Perfect Dates™

To Carolyn October 3, 2014. 4:48 a.m.

You will be loved by me for the rest of my life, you are in my dreams every night and always will X X X

To Drew March 21, 2012. 9:07 p.m.

Look I don’t know why it ended between us, it just seemed so sudden. I thought it was going so well for us and then you tell me your feelings changed. I haven’t stopped thinking about you all week. I know its only been a week but it feels like years since we talked. I just wanna hear your voice again. Remember the first time we talked on the phone? lol You were so shy, it was so cute. But then we laughed and talked all night, I think almost till the sun came up. I loved getting to know you. You were my everything baby. I dont know what you’ve been up to lately. I just pray for a day when we can be together again cuz there’s nobody out there like you. If you read this, I just want you to know that I still love you. And I don’t wanna be your friend. I want to be your “one” just like you told me. Please think about it. We can work it out okay? We can fix this. I just need a chance.

To My Love August 1, 2012. 5:30 p.m.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams; sailing around the world, please know that I am yours to keep. You are my lover and fighter and believer. You truly made me believe in love.

To Nicola P April 29, 2014. 7:18 p.m.

I love Nicola I have to write this anonymously for now, but i hope if you come across it by chance that you do not find it creepy, it is just a way to get out what i can't tell you, not yet anyway and probably never. Firstly the reason i am writing this is because i am with someone else, otherwise i would waste no time in telling this to you myself. So wait a minute if i am with someone am i not a bastard to say this to you? 3 years ago if anyone asked you who you love most in the world you would have had a name. Today you have another name. That does not mean that who you loved most 3 years ago is now "un" loved (assuming that you read this inside 3 years this is) but you feel different to the one you love most now, that person is your life and everything to you. So what is it that makes you so different to me? Well i always had this thought that a guy should know who is the one and only because when he woke up he was so happy to wake next to who he woke beside. He should be always aroused by her, always stimulated by mentally, and have pride and admiration and respect for her. The first time i saw you i was attracted, but i pushed that away from my mind. As time went by i was attracted not jut to the body but the mind. How you fought so vigorously for some things. How your temper could flare up so easily. Yet you were loyal and kind and just lovely. I have always felt that love letters are not a guy thing so if this seems girly and less than manly, well i make no apologies because it gets it off my chest. Anyway who i was with didn't match up and she deserved to be loved so strongly. But when i looked to you i felt sick and in pain. No i am not making it up, you literally cause me a physical pain to be away from you. But i saw you so rare that it was a blessing i suppose since the closeness to you hurt afterwards. But i wanted to tell you to just say Nicola when i look at you all i see is an angel, you stun me with your beauty, i mean literally like amazement and there is not one person famous now or in history who people usually fawn over, whom i could prefer to you. If i was put in a room with 80 naked women begging for sex i would decline because you are worth more for just a kiss than any other woman for anything else. How often though you bemoan the fate of your body, yet you think i see a need for change or make up? No Nicola, you as you is all that i want, no more than that do i need to be blown away utterly. But you are not just stunning physically, you have skills,and personality and humour and a manner about you that draws me in like a magnet, like i said already. Pride,awe,admiration,respect. If i thought you would accept i would take you as you are and marry you. I wish i could have my life beside you, to love and honour you and protect you and make you feel secure and loved. I guess the thought of such commitment is a whoah! for you, but for me it is not like a hey here's a stalker moment, it is just a way of saying that with you, there is not one moment of fear of committing. And a marriage or strong commitment is never all roses, but i would rather a day with you being stroppy with me, than a year with any one else just going through the motions. A kiss from you better than sex with anyone else. A smile from you lights me up. A life of wealth would be hideous if i could have swapped for life with you but without money because i would be poorer without your love despite monetary wealth so you win every single time. I am so gutted i can't just call or knock on your door, ask you out and hear you say yes and it goes from there. I am stunned to my core that any man ever left you or did not give you what you wanted to make you stay. I swear to you on my life that if you gave me the chance to be what you need i would. Not that i am a weak simpering fool, but if you had a clue as to who i was, you know that anyway. But, i would remember that i love you so i can be strong in many ways but never would a day go by that you question my love. If only i could be in the position of proving my words. And yet where do i find myself? I find i will watch a man get the greatest woman in the world, and i will be helpless. I will be torn apart. You are the other half of me, when people say "my other half" it seems jokey, but in this case, you ARE. But what can i do but say Nicola, if you find a man you love, i pray to god he loves you the way i do. Not for any one thing but for all that you are. And if ever you think you know who i am,and ask me to be with you or i find i am in a position to ask you i will. There is no hesitation for me. If there were words that could shape your feelings then i would have written these better. Pathetic scratchings likely to be viewed as creepy or stalky. Well i cannot feel other than i do and at the least feel a little better because i told you (sort of) Baby darling my heart belongs to you forever and if you made the slightest sign i will be only yours untill the day i die.

To Daniel March 25, 2012. 8:11 p.m.

You, You can make me smile on my darkest. You bring the sun out on those cloudy days. Although I've only known you for a couple of months you've changed my life in so many ways. And i want to know; do you think about me as much as i think about you? I won't tell you who I am because if i do things might change and maybe.... I might lose you. Danny, your amazing. It'll kill me when you graduate and I might lose contact with you. You'll go off to university, meet a girl who'll love you more than I ever could and begin a family with her. I want you to listen to two songs for me "Bring Me Flowers - Hope" and "Thinking About You - Frank Ocean" Their very soulful and i usually don't listen to these type of songs, but the day that i first talked to you i was listening to the first song and the day i actually talked to you, i listened to the latter. So when i'm ready to tell you how i feel, i won't say it with words; i'll say it with song.  Sincerely,  Your Secret Admirer

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What is true love? If you have to ask, you haven’t found it yet. But we can tell you what to expect: the feeling that you have already accomplished everything that matters. When you realize you've found the person of your dreams, the first “hello” is your happy ending. It’s the realization that everything you've been searching for—everything you've been hoping for—actually exists. And you’re consumed, not by lust or infatuation, and not by some quixotic notion of romantic fulfillment, but by the simple rhythmic beating of another person’s heart. When you realize the meaning of true love, you become captivated, bound, and destined to a project bigger than yourself. And giving happiness and protection to that person matters, for the first time, more than your own life.

Would you die for her? Would you die for him? Would you give up everything as long as you knew you could be together? If she lost her smile, if he lost his charm—if every spark of attraction were suddenly lost, would you feel the same? Most people will never know what it means to say “yes.” But if you can say, in blatant honesty, that nothing in the world could matter more than the relationship you have, and that there is nothing in the world you wouldn't give to protect it, then maybe—just maybe—you can answer the question: “What is true love?”

Yet maybe there is no answer. Maybe it’s just a feeling, something we’re not supposed to understand or define. But as long as we can hope for love, as long as we endeavor to meet the void in our hearts that only true love fulfills, the question will remain.

So as long as it does, let’s give it a shot. Would you take a bullet for her? Would you die for him? Do you accept that she will always have flaws? Do you accept that you can’t change him? Would you trust her with your deepest secrets? Could you give him your whole heart, knowing that if he breaks it you will have nothing left? If you can answer yes to all of the above, you’re a hero in the arms of love.

True love means to give and not to expect. It means to trust and not to control. It means to laugh for no reason, to adore with abandon, to dance like you have wings, and to know that sometimes when excitement fades or emergencies arise that there will be duty on your shoulders. And true love is to love no less when hours and days or years must pass of sacrifice. Because the promise of love is made in good times but proven in hardship. So if she lost her legs, if he lost his voice, would your love prevail then? If in the worst of circumstances everything you had learned to adore were suddenly torn away, would you admire her then?