So, this is awkward.
I’m logging on to this old ass blog to come clean, honestly. I no longer identify with the anti-sjw side of tumblr, and I no longer consider myself truscum.
At the time I made this blog, I was going through one of the worst periods of my life. I was actively suicidal, and I was angry at those who didn’t deserve my anger. I felt let down by the transgender community on tumblr, and the suffering that I went through because of my own dysphoria led me to hate anyone who didn’t feel what I felt.
I was transphobic towards people who expressed their gender in a way that I didn’t understand. I believed that transgender people who didn’t make an effort to “pass” were responsible for transphobia.
I was ableist to a fault. I called people “psychotic”, a word that I have no business applying to other people. I believed that the misery I felt because of my own mental illness gave me the right to attack others who I believed were better off than me.
I made comics like this to express the bitterness I felt towards other people and gained recognition from them. I amassed hundreds of followers who believed the same things I did, and encouraged them to continue the cycle of negativity that I was taking part in.
I made this blog so that I could be a jackass. There’s no denying that. I wanted a a target for the rage and aggression that I felt, and convinced myself that other trans people deserved to be that target.
To everyone I’ve misgendered, I’m sorry. To everyone I’ve invalidated or attacked, I’m sorry.
For every five paragraph attack I’ve made on people whose experiences differed from mine, I’m sorry.
To my followers, I don’t have the authority to make you change your minds. If you’re following me, you probably agree with the things I’ve said in the past, and this post won’t dissuade you from believing what you believe. I wish I’d never made this blog and that I’d never given other people a platform for transphobia.
That’s all.
