girl with issues

Okay it's been a while now and I can honestly say I do not like the change from Fitbit to the Google health app that has replaced it.

I did something this week that older fatter me could have never done. I had 6 doughnuts in my apartment for almost 2 weeks an only ate one. for me that is incredible.

I'm kina scared to reach my ugw because what if I've been fat for too long and my body is totally fucked. i know my ribs will always be flared because of the stretching but what about my hips and collar bones...

I lost 1.7 pounds since restarting last week. I'm back to 227.1 I wish I had'nt given up in July. I refuse to give up this time.

I'm wondering if I can lose the better part of 29 lb before July I feel like I should be able to. It's not that much but the question is will I lose my sanity doing it? We're going on a glamping trip and the one area has a beach and I really want to take my littles swimming but I'm worried I won't look good in a swimsuit and I won't be allowed on the beach if I don't have one.

I keep jumping on and off the weight loss wagon but I really need to jump on and like strap in or something that way I can't bounce off again.