151124 “An Eric - Starry Night”, a Fan’s thoughts on the Shinhwa’s Leader
Note: A little hesitant to translate this as it’s mostly a thought of a fan and it does not represent how Eric feels or what he thinks about Shinhwa and himself. That said, it does give insight of how it feels as a fan.
What some fans may perceive as a “pity” toward the load of responsibilities Eric carries as well as scarifying his own time (yes the company doesn’t stop running even if they’re not in the smack of a comeback) & materials things for Shinhwa & Shinhwa company but does Eric feel that way?
There’re time we wish Eric to prioritize his own activities a little more, has a drama/movie every year like he used to before there is Shinhwa Company. BUT, more than 10 years ago, the moment he said this to Bulsae PD back in 2004 at the height of fame & popularity, he had chosen which path he’s going to walk. He did not just talk the talk but he walked the walk didn’t he? When one accomplish what he or she set out to do, isn’t that a great accomplishment already?
Once Eric was asked to define “success”, his answer was “Success starts with balance and satisfaction with your own life” - 2013 People Inside
Fame, popularity obviously are not on Eric’s book. Different people have different goals and things they set out to seek. As long as they achieve what they look for, it’s all that matters isn’t it? As for material things, we are not worry for Eric. Not showing it off isn’t not having. If he’s in no rush of making money with his solo activities, isn’t it a good sign he’s not in any financial stress? (or so we hope 😃). Any way, here’s the post!
Note: “Hyogi” is a nickname that Korean fans use to refer to cute & endearing side of Eric. It’s a wordplay from “Hyuk” of Mun Jung Hyuk.
Tonight is the night I can’t stop thinking about Eric, especially after talking about Shinhwa and their trademark issue.
During the concert, Kim Dong Wan said,
“Eric contributed a great deal of help during the trademark trial.”
Seeing how he even went ahead to solve problems related to financial issues, it hits me hard that great responsibilities follow great strength.
Great responsibilities follow great strength, and great money follows great responsibilities.
Obviously, what I’m trying to focus on right now is not the money. However, I know far too well that money is the best thing in this world and what Eric did is an amazing, yet uneasy choice to make, especially in this capitalist society in which endless accumulation of wealth underlies.
Eric is someone who just walks around smiling like a baboo.
Even though I go all like, “My baby, my baby, my precious Hyogi” and treat him like a prince, I can’t help but to think that somethings that Eric does make him seem so unfamiliar.
But obviously, in a good way.
It’s not like I’m the one who gave birth to him, but whenever I read stories related to Eric’s responsibilities, I don’t know why I always get these overwhelming emotions as if my own kid went around doing good deeds.
Was it on Radio Star? Eric said that the only reason why he was chosen as the leader was solely because he’s the oldest..
If someone who’s anything but the confronting type was given the leader position, I wonder who will compensate for the weight of responsibility Eric bears alone.
I wonder if elderly mothers feel this way whenever they watch their sons from afar, carrying rice over their shoulders and heading to the city.
Feeling proud is another thing. As of right now, worries overlap worries and just pains my heart.
Seeing Eric walk around with a silly smile on his face, I die a little inside with cuteness overload. However, when I hear stories of Eric, and not the Hyogi that we all know of, sadness weighs down the heart of Hyogi’s mom – which is me.
I know that he is the one who takes on the company’s accountability and the responsibilities linked to the title, and that he’s keeping his sense of responsibility due to the incentive that comes back to him,
But I want to ask exactly how many people will take the responsibilities of the unwanted title others give them to carry.
Maybe this is why I’m so sad about him.
Who knows he could be weighing down his own shoulders voluntarily, even though it’s completely unnecessarily.
I know it’s wrong to discourage people about their responsibilities, but my point is that, who will make up for the amount of heavy load Eric is carrying?
Not just that, Eric is not the type of person who does good deeds and expects things in return. That is why my heart feels even more uncomfortable.
He doesn’t like fighting up for things,
He hates being superior.
For that, I feel double the sadness for him.
The audiences focus on characters who silently fulfill all their tasks in books, movies, and dramas, but that’s not the case in real life.
In work, do clumsy people who just works all day long grade up their position faster? That’s not true.
When Eric mentioned in Healing Camp that he chugged down a whole bottle of alcohol and called his dad, my heart was tearing apart.
That’s when my sadness and targeted anger came rushing in.
I wondered why such a big weight was given to this person.
Whenever I look at my adorable baby, sadness begins to burst out and overflow.
That is why you shouldn’t use the “Big oppa” word so easily.
Not until you realize the heavy weight underneath the familiar “Big oppa” word.
I’m so sad watching Eric, who does not know how to use cheats and tricks.
I’m so sad watching Eric, who’s always embracing all of the world’s responsibilities to himself.
Eric, who’s always putting himself in the backseat when in comes to Shinhwa.
Eric, who’s always carrying the weight that’s not his to carry and solving problems alone.
Eric, who’s always trying to handle things by himself.
While having a little conversation, something that 어썸봉 said the last time just straight-on nailed my heart.
“Eric is anything but the extravagant type who enjoys luxurious living. He saves money by shopping prudently at home… (online shopping). He must have earned heaps of money from all of the past activities, yet he resembles a Mom who never invest on herself and only saves money so that she can contribute to her kid’s marriage.” (Yet, he’s generous with the people he works with, like treating everyone to a $100 steak dinner in Hongkong).
It ached badly to read that.
Although I’m not fond of cheesy posts, the sadness in my heart was just too strong that it led me to do so.
He always have such a pretty smile on his face like this, but I wonder if his heart is darken with sadness.
I wonder if anybody is even aware of that.
I don’t have anything I can do for him, but all I know is that my little baby is the most beautiful person in this world. (Note: she doesn’t mean beautiful as the physical appearance but the inner beauty)
Though the lyrics doesn’t really have anything to do with this, this song just screamed “What’s on my mind”. Listening to this track, I wrote this post in sadness and unknown anger while thinking, “What is inside of Eric’s head.”
Translation: EricMun.tumblr
Source: dkgk1024 @naver
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