hi hi :] from the swtor ask game you reblogged: 3, 8, 14, 20, 24, and 27 for Jedi Tivan’n
Damn this is a rooster of some rather deep cutting questions so... this might take a moment, everyone welcome to my writing file. Sit tight, relax it will take a while.
Also hiiiiiiiiiii, I hope you like those answers, I wroted them at work, oh noes.
But anyway, Jedi Tivan'n Time ✨
(have some bean. i love them, so pretty.)
3—Do they fit in with their faction or were they sort of born into it?
They are a chiss Jedi so, not so much. Plus for anyone who might not know, Jedi Tivan'n and Canon Sylvas are technically the same person and had the same childhood/circumstances—just Sylvas ended up getting thrown at a wall and knocked the Jedi who done it out with a wrench and ran to hitch a ride with everyone's favorite Captain Kazarian—Jedi Tivan'n? Got kicked with their force sensitivity kicking into gear and returning the near back breaking favor right into the face of the Green Jedi that done it to them first.
You can imagine the diplomatic incident this has become and with the Jedi getting a very angry, very scared and very hurt teenager brimming with righteous fury against the Jedi and the Force now thrumming in their veins and now basically being forced to join them because no one wants this on the loose.
So they always felt like an outsider, someone who had suspicion pointed their way before they knew why, and now being speedrun trained by the Jedi to be pushed onto the front lines.
They were the black sheep from day one, both victim and perpetrator in the eyes of people who took them away, for responding to violence and anger with violence and anger.
They to this day struggle with their emotions to some degree but also despite everything they were taught well and they managed to strike a rather neutral balance during the first war, being a very efficient squad leader and well-liked and well-respected in the military, people starting slightly suspicious but it not managing to stick once they were seen on the battlefield.
But ultimately they were never very Jedi-like, nor a representation that the Order wanted anywhere once the war wrapped up with some heavy Jedi casualties, thus their grounding for close to a decade on Tython.
The Jedi Knight story falling in their lap ended up turning this on it's head heavily.
Unsure if that's a good answer to this question but this is what I have.
8—How do they feel about the opposite faction?
Funnily enough? They don't actually think of the Empire that much? On the front-lines of the first war it was just nameless, faceless troops, people they didn't mind killing to keep their own squad alive and carving their way forward through the assignments.
Sith were... both terrifying and impressive. At least until they learned how to fight them, how some would twist on themselves without knowing how to handle their own emotions—something they struggled with as well. It was. Always something, also always something to be wary of, I guess Sith they fought in the fray of battle, seething with anger and fear and hatred—this was why they actually feared the dark side, because for as much freedom as it seemingly offered it felt like there was no way to Get Through to them beyond fighting and killing them before they kill you—at least until they met some more classically trained Sith that they could engage beyond clashing lightsabers.
(It is also funny because my initial idea for Jedi Tivan'n to just have been a stepping stone for a later Sith Sylvas but i got wrapped up heavily in JK story so i decided to have them Not Run away the moment it seemed Jedi were done for cough Sacking cough)
They hope for eventual peace without eradicating an entire culture nor being eradicated themselves. Which might not even remotely be realistic considering the Emperor wants to eat the Entire Galaxy. So. Uh. Yeah.
Honestly as un-Jedi-like as they think of themselves they have ridiculous amount of compassion for Sith and the Empire when they can actually allow themselves those feelings. Which has been pretty much non-existent during the first war and was slowly dragged to the forefront during their JK Storyline stint.
Also being pressed into a presentation of a knight in shining armor, actually having people look up to them with hope was fucking terrifying for them, and also something that became an unbearable responsibility they got forced to shoulder and then kept going until the weight was the norm.
And ngl it did became them against the Emperor instead of them against the Empire rather quickly—because well. If that guy doesn't go down they are all dead anyway. Everything else is a distraction.
14—Who is/are their favorite companion(s)?
Frankly I think they got along with everyone rather well—they liked Kira a lot, similarly with Doc or T7 but just.
There is a level of seperation that they needed to have there no matter what—and they knew how far the loyalty that was extended to them went—in a way liking all those people? Was already something that was a root of their problem, caged by everyone's expectations.
Probably the closest person they were to for a long time was Kira, but even she looked up to them as a padawan, up to a certain point. Well. It's complicated.
I think in the end Scourge ended up being someone they ended up connecting with the most, weirdly enough, and someone who had his own agenda but also he was the outsider in this whole troupe, someone knowing every in and out of what was upon their shoulders and what they've suffered and what they'll have to still do to save them all. He was pushing them where it was needed and well, soon enough he had someone to counter-balance him as well.
Also tbh Scourge is also the reason why they are continuously hovering around DS II and that is a Good Thing.
20—Do they have a love interest? Who?
There's actually two of themmmmmm.
And Tivan'n doesn't know that shit until like. Around Mid KotFE. That's the true slow-burn babyyyyyy, plus this, hypersexual in any other continuity, twerp can hold so much sexual repression and touch starvation in them after committing to Not Scratching that Itch because they'll go insane if they do it now because of lack of options, privacy and too much external scrutiny.
And the love interest are Lord Scourge and Skaia (long Story! ask Ela! I've already rambled for way too long XD)
24—If they could be a part of another group, what would it be? You can choose from Old Republic, Expanded Universe or Cinematic Universe.
Ngl I do not really understand this question.
So I'll shift it to if they could be a part of any other group (in the Old Republic) that is not a Jedi?
Hell, any group that'd have them. Any fucking group that'd let them just live their life without this force bullshit over their head.
27—Do they have any regrets?
Because every regret they have comes with a caveat.
Like. They did regret not cutting and running during Sacking—but then they remind themselves why they did it—to make sure their padawan (she was a knight by that point but she was with them when it happened) was safe and with her they did safeguard many people.
Every regret they have feels utterly selfish in the long run. Because sure they'd get their freedom but would they be able to live with themselves?
Yes. Yes, they would, they'd probably eventually feel fine choosing their own freedom over responsibility they never wanted. They'd be free. To feel, to live. And that is the part that cuts at them the most.
Some would say that it was a good selfless choice to make. That doing anything else would have been a betrayal—and Tivan'n now is way too deep in the feelings of responsibility to be able to fully step away (even if during KotFE they certainly learn how to not have it consume their entire life, that they can be all this and still have some stuff they can be selfish with, be a person beyond what they were made into), but then, then that was their only chance at true freedom, a clean slate.
And there certainly was version of them in their head that Took It and didn't look back and they were happy.
