you can call me Mel, she/her, 26. i’m a fan of Star Wars, specifically Star Wars: The Old Republic. this blog is for me to ramble about my OCs, write about them, and engage with you 🫵🏽🫵🏽🫵🏽
this is also technically a sideblog, but i use it as my main blog. i haven’t used Tumblr in a hot minute and i completely forgot that likes, asks, and follows would come from my main blog 😭 so if you see any engagement from @melthepigeon, that’s me!
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The Emperor's Wrath: a series of drabbles/one-shots on my (non-canon) nameless Emperor's Wrath.
Wildflower: a series of drabbles/one-shots about my jedi consular, Stasma Syr
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👀 two songs for Ourania. first, Saints by Echos. i think this song exemplifies Ourania's relationship with Valkorian—especially after Thexan's death, when they begin to realize that he's not not who he claimed to be (and, of course, when their memories begin returning of their previous life as a Jedi). some lines that i think capture this well:
I'm sorry, but you story isn't adding up
Think your religion is a lie to keep my mouth shut
So I won't testify to crimes you're keeping score of
Why don't you throw me to the wolves I thought you were one?
My dear, you're not so innocent
You're fooling Heaven's gates
So you won't have to change
You're no saint, you're no savior
second: Coming Home, Pt. II by Skylar Grey. this song is Ourania after KotET. Valkorian has finally been defeated, but Ourania's body is rapidly deteriorating and her death is imminent. but she is...at peace with this. she's lived a long life—against her will—and she's ready to become one with the Force.
And the blood will dry, underneath my nails
And the wind will rise up, to fill my sails
Still far away, from where I belong
But it's always darkest before the dawn
I'm coming home
I'm coming home
Tell the world I'm coming home
Let the rain wash away, all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home
I'm coming home
Tell the world I'm coming
thanks for the ask <3
[Send me 📻 + an oc and I'll give you a random song off their playlist + an explanation of why it's there]
idk why people are still trying to do "hear me out"s on tumblr
you could talk about wanting to fuck the space needle on here and people would still call you a poser for insisting on fucking "conventionally attractive architecture" as if that's a coherent, easily-recognizable category
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hi >:) could you tell us more about Icarus’s personality? what is his relationship like with the Jedi Order, specifically the Council?
Yeah there are about...9 total asks that Mel sent me that I have left lingering because I was...a little burnt out last month...oops. Sorry dear...at least I'm answering them now?
Icarus is uh. Well, as I kinda said in my previous answer about Icarus here, he gets a pretty rough start. Imagine you are like...13 with a freshly lost eye and hella rumors about how you lost said eye...and to top it off, the Jedi Council is Highly Concerned™ about you.
That was Icarus for the next decade he spent on Tython. I think part of what caused him to be so jaded was that the Council did nothing to hide that they were slightly scared of him and also continually kept trying to reinforce that they had seen so much potential in him that he wasn't reaching on Tython. Icarus by that point didn't know how to settle outside of warzones and kept being convinced that the way to avoid further conflicts like that was to just...train harder.
Of course, that then made him a prickly Padawan because of the pressure to reach whatever potential he felt the Council saw in him and it shaped his personality to be rather abrasive around his peers who were all scared of the kid who grew like a weed and trained like the war was going to restart at any moment. By the time he's a full Knight, he's certainly built a reputation for being a jackass to most people. He lets people assume he is a loose canon and definitely enjoys intimidating people with being just shy of 2m tall.
what was Icarus doing on Balmorra? how did he lose his eye? 👀
No, it didn't take me a month to answer this and the next 5 asks I have waiting in my drafts...whaaaaaat...
Now to be completely honest, I don't think Icarus even knows why he was on Balmorra. I think they sent him as a young Padawan with his first Master--Master Kriti--mostly because of the war. Why exactly they would allow a Junior Padawan for the first three years of his training to be in an active warzone...I don't know.
But Icarus made friends with some of the military personnel around him...until the Sacking happened. I think once the Treaty of Coruscant went into place, everything started to get really tense for Icarus. Obviously he was just a kid, but with the Jedi being blamed for the Republic losing the war and the continued conflict planetside...
Icarus won't tell me is later unable to fully remember what occurred leading up to the scrap, but a couple of drunk young soldiers got pretty angry about how the war had gone and went to attack Icarus. With the trained reflexes of a child at war and simply self-preservation, Icarus managed to engage them in a fight before they could actually kill him; one of them managed to hit Icarus hard enough in the eye to damage it and blind him, at which point it was a wild scramble for his lightsaber and resulted in the death of the soldiers.
That whole incident basically got him and Master Kriti pulled from Balmorra, which resulted in Icarus being sent to Tython because the Council didn't believe Kriti could control his Padawan.
hi >:) do you have a playlist for Grail? if so, could you share some songs off it? if you don’t have a playlist for him, is there a particular song that reminds you of him?
this is the part where i look like a deer in headlights and run away because i only listen to random shit
I've been listening to a lot of Octopath Traveler's OST lately and this theme always makes me picture him doing an action/battle sequence in my mind, so I associate it with him.
There's no lyrics but the juxtaposition of the guitar solo contrasted by a more traditional orchestra feels like his own bright, brave, and determined personality shining through the backdrop of his lineage's storied feats, and the heroic feeling of the instrumentals reflects his overlying destiny--a child of peace who will usher in a new age. The operatic part adds a sorrowful and grand feel that calls back to his bloodline's tragedies, but is overcome by the upbeat orchestration the way that Grail usurps the fate of his own family's past.
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hi everybody please reblog this and tell me your go-to coffee order right now and if you don't like coffee feel free to include your go-to tea order instead
well i'm on a jedi knight feels kick this week so how about 📻 + sena?
tagging @techn0plague because she also asked for Sena 💙
ZEN by JENNIE is practically Sena’s anthem. the song was released around the same time i had begun developing the early versions of her, so 😅 the song is about perseverance and having a confidence in yourself that no one can shake, and out of all of my ocs, i think Sena is the most steadfast in herself and her ideals. she never once doubted herself, even when things got pretty hard and dark, or her place in fighting against the Empire.
some of my favorite lines from the song that i think represent Sena perfectly:
Nobody gon' move my soul, gon' move my aura, my matter
Nobody gon' move my light, gon' touch my glow, my matter
Nobody gon'-, all this power make them scatter
No, nobody gon' touch my soul, gon' match my glow, like
I dare you (hey)
Thick skin layered like chains on chains on chains
Wear the pressure on my neck and rings
Rain, midnight bloom
In the dark, I grew
thank you for the ask!
[Send me 📻 + an oc and I'll give you a random song off their playlist + an explanation of why it's there]
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hello! i'm coming from Dela's blog :] she mentioned that Tove and your Sith, Ilesa, form an attachment of sorts—i was wonder if you could tell us more about this relationship? what does Ilesa see in Tove that reminds her of her past self?
Hello, hello (and welcome in)! I can definitely elaborate on that a bit and can speak to at least Ilesa's side of things and her views on the two of them. This turned out to be a lot because we've been at world building for them for a few days now, so apologies on the length of this, but I hope you enjoy!
Fair warning, for those not aware of the SWTOR class stories, Ilesa's story has a lot of not pleasant stuff and so does @delavairess's Tove to begin with and we tortured our poor chiss ocs even more.
Ilesa takes an interest in Tove while he's running through the main bits of the Agent class story, he's been on her radar for a while at this point because she's one of Darth Marr's enforcers and deals pretty heavily in inflicting tons of damage, eliminating targets, and being used as a threat -- she deals a lot in intelligence gathering and spy work as a means of making this easier on herself. She doesn't trust many people, and this helps her know the validity to the best of her ability of her info. Darth Jadus has... tried to persuade her to join him but the girl is loyal through and through to Darth Marr. So, naturally she's interested in some of Jadus's people, or at least in keeping tabs on them.
To get into how she sees Tove sort of mirroring what she went through in a way that reminds her of herself, there are a few things about her backstory that you should know. Like Tove, she is from the Chiss Ascendancy. She developed her force-sensitivity at a very young age and had the Third Sight. she was quickly given over to the state to train in order to become a sky-walker. But this is where I will say the account Ilesa knows differs from what actually happened. I'm still sorting out exactly what did happen and can say it was an unsanctioned experiment that a Chiss Admiral caused extreme harm to her in order to hide what he had authorized. The result is that Ilesa has a cybernetic implant with a jack that can be plugged into a nav console and she can interface directly with and fly a ship with her mind. At extreme risk to her, and doing so causes immense pain. She was forced to do this several times (she doesn't know how many).
She was ultimately found by some Imperial scavengers, floating in an escape pod, malnourished, freezing, and choking on the air which was largely carbon dioxide at that point. She was brought before the sith and gotten back into enough of a healthy state (she had fingers amputated and cybernetic ones installed due to frostbite) that she could stand on two legs, and taken to Korriban. Her first master was... Not great. He treated her like trash, manipulated her, made her work like hell, and tried to seduce her at the same time (it was a bad time all around for her), but Darth Marr killed him and saw something (a survival instinct and a desire to burn/electrocute things plus very clear and obvious gratitude that could be shaped into loyalty) in her that he could use. He took her in as his apprentice and the rest is history.
Ilesa sees someone that's also struggling to figure out who they are that is being pressed into a box at every turn. Someone that's angry. That wants revenge. That's been beaten down again and again, but is still hanging on. There's a ruthless efficiency to him. He's a survivor, even if he doesn't always know why he keeps trudging forward. And so is she. They've both fought to keep going. They've both been under someone's control that sucked. They've both been broken and put back together with cybernetic parts. They both need someone to protect them to some extent. Someone to hold a leash and say "they're under my protection" and to point them at a direction and say "go cause way more than a little chaos." Initially, there's some skepticism that the person holding the leash isn't going to beat them with it, but eventually that fades to loyalty.
Ilesa might still have a bit of the Third Sight in her, because I think she knew how much they kind of mirrored each other than we did. But she steps into Tove's story in person on Corellia to offer him both protection and a job, but on his terms (as much as they can be). She does this out of genuine curiosity, but she'd be lying if she said she didn't feel a tug, like there was something familiar in him. But the more they interact and the more he doesn't at all surprise her with his behaviors and reactions, the more she starts solidifying this thought that his soul mirrors hers. They don't have to do a lot of talking to sus one another out. A lot of their understanding of one another comes through watching actions. She proves pretty early on that he's her first choice. Why? Because he's interesting and he reminds her of herself. Because he deserves it in her mind. And maybe because she wants to be told or shown the same thing.
She does fall for him somewhere between him working for her, them flirting and falling into bed, and him coming around in the quiet moments in between when she's painting (slinging paint balloons at a wall of nails) or doing some other funky hobby in a very "her" way. They don't say "I love you" out loud for a long while and Tove is the first one to actually say it because they both know in the million little things that they do for each other. Ilesa gives Tove access to literally everything of hers. Including her info broker name and network (that slipped him information on how to break his conditioning). She tries to help him with his pain. And goes out of her way to learn to cook things that he mentions wanting to try. c: She wants to give him everything she didn't have and ugh. I love them. A lot. <3