Fully Empty

You never need to apologize for how you chose to survive.

I will never be able to offer you a secure idea of who I am.

When I was training to be a battered women’s advocate, my supervisor said something that really blew my mind:

distance. distance is sitting here typing out “i miss you” rather than being able to say it to you. distance is sleeping in your t-shirts to feel like you’re close to me again. distance is shitty connections, and dropped calls, its fights where someone hangs up the phone and you can’t reach out and stop them from walking away. its sleeping with the phone on the pillow next to me, rather than with your head on my chest. distance is running to you in an airport and hugging like we’re the only two there, but standing in that same airport days later tear stricken face trying to walk away from your world, its leaving the person who feels like home, for the physicality of the “home” that is the roof over your head. distance is spending more days apart than you do together. distance is anything but easy. distance will test every aspect of your relationship. but if you can beat this, if you can survive the distance, you can survive anything with her by your side. this is the hardest test your relationship will face. distance is anything but easy, but with the right person it’s more than worth it.

you can, you should, and if you’re brave enough to start, you will.