crazy in love

"Very, very lucky," she replied with a nod. Oryx had just finished tying up the bouquet, and for a moment she leaned down on the counter, just for a bit of a rest. "M-me?" she asked in a bit of a stutter as she pushed herself up, "Oh, gosh no," her reply was an uneasy laugh with a bit of a smile. "I, uhm.. I thought I had once," the girl smirked and turned around to keep herself busy with the plants behind the counter. "But that was just.. Sixteen year old me being stupid.." Extremely stupid, she had barely known the boy and well.. Look where it had gotten her. 

Peter shook his head. "It wasn't stupid if you thought it was love. I mean, I'm sixteen, and people tell me I'm being stupid all the time but I'm not and you probably weren't." 

A small smile crept along her lips, “That, is one of the sweetest things I’ve ever heard,” she smirked. How lucky was he to be in love? In a real and true love? One where you saw no faults and had no false feelings..

A small, shy smile crept onto Peter's lips. He tried not to gush so openly, but Oryx didn't seem to mind, and for that, he was thankful. "Yeah. I'm lucky to have her, too." He gave a nod, then frowned. "What about you? Do you have anyone like that?"

I can’t be in a relationship when I.. feel like this..

But don't you see that I can help? I would do anything to make you feel better, Vi. Anything.

"I just think you should find someone better to love, its not my business and im sorry for saying that. I just think you are kinda cool so ya know, if someone was leaving you it is pretty dumb."

"Well, she didn't really leave me. I..I don't know, actually. It's all..complicated, I guess. But I don't think there is anyone else out there for me to love like Violet."

I can’t- You don’t understand, P..

No. But I want to. I'm trying to. I'm so sorry that I'm not there yet.

"Well, I write about love. so..it kind of is?"

I'm so sorry, Vi. 

"I think I would wait forever for her. I can't imagine ever even wanting anyone else. She's everything I'll ever want and need, and...I hope I'm the same for her. Great love stories always have some bumps in the road, and this is ours."

Oh....shit. Vi are...are you okay? I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to overstep the boundaries I just...I'm, uh, I don't know what to do because usually I'd hug you but I feel weird doing that but...I really want to. Just...tell me what you need.

"I don’t need anyone, I don’t have the time. I’ve got to practice and dances and stuff."

"Oh. Yeah. Dance can be your love!"

"I know, I know I asked…sorry I did…but yeah it must be nice to feel that way about someone I guess."

"Uh, yeah, it is. I mean, it fuels my writing, at least. You'll find someone like that, Bailey."

"Oh right her. What is it you see in her? I’m not judging or anything. Mostly, I’m just curious.”

"I love her. I love everything about her. I love how easy it is to talk to her. I mean, even now, when we're all...messed up, we still talk and everything feels normal. I love her smile and her hair and the way her laugh sounds and the way she looks at me when I make a bad joke but she still laughs because she thinks it's funny. I just...uh, sorry. But you asked."

What does that mean?

It means I don't have anything if I don't have you.

The girl shook her head and couldn’t help but laugh a little, “I can tell you hon.. From what I’ve seen.. Girls can be a bit crazy in the head.” The entire thing seemed to be a tad confusing, if she loved him and vice versa, why where they not on fantastic terms? She didn’t get relationships, she couldn’t, she had no experience to back anything up with. “It’s sounds as crazy as the Cheshire Cat.”

Peter grimaced, then nodded. "Yeah. Well, I'm not gonna give up. We'll get back together at some point, I know we will. You can't keep true love apart, you know? She just needs time, and that's what I'm giving her. Well, trying to, anyway."

Oh, no, no, I do.

Good. Because I totally can. But only with you by my side.

Peter sighed. "I have no idea what it is, Oryx. I mean, we're broken up, but I still love her and she still loves me. It's insanity. Great material to write, but insanity all the same."

"Why not, I mean I might not get your lame jokes but others might. Besides you…well your good looking so you could talk to anyone."

"Yeah, others do. Not many, though. Mainly just like, Violet. And I'm pretty sure mostly she just laughs because she feels bad, although she says otherwise. Uh, and thanks."