?” because the answer is “I don’t know”. Truthfully, I don’t. So how am I suppose to talk to someone about how I feel if I don’t know whats making me feel this way. This has gone on for nearly 5 years now. It’s wearing me down and I feel so close to my limit. I just want to be a coward and let this all be over.

god i hate myself.

I'm so bad at letting go of the past. I always end up remember all the good and the bad things about you. 

First week of college, already stressing out badly.

Oh my god, college is so crazy @_____@. Easier schedule, but I seriously have to devote a shitload of time studying. Like ACTUALLY studying. No more fucking games.