peka

Lately I have been in more situations with people who are similar to where I come from—a normie white suburb of nyc. Fairly common experience, but as a child I felt on an island unto myself. I meet these people as an adult and can sense that they find me unnerving (despite me being kind towards them and non judgmental about our circumstantial, value neutral differences) and would really prefer if I was different.

I try to imagine what it would be like to live your entire life within a community where your decisions and motivating forces are intuitively understood by everyone around you instead of no one. It’s not something I long for because I am happy to be who I am, but it helps to understand what is happening.