Melting Sweethearts

Penny sucked on her lower lip: how did they end up like that-she thought, probably for the millioneth time. Somehow, she needed to go to Texas-maybe she’d go for his birthday. As a surprise. Her thoughts moved around her head and a soothing feeling evaded her chest, just realizing that Jay was holding his guitar. She jumped without any warning to either Jay or her cats and got her guitar as well. “Not going to sing anything that’s mine”, she said as she settled back on the bed, in front of the laptop. “But....”, she sucked her lower lip a little harder than before, before she started playing the cheery melody of Beatles’ “Love Me Do”,  “I wish I could write something like that...or any other of their songs”, she chuckled before she started mumbling the lyrics.

Penny shook her head and felt her heart sinking inside her chest. “It’s not a matter of you pushing me. I’m still going to say no but...it’s the way you’re pushing me. It takes me back to the time I kept asking myself what should I do...should I stay or should I go”, she said quickly and a gasp escaped her lips, almost unable to breathe at that moment. “I don’t think it really matters at the moment”, she moved one of her fingers rubbing her eyes lightly. “It doesn’t matter”, she lowered the tone of her voice. She looked down and instantly next to her, when both of her cats have fallen asleep, again. She huffed turning to the screen as Jay started talking again. She blinked fast and her lips formed a pout. “Are we going to skype on your birthday?”, she asked raising a brow, not sure what Jay’s plans were at the moment.

Penny rolled her eyes and looked down. She didn’t know why but it felt a little too late to be open with her emotions with him. She huffed and shook her head in denial that he was saying all those things. “I don’t want to sing it to anyone. And don’t start this again...please”, she pouted and looked down, tangling her fingers together. Her gaze wandered to the other corner of the room, where her guitar was. She did tell him that it had been a long time since she played, but she had actually wrote that song there. “I wish...you didn’t make it so difficult”, she looked at him on the screen and her eyes started watering up.

“This is the first time I’ve been able to put out music that I feel is connecting with people, yet look back on everything I’ve made and feel a quiet sense of pride. I’m proud of the things I’ve withstood, and I’ve been able to carve out a life for myself.” (x)

Penny rolled her eyes at that and pressed her lips together. “Sure sure, cocky you”, she smiled shyly. There was an awkward aura, probably created by the texts that were sent a few hours ago. Suckling on her lower lip nervously, she looked down, trying to find a way to avoid answering the question. She huffed and raised her head slowly. “I have...”, she lowered the tone of her voice. “I’ve told you on the text”.

protect her at all costs ♡♡

#the purest baby