she wanted me,

but only when the sun set

and dusk arose.

she wanted me

when the rest of the world was in bed

asleep

not paying attention

she wanted me

when nobody was looking

not a single soul to see

but i gave myself to her

because having her sometimes,

having even one single part of her

every morning was just about as predictable as a slot machine

with many different amounts to bet

many different options to choose,

i was only one person.

my bet was just about as good as yours

one morning she wanted me,

i could taste her love

as it dripped off my lips

the way her body moved

i could tell she was in love

and god,

i could feel it

as her thighs pressed tightly to both sides of my ears

i couldn’t hear a thing

i could only feel her thighs shake

against both sides of my head

as i went deeper and deeper,

i was deaf,

but i did not need to hear her say i love you.