I don’t think I ever been in so much pain in my life. This one is very deep, slowly spreading the pain in every point of your soul. I never truly understand what it means to “ to love more means to hurt more “ until you left. It’s almost 10 months since you left and I don’t think I fully processed it all yet. I function back to who I was yet I’m just as broken as I heard the news the first time. It’s unexplainable how much pain I’m in now, I wish there is a cure for this. I wish you you were my least favourite brother but it’s impossible to not love you as much as I did. I miss you Aa, everyday every second you are all I can think about.













