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hiii everyone does anyone still use this website ???

god i HATE DATING. SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!

So maybe i called out of work today. I want to go out and explore but the place i work is in the very center of where all the stores i like to go to are so i can’t really go without fear of someone seeing me so. :| . But so far i’ve made food, cleaned my room some, put away my laundry, and read a book. so i’ve been productive enough but i only have a few more days to decide whether or not to take my next semester off and i’m really at a crossroads with it :/ even if i did take it off i’d still graduate a semester early instead of a year early which is not bad!!!!! at all!!!!!!!!! i know i wouldn’t do well in school right now because i can barely focus due to the trauma and unending loss :) but the advice i’m getting from people is very mixed, and i’m indecisive as fuck to begin with. basically i take the time off still live in my apartment and just work more and save money and just. relax. and take care of myself and give myself a breather for the first time in a long time before i am like. fully submerged into adult life. or i go to school with a full 15 hours continually suppressing how i feel and eventually imploding and doing poorly in my semester again. i feel like it’s obvious where my head is at but i think i’m just worried of what people think so much that it’s keeping me from definitively saying anything. sorry for long post -.- but if any of y’all have taken a semester off or haven’t or really any discourse or advice along these lines pls hmu