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Part Sixteen - Old Habits

Cassie sits in silence after Sean's question, thinking over how she's going to answer him. They're slowly crawling through evening traffic. Tension between them.

"How did you know…"

Sean shakes his head, "Next time you want to lie to me turn your location off, yeah?"

Cassie bites at her lip, reaching across to place her hand on his leg "Don't Cass. Just tell me, please?"

She pulls her hand back curling it into her lap, "I already told you and you already know because you're once again checking up on me"

"Covent Garden isn't remotely close to Broomfield Park, Cassandra. In fact it's nearly an hour away from there"

He flicks a look across at her "I was checking up on you because I care, because as much as you like to pretend being with me isn't putting you at risk. It is and I don't want anything to happen to you"

"So just tell me why you were on the other side of London, I thought we were over keeping secrets"

She presses her head back against the rest, closing her eyes "Fine"

She sighs heavily, "Floriana contacted me asking to meet"

She watches him nod, the press of his foot against the pedal as they pull a few inches forward. He turns to her as they slow to a stop again. She can tell he knew before she even told him, he just wanted her to say it out loud.

"Cass, what the fuck were you thinking?"

"I wanted to help you" her voice is low, Sean shakes his head "I'm not telling you off, Cass"

"Feels like it" She mutters.

"I'm your boyfriend not your father" he sighs, "I worry about you"

"Yeah? I worry about you as well. I didn't stop you going out with Elliot the other night even though I was sick with worry that you'd end up dead"

"I told you what I was doing" he takes the left turn out of the traffic, down a back road.

"As far as I knew you were just in town running some errands. I tell you when I'm going somewhere I could be killed"

"Oh and that makes it better does it?" She snaps.

He slows at the entrance to their carpark, flicks the fob against the small box. They sit in silence while the gate opens.

"You could have been fucking killed, anything could have happened to you and if I didn't have your location I wouldn't have known" he reverses into his space.

"It would have been fine, Birdie knew where I was"

Sean huffs out a laugh, she can feel the sarcasm dripping from it "of course she fucking did"

"What does that mean?" She narrows her eyes at him.

"You two are unbelievable. Should have known Birdie was in on it. What would Bird have been able to do all the way in Bristol?"

"Call you or the police I don't know, I'm just saying she knew where I was"

"What don't you understand? People who know me know about you and they won't hesitate to set up a meeting so they can kill you or assault you. Lock you somewhere and just forget about you"

Cassie can feel his worry and anger seeping out of him, his grip still tight around the steering wheel, knuckles white.

"I do understand" she mumbles. He turns his head with a quick force she's sure he's going to be complaining of a sore neck later.

"It looks like you don't, because you're sneaking off around London without telling me, making up excuses. I know you're not stupid Cass but fucking think about things"

"I do think. I was trying to help you. You're constantly on a one man mission to get revenge for your fathers death and you're destroying yourself in the process"

"Oh so you getting hurt or killed is helping me?"

Cassie tugs at the door handle, getting out of the car. "You're being unreasonable Sean"

She slams the door, the force rocking the car. Sean gets out in a haze of muttered curses. Pocketing his phone.

He follows her, grabbing her wrist pulling her body into his "I want you safe, I don't want to be without you again. You're my whole fucking world Cass and I refuse to stand by while you do stupid things"

She looks up at him, lip pulled between her teeth "So I have to stand around while you do stupid things?"

"You knew who I was the moment we got into this" he reasons with her.

"Yeah I did and I haven't ever stopped you from putting your life, our life on the line"

"I wouldn't have stopped you, I would have made it safer for you. You were an easy target out there an hour away from me"

"You put a stop to me even suggesting it just the other night" she frowns.

"Cass, we could have talked about it if you've told me she contacted you" he jerks her body towards his as a car pulls into the car park.

"Yeah I know, but I don't want to be someone you keep tabs on"

Sean cups her face in his hands, thumbs stroking against her cheeks "Don't be so stubborn"

She rolls her eyes, "Don't treat me like I'm so fragile"

Sean sighs "I don't. I treat you like you mean everything to me and I'll be a fucking mess if anything happened to you"

Cassie nods, pressing onto her tiptoes "like how I had to live without you?"

"I don't want to do that again, but you still go out and do the most stupid things. I wasn't sneaking around London. I'm a big girl I wanted to help and I knew you wouldn't change your mind on it"

Sean nods, with a sigh "I'd rather I go out and do the stupid things okay?"

She rests her cheek against his chest "but then I'm the one having to live without you if anything happens"

Sean presses a kiss to the top of her head "Neither of us are living without the other, okay?"

Looking up at him she nods, "Okay.."

He pecks her lips, "Just tell me things in the future, I could have waited close by without her knowing"

She sighs, "Next time I decide to do something reckless you'll be informed"

She smirks at him, watching as his lips pull into a smile "Thank you"

He takes her hand, "Did you get some information?"

She laughs, as they head up to the flat "Might have"

-

Cassie places the dish in front of Sean, leaning to give him a kiss before she takes her seat. She'd made him wait until dinner was cooked before she agreed to tell him what Floriana had told her.

"Not sure how helpful this information is" she holds her wine glass as he tops it up.

"She doesn't know loads of stuff, but her biggest thing was the investors whoever they are and a guy called Asif Afridi" 

"Apparently your dad was making plans to leave the company and…your mum" she stops making sure he's ok for her to carry on.

Sean nods, "They weren't happy about this information and Floriana thinks that possibly they had something to do with it"

Sean finishes his mouthful of food, "Asif? He's got control of most of the city's drug gangs" 

"Apparently the investors favour him, but she strongly believes the investors killed Finn when they got wind of him trying to leave" she takes a mouthful of pasta. 

"So she did have answers" Sean frowns, Cassie shakes her head "No, she had information" 

Sean smiles, sipping his wine "thank you for going" 

Cassie shrugs, reaches for his hand "I want to help you" 

-

Two nights later and Cassie has criticised and poked at every inch of herself for a business dinner. They're both dressed to impress, Sean in one of his many tailored black suits and Cassie in a fitted black dress, heels and her wild curls somewhat tamed.

Sean let out a low whistle at the sight of her leaving the bedroom, the black dress highlighting her figure, dipping in at her waist showing him every curve of her body that he's memorised over and over.

Her heels dangle off her fingers, he helps her into them. The ball of her foot resting on his knee. His fingers tracing up her calf.

"Sean" she warns as he looks up at her with a smirk.

Sean had pulled her bottom lip from between her teeth on more than three occasions on the drive over.

"You don't need to be nervous" he slotted his fingers through hers giving her hand a squeeze. She'd nodded giving him a smile.

Now they were in the restaurant, seated around a large table.

First ones to arrive, Sean has his hand on her thigh, "thank you for coming" his mouth is close to her ear.

Cassie cups his jaw directing his face towards hers, letting her lips slide against his.

"Of course" she smiles as they pull apart. She swipes her thumb across his lips removing the trace of her lipstick from them.

Sean leans back in, catching her lips again, his hand pressing against her thigh, fingers digging into her warm skin.

The cough from behind them breaks them apart, Sean pecks her lips once more, eyes locked on hers before he stands up to greet Alex.

Alex gives her a curt nod before he takes his seat, Sean's hand instantly finds her thigh again, giving it a squeeze.

The table is full with people Cassie has never met, one empty space between Sean and Alex.

Alex checks his phone and gets up "I'll be right back" the table mumbles a response. Sean falls back into conversation with the man across from him, Cassie has caught snippets of their conversation, new building contracts and building site location's.

His hand permanently linked with hers, squeezing it occasionally to let her know he's not ignoring her.

Alex appears moments later with a blonde hanging off his arm. She's wearing a deep green dress, hugging her slim frame, Cassie spots the flash of a red Louboutin sole.

Shes tall and slim, with a wide grin showing a row of perfect white teeth. Not a hair out of place on her head, Cassie instinctively runs her fingers over her own hair, her curls had been a nightmare to tame into something neat.

Cassie tugs at the hem of her dress, pulls at the fabric around her middle, "You're fucking gorgeous, stop that" Sean whispers in her ear "dream girl" he presses a kiss just below on her warm skin.

Cassie had felt Sean stiffen beside her, the grip on her thigh tightening, as soon as he saw who Alex was with, she leans into his body as his lips leave her neck. A united front.

"Evening everyone" the woman's voice is smooth, she's wagging her fingers at the people around the table. She takes her seat, turning to Sean her hand landing on his arm as she smiles.

"Hey Sean, nice to see you again" She's fluttering her lashes at him with a sultry pout.

Cassie can feel herself getting jealous, hates the way she's pressing herself close to Sean, the neckline of her dress showing a little to much cleavage.

She finally leans across him, Cassie's gaze flicks to her hand outstretched waiting for her to take it, her body pressed even closer into his side "Hi I'm Hollie, I don't think we've met before"

Cassie feels herself jerk in recognition of her name, "Cassie" she pulls a tight smile on her face. Ignoring her hand.

"Oh so you're the mysterious Cassie" she giggles touching Sean's arm again, not registering Cassie's brush off.

"The reason he was so sad after his accident" she rolls her eyes playfully, "you left him in quite a pickle"

Cassie feels Sean turn his hand on her thigh facing upwards so they can slot their fingers together.

"I think it was more than an accident" Cassie replies, reaching for her wine, keeping her gaze on Hollie, shoulders rolled back making her sit up straighter.

"Well yes a shooting but in this line of work what does Seany expect" she flaps her hand around, dismissing the seriousness of it.

Cassie frowns Seany, god she was going to tease him about that later.

"I've heard so much about you Cassandra, I even tried to help Sean out when you were gone" she smirks, her hand squeezing his arms.

Sean pulls away giving her a look, she ignores it so wrapped up in trying to stake her claim on him.

Cassie presses her body against Sean, he gets the hint wrapping his arm around her waist, pressing a kiss to her forehead.

"I didn't leave Sean, by choice" Cassie states voice firm.

Hollie gives her a fake smile "Oh yes of course Marian played a little game didn't she" she smirks at the people around the table.

"Well he came to me for help getting over it, we tried a lot of things to help him" she giggles, patting Sean's hand.

Cassie flicks a look at Sean, he tugs his hand away from Hollie's as if her touch was scolding, Cassie knows he's going to bite soon say something he can't take back. Right on cue he starts to speak, Cassie jumps in doesn't want his words to go against him with the people around the table.

"Looks like it didn't really work, such a shame for you" Cassie strokes her hand down Sean's chest pressing her lips to his, he kisses back hungrily not caring about the other people around them.

She pulls away watching Hollie sink back in her chair, Sean leans close to her ear "love you" he hums soft and low, but loud enough to be heard.

-

Cassie seems to settle around Hollie after the initial shock, satisfied she's put her in her place.

But, Sean knows from the way she's touching him, brushing her lips against his cheek, humming naughty pleas in his ear that she's claiming him as hers.

He's had to adjust himself discreetly more than once, has pinched her thigh as she dares to graze her hand over the bulge in his trousers.

Given her a look when she whispers "Seany" in his ear just to tease him.

Once they're in the car she lets her dress ride up ever so slightly, her legs falling open just a tiny bit more than necessary, so he can easily run his knuckles close to her searing cunt, the tiny thong not keeping his fingers at bay.

He whips it off in a single firm move, tucks it in his suit pocket, his hand cupping against her wet pussy.

Her face nuzzles in the crook of his neck as he teases her, pressing the privacy screen up. He knows Tim will be smirking to himself as he drives them through London, Tim knows Sean and Cassie all too well at this point.

"All worked up baby?" He rasps lips against her ear as he slowly pushes his finger into her cunt, her hips baring down "yeah, fuck—that bitch trying to—ah…fuck— Sean" she cries out as he presses another finger into her.

Sean is thankful for Tim's love of old school garage that he can hear thrumming through the car. Hopes its drowning out the sinful mouth of his girl.

"You're mine" she pouts, Sean smiles eyes locked on her as he slowly strokes against her walls.

"Yeah I'm all yours baby" he hooks his fingers the tips tapping her gspot, her head falls back lips parted as she sighs.

He leans close to her ear, pumping his fingers into her "going to cum for me right here?"

His lips ghost across her neck "I can't…here" she's trying to protest but his fingers are coaxing her along nicely.

Sean smirks against her skin "You've done it before" he teases, thumb pressing onto her clit she grabs for his wrist.

"No, behave" he warns with a click of his tongue.

She brings her head up to look at him, eyes pleading "Sean" she whispers voice torn with lust, he doesn't relent on his pace the sound of her wetness echoing between them.

"Do it for me…be a good girl for me" he smiles and she knows she done for.

"Yes—ok…yes yes" she nods, rolling her hips towards his fingers.

He catches his mouth against hers swallowing down her desperate moans as she cums around his fingers, her cunt squeezing and pulling around them his palm soaked.

She pulls back to catch her breath, "You're awful" she groans, as he pulls his fingers from her, sticky with her sweet release.

-

They stumble into the apartment, her legs still shaking, Sean's hands on her bum guiding her into the lounge.

Cassie teasingly pushes him back onto the sofa, unfastening his belt and trousers pulling them to mid thigh. His gaze locks on her as she hitches her dress around her hips and sinks to her knees between his legs.

She quickly gets him hard with her hand, before she spits onto the head, looking at him as she takes him into her mouth. She swallows down, his hips stutter upwards, head of his cock bumping the back of her throat.

He watches as her eyes water, the unmistakable sound of her gagging at his intrusion, the saliva leaking from the corner of her mouth. She pulls back slightly, his cock bulging against her cheek, her hand strokes at him as she sucks on his tip.

"Fuuuckk Caaass"

He tugs the hair tie holding her curls up letting them fall down around her shoulders, pushing his fingers through pulling at the strands earning a moan to rumble from her throat.

"Baby fuck…can I cum on your pretty face" he sighs, head lolling back against the cushions. Cassie looks up at him from under her lashes, reaching her hand out across his chest for his, he links their fingers.

She pulls off him, her hand still working at him "You want to ruin my makeup?"

He lifts his head, a sloppy grin on his face "No…I want to add to it"

Cassie laughs lightly "Lucky it's the end of the night" she teases, guiding his cock back between her lips, sucking on the tip, hand stroking his length.

She takes a deep breath nostrils flaring, as she lets him rock his hips forward, pushing his cock into her mouth.

"I'm not going to — yeah like that…Cass fuck" he's stumbling over his words as he fucks her mouth.

She pulls back, hand cupping at his balls getting a breath before she wraps her hand around his cock, opens her mouth and takes him back in.

She's bobbing her head with pace, gagging and sucking around him, spit leaking from the corners of her mouth as she pushes herself to take him down deeper.

He's squeezing her hand as she hums the vibrations make his eyes fly open "Jesus Christ" he huffs out.

She pulls off him with a sinful pop, wrapping her hand around him, using her mouth and fingers to send him over his edge.

Ropes of cum hitting onto her cheeks, landing against her perfectly curled lashes, her hand and finally her tongue she milks him against her flattened tongue swallowing down everything she can.

"Fuck Sean" she sighs sitting back, gaze fixed on him as he tries to regain his composure.

He holds her jaw in his palm "My pretty girl"

She smiles at him, her tongue darting out to clean her lips, letting him watch as she swirls his cum in her mouth before she swallows it down with a content him.

Sean huffs out a laugh "trying to kill me?" He jokes. Cassie shrugs "No there's enough people out there wanting to do that"

Sean shakes his head in amusement, grabbing his shirt to wipe her face "Forgot I'm dating a comedian"

"Dating, Sean Wallace this is more than dating" she tusks, getting up from the floor, joining him on the sofa.

"Oh? More than smoking and fucking is it?"

She scratches her nails against his thighs watching as his cock twitches, he lets out a hiss "Cass.."

She stops her hand, looking at him with wide eyes "What?"

Sean shakes his head "You're a fucking tease" he laughs.

Cassie stands up, reaching behind her to tug at the zip of her dress, letting it fall down her body, pooling at her feet.

Sean pulls her back by her waist "Where do you think you're going?" He hums, hands stroking across the exposed skin of her stomach "to clean up and sleep" she giggles.

He pulls her down onto his lap, dips his head lips connecting against her neck "No, we haven't finished" he smirks against her skin.

"Oh? We haven't?" She pushes her finger through his hair.

"I want to taste you" he moves her to sit on the sofa, spreading her legs as he settles on the floor between them.

"Such a pretty cunt" he sighs, teasing against her with his tongue listening as her breath catches in her throat.

Holding her hips down as he drags his fingers through her "Behave" he warns as she tries to rut against him, earning a nip against her thigh.

Pushing his hands under her bum to lift her towards his face, her fingers curl into the throw that they leave across the sofa.

She watches him, as he's licking and biting against her, his tongue flicking over her clit, making her cry out his name.

-

It's Thursday morning and everything seems to be crashing around Cassie. She's been trying to keep it at bay, trying to shove all the irrational thoughts down.

Hollie showing up at the business dinner a gorgeous blonde daddy's girl, even Cassie can agree she's the perfect match for Sean.

She knows Sean is madly in love with her not Hollie. He loves every inch of her but seeing the girl he chose after her was enough to send her spiralling.

On top of Hollie there was Marian.

Marian who was on a mission to interfere in every part of their relationship. She was determined to make Sean think Cassie isn't the one.

She's being stupid she knows she is, he wouldn't have come looking for her if he didn't really want her. He wouldn't have gone through all the shit they dealt with if he wasn't serious about her.

With a frustrated sigh she leaves the bathroom, ignoring the unmade bed and the clothes strewn across the floor. They had a cleaner who came once a week. Cassie would usually make sure the bed was at least made but this morning she was running late and distracted.

Sean had left earlier than her, had a few things to deal with across London. He'd woke her up with a coffee, left her with a quick kiss.

She'd snuggled back down into the bed, the comforting smell of him filling the room after his shower. Only for her alarm to disrupt her moments later.

-

Getting into the office she notices Sean's car parked up front, feels the swell of butterflies in her stomach she was dreading coming in to him still being out somewhere.

Not many employees had really bothered to get to know her, she was constantly on edge that she stuck out as the boss' girlfriend.

But, she knew what she was doing. She was capable of doing the job she'd been given and she was good at it. Having Sean just down the hall was a bonus.

Cassie places her things at her desk, heading for the communal kitchen for coffee.

Sean's office door is ajar. Raised voices catch her attention, she flicks a look to Claire at her desk.

"His mum" she cringes as Cassie rolls her eyes "would you like a coffee?"

Claire gets up from her desk "would love one"

"Sean does she even know what she's doing?" "Yes mother"  "She was a hotel maid a few weeks ago" "Because someone told her I was dead and she moved away, she needed a job while she was there" "She doesn't need to be involved in every part of our life" "She's not involved in your life, you've made sure of that. I want her involved in every part of my life" "She's going to ruin the business reputation" "And what reputation is that? Because I'm sure dad didn't care about our reputation when he was running us into the ground"

"Sean-"

Cassie feels the heat on her cheeks as their argument floods into the hall. Claire gives her a small smile touching her elbow lightly to steer her into the kitchen.

I bet she's hard work" she mutters.

Cassie smiles back "like you wouldn't believe"

"I've been meaning to ask, I'm heading out for drinks with some of the girls from downstairs tomorrow night and we were wondering if you'd want to come?"

Cassie hands her a mug, slightly taken aback "oh…"

"Just in Clapham probably as most of us live close to there, I know you live more central so you can stay at mine after, but don't feel like you have too come" she rambles.

"I'd really like that," Cassie nods turning to grab the milk from the fridge.

"Great, there's a pub just off the common called The Nel, meet there about 8? And then we can head to whereever the other girls are"

Cassie smiles "Sure, thanks Claire"

"No need to thank me, we've been meaning too for weeks. We wanted to ask you before, you know everything but we never got the chance" she puts the milk back in the fridge.

They make their coffees with a comfortable chatter, Cassie finally feeling lighter than she had in a couple of weeks.

"Take my number" Claire writes it on a post it note when they get back to the desks, Cassie thanks her with a smile.

She's heading to her own desk when Sean's office door opens, Marian breezes past Claire "These invoices needed filing yesterday"

She shoves the papers into Claire's hands, Marian locks eyes with Cassie for a moment before she's in the lift heading down to the lobby.

Cassie takes her seat at the desk with a heavy sigh, her teams messages ping.

Sean: My office 5 minutes Cassandra: is something the matter Mr Wallace? Is this hotel maid too stupid? Sean: you heard her? Cassandra: the whole office heard Sean: Come here x.

Cassie feels a few eyes on her as she slips into his office, he's reclining back in his chair "Sorry Cass"

She shrugs, taking a perch on the edge of his desk "I think I'm getting used to how hostile she is"

Sean shakes his head, moving his chair so he can rest his hands on the desk either side of her thighs "You shouldn't have too"

"Ed went running to her about you working here and she was just beside herself with worry that I was making a bad choice" he rolls his eyes at his mothers behaviour.

"I could look for some-"

"No, I don't want that. My dad left me this company and I'll hire whoever the fuck I want to hire"

Cassie grins, leaning forward to stroke her fingers across his stubble "There's my guy"

He pulls her off the edge of the desk, meeting her halfway so he can catch her lips in a soft kiss. His hands cupping against the back of her neck, he pulls back slightly "I'm going to fight for this Cass, fight for us. I promise you"

Cassie nudges her nose against his, licking her bottom lip "I know. I believe you"

Sean kisses her again, heavier laced with emotion this time, fingers digging into her scalp.

"Sean!" Marian's voice fills the room, they spring apart. Cassie smooths her skirt down as she steps away from Sean.

"This is a professional environment" she tusks "I forgot to give you these" she drops some papers on the his desk.

Cassie avoids her gaze, excusing herself she heads back to her desk.

"Honestly Sean" Marian shakes her head, "Do I have to remind you that you're actually someone people look up to and want to become? And you're in here fraternising with the help"

Sean clenches his fist, eyes blazing "Cassie is my girlfriend, the woman I love she is not the fucking help. She is not beneath you..infact she's miles above you"

Marian laughs, "Sean have you seen that girl? Compared to all the other girls who would fall at your feet to be with you"

"I don't look at other girls mother, I don't need to when I have Cassie"

"And if you haven't noticed..she's trying to move past everything you've put her through for my sake for the sake of our relationship…but you, you insist on holding whatever it is you think she's done wrong against her"

"Sean you're being emo-"

"All she's ever fucking done is love me, make me happy and you're trying to ruin that"

Marian huffs, grabbing her bag from his desk, she doesn't say anything else.

Moments later Cassie can feel her presence hovering at her desk, she looks up from her screen.

"Cassandra I'm not sure what happened in previous workplaces but we don't partake in public displays of affection here" she sighs.

Cassie bites her tongue, giving her a tight nod of her head.

"Sean might be your boyfriend but he's still the owner and director of this whole empire. You'll do well to remember that" she warns before stalking off to the lift.

She turns one last time "I'm not sure how you got your claws into him but mark my words you won't keep him"

Cassie can feel the heat rising on her cheeks, as she notices half the office looking her way.

Claire gives her a small smile "You okay?"

She gets out of her chair and Cassie knows she needs to get away she can't get emotional here in view of everyone. She can't run to Sean.

She nods, "Yeah.. one second" she pulls a smile on her face grabs her phone and heads for the ladies.

She's squeezing her eyes tight to stop the tears as she finds Birdies number. She knows she'll most likely be in a lesson but she's hoping it's a free period for her.

She picks up after four rings. "What's wrong?" Her immediate response anytime Cassie calls.

"I don't know if I can do this Bird" her voice shakes as she slides down the wall of the cubicle, biting her lip.

"Do what? Cass is everything ok?"

"I love him so fucking much Bird but his mother is making everything so hard"

"Cassie I need you to make sense please"

Cassie rests her head back against the wall, closing her eyes with a long sigh.

"Marian just embarrassed me in the middle of the office, told me he wasn't going to be with me forever and I know I sound so fucking silly but it's hard enough having the whole office know what she tried to do to us"

"Cass, why did you agree to work there? You knew she'd be a nightmare"

"I need a job Birdie" she mumbles "I know, but it's not like Sean can't afford to help you out while you look for something"

Cassie groans "I don't want that, Christ Bird I was just phoning for a rant"

Birdie sighs, "Well you made it seem more dramatic than that, Bon. Thought you were finally going to give up on being with Sean or something"

"What? No I wouldn't give her the pleasure of that happening"

"Oh I'm sure that's not your only reason Bon. You're so gone for him it's disgusting" Birdie cackles, Cassie feels lighter instantly.

"Have you seen him? I'd be mad to let someone else have him"

"I have seen him, he's handsome but not my type and before you say-"

"Too young for you?"

"Fuck sake Bonnie" she laughs, Cassie snorts out her own laugh allowing a few tears to escape her eyes in the process.

"Are you fucking crying?" Birdie asks, laughter subsiding "I don't even know Bird, I need to get back to work"

"Call me later. And just fucking ignore that evil cunt" Birdie cackles.

"Thanks Bird, I'll try"

Cassie leaves the bathroom a few minutes later after pulling herself together, wiping the mascara from under her eyes trying to make herself look less like she'd cried over Marian Fucking Wallace.

"You alright?" Sean's leaning against the wall outside.

"Yeah, I'm fine" Cassie smiles, "did you want to head out for lunch?"

"As long as that's not frowned upon in the workplace"

Sean pulls her into him "I am sorry Cass"

She shrugs she doesn't want them to argue over his mother, "are you buying lunch?"

"For a pretty girl like you? Always"

-

Cassie is home before Sean, she's half way through cooking dinner when he makes his way into the flat. Immediately wraps himself around her.

"Hello" he hums, lips pressing against her cheek. "Hi, what do you want" she laughs.

"Sorry about my mum, again"

Cassie shakes her head, stirring the sauce in the pan "I think we should just acknowledge that you'll always be sorry for how she acts towards me and leave it at that. You'll spend your whole life saying sorry otherwise"

Sean closes his eyes, his chin resting on her shoulder "I also know, you know what you're doing working for me"

"I know that" she laughs lightly, swiping her finger through the sauce on the spoon, holding it to his lips.

"Taste" she instructs, his tongue darts out licking her finger "Very nice, I think we're going to make a wifey out of you"

Cassie rolls her eyes "Claire invited me for drink tomorrow night. With some of the downstairs girls, that's alright isn't it?"

Sean steps back from her, heading for the fridge "Beer?" He asks, she nods "Why wouldn't it be okay? You can do whatever you want Cass"

"I don't know. You're their boss I didn't know if it would make you feel uncomfortable"

Sean opens two beer bottles, handing her one "You being friends with people you work with doesn't make me uncomfortable"

Cassie gives him a smile covering the pan with a lid she leans against the opposite side to him "I've never had a boyfriend and friends before"

Sean frowns, "What do you mean?"

"Any boyfriend I've ever had, hasn't liked me having friends or going out"

Sean nods, "Cass, I'm not your previous boyfriends"

She steps across to him "I know, I'm just not used to this kind of relationship"

He rests his hands on her hips "I'm going to make it my goal to get you used to this"

She laughs, pressing on her tiptoes to kiss him. "Will you drop me off? Claire said to meet a pub in Clapham, I can stay at hers after"

Sean lets her go back to the dinner bubbling on the hob "I can drop you off and if you want I can pick you up, but if you'd rather a girls sleepover I can get you in the morning"

Cassie turns the heat off under the pans "No, I think I'd like to come home after"

Sean moves to get plates "Then I'll pick you up and drop whoever needs it home"

She takes them with a smile "are you even real?"

He laughs, "I'm sure I am, but if you want to check I can think of some-"

"Shut up and take your dinner" she cackles handing him a plate.

-

"Sean!" Cassie squeals with a giggle as he joins her in the shower, his arm slips around her waist from behind, the water pounding on his shoulders.

His hand slides down her stomach, fingers nudging between her folds "have I told you how pretty you look, when you're wrecked around my fingers?"

He feels her body instantly react to him, melting against him "Not lately" she hums, reaching to shove the shower head away from them.

"I need to fix that then, huh?"

She nods, wrapping her arm around the back of his neck. He takes the invitation, lips sucking at the exposed skin of her neck while he pushes two fingers into her.

She whines both sensations making her body shudder against him, his lips dragging over her wet skin, teeth grazing against her as his fingers head straight for her weakest point.

He holds her tighter around the waist as she jerks forward, his fingers making her cunt clench.

"God, Sean…"

His lips run across her jaw, she turns her face to his, lips pressing together, his tongue pushing into her mouth, she's hungry for him needing his reassurance that she's his.

He pulls back, curling his fingers tapping against the softness of her g-spot.

"Look so pretty wrecked around my fingers" he hums with a smirk against her lips.

She sighs, "I'm not…-"

"Baby, you're wrecked" he chuckles "can feel your perfect cunt begging for me"

"Please" she whimpers, Sean groans as her voice breaks with desperation the sound heading straight to his cock.

He pushes his hips forward pressing his cock against the soft flesh of her ass. Slowly he drags his fingers from her, his arm still around her waist as he spins her round to face him. His free hand cupping her chin in his palm, guiding her lips to his, she presses up on her tiptoes, her arms around his neck. Letting her lips slide across his, their tongues melting together. Sean pulls back, taking her hand leading her from the shower, immediately grabbing her hips. Positioning her where he wants her, bending her over the marble side. His hand runs slowly over the curve of her ass, between her legs, nudging them apart with the back of his hand.

Cassie shuffles her feet across the tiles spreading herself for him, "Watch how pretty you look when I fuck you" he rasps in her ear, nodding towards the mirror.

Chuckling at the low gentle whine that leaves her throat, his hand curling around his cock running it through her swollen slick folds, eyes locked on hers in the mirror as he glides into her, she pushes back against him with a moan.

"Got you baby" he rocks his hips forward, filling her just to leave her empty mere seconds later.

Her mouth wide open as she cries out, eyes focused on herself in the mirror, flicking up to watch Sean, watching as he bites his lip his head dropped forward transfixed on how he disappears into her pussy so effortlessly.

Sean runs his hand up her back, following the curves of her body before he curls it in her hair, lifting her head up "So fucking ruined" he sighs, "all because of my cock"

Cassie nods, gasping as he forces back into her, her hips hitting against the marble side of the sinks. "Sean, oh fuck please"

She grips onto the side, trying to soften the blow of marble "Ouch.. Sean" she laughs, he stops immediately "What did I do?"

He pulls from her without hesitation, not wanting to hurt her.

She turns to him "This" she pouts showing him the pink marks on her skin, "Sorry baby" he cups her chin bending to kiss her.

Lifting her up to sit on the side instead, "Better?" he smirks, wrapping her legs around his waist, pulling her forward so he can press himself into her waiting pussy once again.

She lets out a small content sigh "Better" she nods, arms around his neck, nails digging into his back "But make me cum, please"

Sean catches her lips, hands hooked behind her knees as he pounds forward "Yeah? you want that?"

"Always, please" She rests her forehead against his, eyes locked as they move together, "Cass, I…fuck I don't want you to ever think…I won't protect you"

Cassie smiles, "I know, I trust you"

Sean nods, "Good"

Cassie pushes her hips towards him, her pussy stretching around his cock, as the tip presses against her g-spot. Seans hand comes between them, his fingers finding her clit, touching her with a well practiced speed. She's gripping at his shoulders, sweat beading on her forehead as she tries but fails to hold back her orgasm.

Her body shudders as Sean holds her against him, his hips snapping into her as she whines her pussy pulsing against his cock. "Fuck, Cass.. so fucking perfect for me" He groans. Cassie knows he's close knows he going to be spilling into her in seconds.

She pushes at his chest, he smirks getting the hint, pulling from her. She shakily slips from the bathroom side and onto the tiled floor, her hand instantly wrapping around his solid cock.

Running her lips up the length before she takes him straight down her throat, bobbing her head as he finally cums, spilling down her throat with a deep groan, his hand tightening in her hair holding her mouth around him, until she pinches at his thigh.

She sits back, cum slipping past her lips as she swallows most of it. Her chest heaving as Sean looks down at her his cheeks flushed, hand resting on her cheek, swiping his finger under her lash line to remove the smear of black from her makeup.

"I told you so fucking pretty" he hums, helping her to her feet.

"I need another shower now" she tuts, dragging him towards the shower, the water still hammering onto the tiles. She pulls him under presses her body against his, arms around his waist "I love you" she states dotting kisses across his chest.

"I love you too" he grabs the body wash from the shelf, squirting it into his hand before he starts to lather her body up.

-

"Look at you" Sean whistles as Cassie emerges from the bedroom on Friday evening, she rolls her eyes "jeans and top, Sean nothing spectacular"

He gets up from the sofa, grey sweats and black tshirt. Cassie's favourite Sean.

"Look bloody beautiful though" he hums pulling her body flush against his "and smell incredible. Remember you have a boyfriend at home"

She wraps her arms around his neck "What if someone sweeps me off my feet in the middle of Clapham"

Sean squeezes her bum, "You tell him to put you down"

She giggles "Lucky I don't want anyone else isn't it"

He leans in to kiss her, tongue running across her lips "My lipstick" she mutters against him "Looks pretty when it's ruined" he hums.

She pulls back when she feels him press his hips into hers "Sean, I promised Claire I'd be there by 9"

He rolls his eyes "Stop distracting me then"

Cassie moves away from him heading for the mirror in the hall, sorting her lipstick. "I need my driver" she calls zipping up the back of her heels.

"Coming miss" he laughs, appearing in the hall grabbing his keys shoving his feet into trainers.

"Call me if you need me" they're sat by the common, engine running "I will, I love you" Cassie leans across to kiss him.

"I love you, be safe okay?"

She smiles, rubbing her smear of lipstick from his mouth "I'll be safe, I promise. It's just a night with the girls"

He nods, letting go of her hand "it's not that I don't want you to go I just worry"

Cassie laughs "Sean I'm a big girl, I've been on countless nights out"

He sighs, leaning for one more kiss "I know yeah… get out before I lock the doors and take you home"

Cassie catches his smirk, "I'll let you know when I want you to pick me up"

Sean nods watching her get out of the car, Claire is just arriving outside the pub she gives him a shy wave. "Cass" he calls before she closes the door.

"Don't let anyone sweep you off your feet, alright?"

She rolls her eyes "I'll try. I can't promise anything"

He shakes his head, flipping his middle finger at her. He watches as she greets Claire and with a quick wave back at him they disappear into the pub.

-

-

"You need to come over for dinner one evening, Jac" Sean is relaxing back on the sofa phone pressed to his ear.

"We can cook for you, entertain Lily and you can just have a night off"

His laptop pings in front of him another message from Alex, he closes the lid. "Sean I don't need looking after" Jacqueline huffs down the line.

"Who said anything about looking after you? We just want to see Lily"

"Thought so, I can be free on Monday?"

"Yeah, Monday works. We work from from home so come over whenever"

"Thanks Sean" he can hear the smile and relief in her voice "it's hard doing this solo"

"Jac, you're not doing this solo. Call us anytime"

"Yeah I guess, but you're still figuring things out with Cass I don't want to be in the way. You deserve time with no one trying to interfere"

"Cassie would be the first to tell you you're not interfering when you need a break. Jac I've never had a newborn but it can't be fucking easy" he laughs lightly.

"I think I'm doing ok, Sean. I thought I'd struggle more but it's still hard"

Sean nods, "Well Monday you get round here and we can take over. You can sleep, shower or even go out. Auntie Cass and Uncle Sean are ready for Baby Lily"

"I'm not sure either of you are, but I trust you" she giggles, followed by a yawn.

"Am I keeping you up, big sis?"

"You are, Lily is asleep I should be sleeping"

"Get some sleep Jac"

"Yeah I think I will, but thanks Sean"

"Anytime. Love you"

"Love you too"

- Cassie spots Billy moments after she enters the third bar of the evening. She's been pacing herself with the drinks making sure she's not overdoing it. She doesn't need to end up hungover and anxious.

The girls all signal to the small booth by the open doors, she lets Claire know she'll be right over and taps Billy on the shoulder.

He embraces her, "Sean let you out looking like this, you've got him under your spell"

Cassie rolls her eyes "Shut up Bill, How have you been?"

"Good yeah, god sorry I haven't called. I think I was in my head over how things played out"

Cassie waves his worries away as the bartender appears in front of them "It's fine honestly, the only person I'm not forgiving is your mother"

Billy laughs "What did you want to drink? I don't blame you she doesn't deserve your forgiveness"

"I'll have a martini, thanks"

He nods, shouting the order across the bar. "Who are you here with?"

"A few girls from the office, not sure all of them like me" she sighs.

He shakes his head "Whats not to love?"

"I think a couple of them are friends with the famous Hollie Cadwell" she rolls her eyes, Billy pulls a face "No idea why anyone would want to be friends with her"

Cassie giggles, as he slides his arm around her shoulder "I'll be in here all night so if you need a breather come get me"

She presses a kiss to his cheek "I'll hold you to that"

He gives her a smile as their drinks are placed in front of them "Thanks Bill" she smiles, he shrugs "I owed you one, probably more" he jokes.

Cassie stops by the side of the booth waiting for a small group to come through, she can hear the girls deep in conversation, voices raised above the commotion of the bar.

"Marian doesn't like her, it's so obvious"

"Should have heard the way so spoke to her in the office Thursday, I think she went to cry in the toilets" 

"We've all been there with Marian" 

"Yeah, but she's fucking Sean it must feel worse to have his mum hate you" 

"Kinda jealous that's she gets to fuck him"

"I wasn't jealous of Hollie though, maybe because Cassie is just so ordinary looking it's easier to be jealous?"

"Tash, calling her ordinary is so harsh!" "I like Cassie she's lovely but Sean looked so good with Hollie"

"They definitely looked like a power couple"

"But have you seen the way he looks at Cass?"

"God yeah imagine someone looking at you like that, probably helps when Marian is a cow to her" "Oh yeah definitely. Marian loved Hollie she wanted them to get married" "Did you see them together at that party held in Mayfair? Hollie in that purple dress" "God they looked like the definition of rich"

Cassie can feel the lump in her throat as she listens, moving away from the booth into the crowd hoping she hadn't been seen.

Heading for the bar, needing something to take the sharp edge off her feelings after overhearing them. She turns her head to the left as someone taps her shoulder expecting to see Claire or Billy.

Shes stunned when she realises it's Sasha. Her old best friend who looks nothing like the girl who walked away from her in the coffee shop over a year ago. She's stick thin, brittle dry blonde hair, Cassie jolts at the sight of the track marks up her arms.

"Hi" her voice is hoarse, her lips chapped. As the queue moves forward and the light shifts she catches sight of the deep set purple marks under her eyes from lack of sleep and too much heroin.

"Sash..hi" she lets out a breath she didn't know she was holding in.

"Do you want a drink" Cassie waves towards the bar and the waiting bartender. Sasha shakes her head.

"Double vodka please" Cassie smiles as she taps her card.

"Look Cassie I know it's been months-"

"Over a year" she interrupts, tapping her nails on her phone screen 

"oh god that's gone quick… you're still with Sean?" She nods towards her phone the picture of them lit up.

"Yeah.." 

"I thought you'd broke up" 

"No… it wasn't.. we're together" she finishes, not wanting to go into detail. 

"Anyway, I need money Cass" 

"For what?" Cassie frowns, thanking the bartender for her drink she moves from the bar. Sasha follows her "Rent, Kyle. Our dealer" 

"I'm not giving you money Sasha" she states as they push out into the street. Cassie fishing for her cigarettes in her handbag. 

"Oh come on Cass by the looks of things you're doing well for yourself" 

She runs a finger over the designer logo on Cassie's bag. "This was a gift" 

"You fucked me over" Sasha hisses.

Cassie's head snaps up, "how did I fuck you over exactly?" 

Sasha doesn't take the cigarette she's offered, "you just moved out no contact no more rent money or bills just left me in the shit" 

"I transferred you a month and a half's rent and told you to keep my deposit if you ever moved" 

"A month and a half doesn't even touch the debt I have"

"That's your debt not mine" she lights her cigarette taking a soothing drag. 

"You fucked off with your rich boyfriend who by the way is fucking posh cunt and you didn't even think about me" 

"Oh that's real nice sash, call my boyfriend a cunt and forget how you gave me an ultimatum, then still think I'm going to give you money" 

"I didn't give you an ultimatum you're so fucking dramatic" 

"You gave me two options put up with your pervert junkie of a boyfriend or leave" 

"He's a better boyfriend than Sean that's for sure" she bites back

"Yeah I bet he is, got you shooting up now has he? Doing his dirty work? I know the pattern so fucking well Sasha" 

Sasha rolls her eyes "look I'm in some trouble with my dealer and if I don't pay him then I don't know what he'll do to me but it's not going to be good" 

Cassie downs her drink, flicking the end of her cigarette to the floor "find someone else, Sash" 

"I bet your boyfriend gives you loads of fucking money, probably pays you to stay with him. Does he leave it on the nightstand?" Sasha cackles. 

Cassie spins on her heel "Oh I'm the whore am I? How long until Kyle starts offering you out to pay your debts, or when he wants a hit he can't afford?"

She walks away, trying not to cry; there was once a time they were inseparable, Sasha had saved her when she'd run away from Mickey and headed for London. 

That girl was a completely different person to the one she'd run into, to the girl begging her for money after no contact in over a year. 

Cassie heads back inside, telling herself she's going to find Billy and ask him to wait with her for Sean to pick her up.

She doesn't want to stay not with Sasha hanging around and she doesn't want to rejoin the table of the girls after they so openly discussed her. But, instead she finds him and the words are leaving her mouth without her even registering.

"Do you have something? Just a line please Bill"

He's frowning at her, unsure if he should give her something "Go on Billy, let the girl have some fun" a deep voice rumbles from the group he's with.

Cassie turns her head. Kyle is grinning at her. They don't say anything to each other, Cassie immediately turning her attention back to Billy.

"Look don't tell Sean because he will-"

"Kill you and me, he doesn't need to know just a line or two"

Billy nods reluctantly, pulling her outside there's a few battered tables in the corner "What happened? You seemed pretty happy and now you're..not" he frowns.

"I am happy, I'm enjoying myself just want a little something for a buzz" she shrugs.

Billy smirks "You're a shit liar, Cass"

She sighs "Just fucking everything Billy. Your mother and Hollie. Most things are just making me fucking crazy at the moment, stuck in my head" "and you want that to go away for a while?"

"Yeah, just for a fucking night you know? I overheard the girls discussing how much your mum hates me, how she just loved Hollie"

"and then…" she hiccups back a small sob, "I bump into Sash and she's literally wasting away Billy, she's begging me for money. Fuck sake, I abandoned her I made her this way"

"Cass, you're literally spiraling, take a breath yeah?"

Cassie can't help but notice how frantic his eyes are, how they haven't focused on her once, the red rims. She knows he's off his face.

"She made herself this way, whether you still lived with her or not she was always going to end up like this" he mutters.

"Kyle pumps her full of drugs, Cass and she just lets him. Then he'll get his friends over and they just I don't know take it in turns I guess"

"What?" Cassie frowns so hard it makes her head hurt "that's true? Fuck I'm an awful fucking person Bill" 

"How are you the awful person in this situation?" 

"I just accused her of the exact thing but I was just being spiteful I didn't think she'd actually let that happen" 

"I know Kyle is that guy, he wouldn't think twice. But the Sash I knew would never let anyone treat her like that"

"She's too far gone Cass, she would have bought that shit into your house. You're better off away from it"

"I didn't…I never knew"

"Well of course you didn't..she kept it out of the house but then you left and she just went head first into everything Kyle made her do."

"Oh well fucking brilliant. I've turned my best friend into a crackhead whore" she laughs bitterly, letting fat tears roll down her cheeks.

Billy sighs cutting them each two lines quickly. She tightens the note in her hands before she presses the makeshift tube to her nostril and snorts the line without a break she takes the second.

Running her fingers through the leftover powder she grins at Billy as she rubs it against her gums "Well this has been fucking terrible thanks Bill"

He laughs lightly "Sorry can't control my mouth at times"

She leans down kisses his cheek "Its the heroin Bill, you should stay away from it"

Heading back to the table, Billy had slipped her a small bag just in case. She joins the girls "Sorry, got caught up Sean's brother is here wanted to say hello"

The girls all nod, before they fall into conversation. Cassie relaxes into the booth, joining in the girlie chatter all of them downing glasses of wine.

Cassie double checks herself in the toilets as Sean's message comes through he's parked up outside, she makes sure she looks drunk nothigh, satisfied he'll only notice how drunk she is she leaves the bathrooms.

"Sure none of you want a lift?" She calls over the music they'd ended up in a cheap club, with inexpensive shots and pop music.

"No it's fine, Cass" Claire smiles pulling her into a tight hug "have you had fun?"

Cassie nods "I have! Thanks for the invite"

She hugs each of the girls, waving her goodbyes and then she's on the street. Sean heading across the road to her.

Taking her bag and then her hand "You look wrecked" he laughs.

"So much dancing" she sighs as he leads them to the car "and wine a lot of cheap white wine"

"A proper girls night then?" He asks as he helps her into the passenger seat "yeah it was, I think there was shots at one point"

He gets into the drivers side, strapping in before starting the engine and pulling from the curb.

"I don't think all the girls like me though" she mumbles.

Sean flicks a look across to her "What? Why?"

"Think they're team Hollie Cadwell" she bites at her lip.

Sean reaches for her hand "They probably like how rich her dad is"

Cassie nods with a smile, thankful he's trying to joke about it "Yeah maybe"

"Tired?" He asks squeezing at her fingers "So tired" she giggles, her eyes barely open.

"God I hate white wine" she pouts, "and shots" she adds letting her eyes close fully.

-

Sean grabs Cassie's jacket from the back of the sofa where they'd left it the night before. Turning as he hears the faint sound of something falling on the floor. He frowns at the small bag, bending to pick it up, immediately noticing the white powder inside.

"Fuck sake, Cass" he hisses shoving it into the pocket of his shorts.  He leaves the jacket on the dining table, heading for the bathroom, Cassie is wrapped in a towel, hair clipped on top of her head. Focusing on her skincare in the mirror.

She'd been pouting all day about being hungover, so he'd suggested they actually make an effort and go out for dinner, get out of the house and have a long overdue date night.

"Found this" He states, leaning against the door frame, Cassie turns to him "Found what?"  He holds up the bag, watches her clock the drugs. "Sean— I fuck-" "Were you doing it last night? Where did you score this time?"  She nods slowly "I only had two lines, there's at least another three in there that I didn't touch"

"Oh well that makes it perfectly fine then"

Sean gives her a look "I thought we agreed no more once we were back here together"

"But-"

Sean throws the bag on the bathroom side, "But what Cass? But it's just one? It's not going to happen again?" She looks at him, her eyes welling with tears "No, I—"  He sighs, "Lets just go out yeah? I don't want to argue. Its just fucking stupid Cass"  "You don't want to argue? and then you end it with that?" she pulls the clip from her hair. "I love you okay? I'm jumping in the shower, I've booked us a table at that restaurant in Covent Garden for nine" "Yeah can't wait" she mutters grabbing her hairdryer. Sean shakes his head, dropping his shorts on the floor as he turns the shower on.

"Put your dirty washing in the fucking hamper" she calls leaving the bathroom, "it's my house I'll leave it where I want"  She rounds back, "That was fucking low Sean, this is our house and our life"  "And you're trying your fucking hardest to ruin our life. How many times have you had a night out and had a line or two of cocaine?"  "I'm not ruining our life, this is the second time, the last time was in Bristol. Jesus Christ Sean" "So if I hadn't found that bag would you have used it? Turned up high to a client meeting? Babysat Lily off your face" Cassie recoils back "I would never, do you even know me?"  "I think I do and then something like this happens. I don't want to make you choose between me or Cocaine" he sighs. "It would never come to that. I would pick you every fucking time. No hesitation"  He shrugs, "Would you? Because Billy always used to say he'd pick family over Coke and now he's hardly ever home and when he is it's like he doesn't even know us. It worries me, Cass"

"I'm not Billy," she mutters, he's staring at her. She can see the frustration and worry etched on his face. "We've got high before Sean, we've done cocaine together so don't act so high and mighty every time"

"You weren't complaining when I was sucking it off your cock that time in my old flat" she mutters. "Yeah well, I didn't have to fucking worry that you're having it for breakfast, lunch and dinner back then" he hisses. She drops her towel grabbing for the t-shirt she'd left out pulling it over her head "You're being ridiculous. Haven't touched it since Bristol. You're acting like I'm sat on the sofa snorting lines every evening"  Sean doesn't say anything moving back into the shower, as she turns to leave. Only to storm back in, "We've been in such a good place"  "I don't want to go for dinner" she adds when he doesn't answer her.  Sean turns round to face her, watching her through the wet glass "You could have mentioned it last night, but you didn't you just pretended you were drunk should have fucking known you were high" Cassie's arms are folded around her middle "I was drunk, I'm not some helpless addict Sean. I want you to see that" "I already have Billy to think about" "Oh so I'm an inconvenience then?"  Sean grabs the shower gel from the rack, "Never said that, Cass"  "Acting like it though" she leaves the bathroom. 

-

Cassie had made them dinner leaving his on the side as she sat alone at the dining table. He'd mumbled a thanks as he took his into the office.

Sean makes his way into the bedroom hours later, they'd spent the evening in separate rooms, both of them too stubborn to give in.

Cassie's sprawled across the bed a book on the pillow and friends playing low on her laptop.

"Sorry" she mumbles, Sean shrugs, pulling his t-shirt off "I'm sorry as well"

Cassie sits up, "Yeah? sorry for acting like I'm a junkie?"

"Cass, fuck sake lets just move pass it. Please?" Sean makes his way across to the bed, in just his underwear. She shuts her laptop, sliding it onto the bedside table with her book.

Cassie's eyes roam over his body, "Really? is that how we're dealing with arguments now?" Sean frowns "No, only this one" Cassie lifts her head up so he can kiss her, before he sits on the edge of the bed.

"It's stupid but I just felt so overwhelmed" she pushes her fingers through his, "just everything lately your mum and then seeing Hollie, she's fucking gorgeous Sean…"

"Seeing the girl the man you love, moved on with. Even if it wasn't serious is daunting and then to top it off she's stunning it just makes it even worse"

"Cass-"

"No let me explain" she looks at him lip pulled between her teeth.

He nods, pulling her body round so they're facing each other.

"All that stuff your mum was saying in the office the other day just built up on top of everything at the hospital and it's tiring having to defend our relationship to her, because she's never going to understand" "What happened at the hospital?" He frowns. Cassie shakes her head "Nothing new, just accusing me of ruining the family, livid that Jac had me with her"

"You didn't say"

"It's fine okay? I didn't want to ruin Lily's birthday" she smiles slightly.

"Okay and what else has happened?"

"I overheard the girls talking about me, about how perfect you and Hollie looked together" she takes a breath trying not to cry.

"And..Sasha was there with Kyle, she's a mess."

"Cassie" he sighs, hand resting on her leg. His thumb stroking soothing circles on her skin.

"She wanted money…she didn't even want to know how I was. She just saw me and thought I'd give her money for drugs or her dealer"

Sean tucks her hair behind her ear "You knew she was into harder stuff Cass, you knew what Kyle was like"

"I know, it was a shock and she just didn't even look like Sasha. Then she was saying all this shit…how you're paying for me to stay with you. How you pay me for sex" 

Sean frowns "that's ridiculous" 

Cassie gives him a small smile "I know, but imagine having that said to you on top of overhearing the girls talking about how perfect you look with Hollie and how stunning she is" 

"Tasha literally called me ordinary looking"

"First of all I love you so fucking much and I'm not going anywhere. Im definitely not paying you to stay with me, I'm actually paying you to keep my diary and inbox organised" he grins.

Cassie nods wiping at her eyes letting out a half sob half laugh.

Sean smiles slightly "You're far from fucking ordinary looking whatever that means"

She giggles slightly, "Sash blames me for how she's ended up"

"How is any of that your fault?" 

She shrugs, "Apparently I left her unable to afford anything, she's in debt"

"That's not your problem or your fault. You gave her money when you left"

"Yeah I know, just I saw Billy and he told me how…Kyle gets her out of it on god knows what and then-" she hiccups out a cry.

Thinking of her best friend..old best friend in a situation like that makes her feel sick, "He lets whoever they owe money to come over and fuck I don't Sean. I guess they rape her? Because she's not fucking consenting to it if she's off her face"

Sean pulls in a deep breath, pulling her into him "Cass, I can't say anything that will make that any better..but it's not your fault it's not anything you've done"

She nods "It was really just a night full of shit revelations on top of a week of shitty people"

Cassie cups his face in her hands, her thumbs stroking his cheeks "I get in my head and then I can't get back out. It just feels like everyone wants to see us unhappy or wants to blame me for something"

"I'm not going to let them make us unhappy, Cass" he pulls her hands closer to him slotting their fingers together. "I've let my parents make me miserable for most of my life"

Cassie squeezes his hand, "I know. I want to make you happy Sean"

 He grins "you do..even when you're a nightmare" she rolls her eyes, taking a deep breath.

"It's just, I know you love me… I know you don't even think about Hollie, you don't listen to your mum trying to break us up and deep down I know Sasha isn't my responsibility, but everyone pointing out every little thing makes it hard to just brush it off"

"I just wanted my head to shut up just for the evening"

Sean holds her tighter against him, "Cass you're beautiful, I look at you everyday and think how the fuck did this girl settle for me? You're fucking amazing. I would never ever have been with Hollie if all that shit hadn't happened"

"She's skinnier and prettier" she mumbles against his chest.

"Baby, hey look at me" he coaxes her away from his chest, "you're gorgeous all of you. I can't get enough of your curves, you're wild curls and those big innocent eyes even though we both know you're far from innocent. All of this" he runs his hands down her sides settling on her lower back.

"Every fucking inch of you was made for me, okay? I love every part of you"

"Sash isn't your responsibility she wasn't your responsibility when you were friends and she certainly isn't now. You won't be able to help her, Cass and I know you probably want too but her being with Kyle is the issue and you tried to make her see sense before" 

His voice is soft, rolling over her tense body.

"I want you to know that my mum won't doing anything to separate us ever again, okay? She can say whatever she wants but I'm not letting you go. We just need her for the business some people in London still respect her" 

She bites at her lip, nodding slowly "I didn't go out thinking about taking drugs"

She looks down between them, playing with the tips of his fingers.

"I tried to ignore your mum, told myself to get over seeing Hollie and then the girls were talking about it…they didn't know I heard and it just sent me into a spiral and that was before Sasha approached me"

Sean hooks his finger under her chin, pulling her lip from between her teeth with his thumb "how did you get it?"

She shakes her head "does it matter?"

"I think it does and I probably know the answer"

She sighs, "promise me you'll be calm okay?"

Sean frowns at her, "Promise me"

He nods, squeezing her hand.

"Billy, he was out of it Sean he probably doesn't even remember…"

"I knew it. I'm going to fucking kill him"

"You're not, because you promised me and because he really didn't want to do it. I begged him"

Sean tilts his head back with a frustrated groan "Cassandra"

She bites her lip "at least we know where it came from, not some dodgy backstreet mixture"

Sean's gaze drops back to her "Are you trying to justify this?" She gives him a smile, eyes wide and dangerous.

"You know.. we both ruined tonight's plans. We could get rid of the remaining Coke" she runs her hand down his chest.

"Cass.."

"Just us, you'd make sure we're safe. We haven't fucked on Coke in so long" she giggles.

"Remember how good it felt having me lick every last trace of powder from your cock"

"Cassandra Alice Hender-"

"How you snorted it from my pussy and then devoured me" she interrupts him.

"Fuck sake…here I am thinking Billy is the liability, but no it's this girl in front of me" he chuckles getting up from the bed, Cassie's eyes fall to the unmissable sight of his cock straining against his boxers.

"Promise me though, this is it..no more" he gives her a look holding the bag in front of her.

She licks her lips, drags her gaze from the tent in his boxers and nods "No more"

Cassie kneels to move across the bed giving him more room, he grabs her round the waist. The tshirt she's wearing has hitched up giving him full display of her naked ass.

"You know this looks like the perfect place to take it from" his hand runs the curve of her ass, grabbing at the flesh squeezing hard enough to leave finger prints.

She giggles "Seriously?"

"Serious" he hums gently pushing her down onto her front, running his hands over her ass again, dipping between her legs, loving the way she gasps for him.

"Feel good?" He smirks.

She spreads her legs for him, "yeah…"

Sean starts with open mouth kisses across her skin, teeth nipping at her, as his fingers coax the smallest whines from her. "Hold still" 

She giggles resting her cheek on her folded arms "I am"

"Not still enough" he mumbles, hand lightly spanking her ass cheek.  "Perfect little ass, I love all of you" he soothes over the red mark he made.

"Are you talking to her or me?" she looks at him over her shoulder "Both of you" he smiles.

He carefully shakes the powder onto her skin making a perfectly formed line. She keeps her eyes on him, as he bends to line up with the powder, his other hand pressing his left nostril closed.

He's about to take it when she tenses, "Sean stop, please stop" she whispers.

He pulls back, sits up with a frown. "What's wrong?"

Cassie sits up the powder falling onto the sheets, he watches as her eyes fill with tears. She scrambles to her feet, snatching the plastic bag from the bed.

"Cass, what the hell?" he gets off the bed, following her to the bathroom.

She's crying as she empties the contents down the toilet, "Can you get my pyjamas? Please"

Sean nods, coming back seconds later with them, he gently helps her dress. She's shaking, hands gripping onto his.

"Talk to me, please?" he asks, cupping her chin "What happened?"

She nods, letting him lead her into the bedroom, he helps her get comfortable in bed.

She pulls at the bedsheets, avoiding his gaze "Mickey, used to get me really drugged up and then force me onto the bed, not like you did nothing as sweet or gentle."

"Then he'd snort line after line of coke from me… sometimes I'd be trying so hard to stay awake or conscious I don't know which one really"

"If he caught me falling asleep he'd hold the edge of a knife to my stomach, cold and threatening. Telling me I wasn't allowed to sleep while he used me"

She finally looks at him "and I know you're not him…but looking at you about to do it in the exact same way just hit me, I don't know I freaked out"

Sean pulls her into him, pressing kisses to the top of her head "shush, hey it's okay. You're safe, so safe with me Cass"

She nods face buried in his chest "I wasn't comparing you to Mickey it was more the action and the situation"

Sean smirks "I bloody hope not I've seen that fucker not sure what possessed you in the first place"

Cassie laughs "I was high all the fucking time"

He gently pushes her back to look at him "You've never really told me much about him"

Cassie shrugs, pulling her lip between her teeth "I don't like to talk about him, if I can help it I'd rather just block him out"

Sean leans forward kissing her softly "if you ever want to talk to someone else..we can arrange it"

She nods, kissing him back "I know but I'm fine right now. As long as we're okay? After this evening?"

He drags her onto his lap, "We were never not okay, we can argue Cass. It would be weird if we didn't"

She wraps her legs around his waist, nodding her agreement "God I'm exhausted. All this on top of a hangover"

Sean laughs, pressing a kiss to her forehead. She nuzzles into him, letting herself relax against him. His hands soothing against her back.

"Jac and Lily are coming over Monday. I said we'd give Jac the evening off"

Cassie lifts her head from his chest, presses her forehead against his "you've offered our very limited babysitting skills to Jac already? And she trusts us?"

"Well I think she feels ok as she'll be in the same place, she doesn't trust us to be alone with her yet" he grins.

"I think she's finding it hard" he sighes sitting back against the headboard.

"I should pop in to her more" Cassie bites at her lip, "you know she's asked us to give her time to settle in"

"Yeah I know, she's just on the other side of London alone with a newborn"

Sean smiles at her, hands resting on her thighs "I love you so much"

Cassie looks up at him, "I love you"

"I know but just the way you are with Jac and Billy even after everything that happened"

Cassie shrugs, "I don't blame them. Your mum is the only one to blame. They were doing what was best for them, trying to survive your mother"

Sean smirks, thumbs stroking against her skin "She's a lot to survive"

"She is and I'm proud of you keeping your boundaries with her now, I know she's your mum but everything she does to me, hurts you as well"

"I don't have a good example of a mum in my life although my gran was amazing" she sighs, eyes flicking over his face.

She sometimes couldn't believe this man chose her, loved her.

"and I could just ask you to cut your mum off completely but I know how hard that is and I also know that it's your choice to make…I would never ask you to do anything like that"

Sean nods, "I don't want to cut it off completely, she's a big part of the business we need her, but I'm willing and trying to cut her out of my personal life. She doesn't deserve to see us happy, she doesn't deserve to know you"

"I am pretty amazing it's an honour to know me" she giggles.

Sean smirks nudging his nose against hers "I'm lucky you let me in"

Cassie shakes her head, "I'm lucky you still want me"

"Always want you" he hums.

Cassie leans into kiss him, arms around his neck as she pulls him closer to her, "I'm sorry about the drugs and the weird Mickey flashback"

Sean rolls his eyes, pulling her lip from between her teeth "I'm over the drugs. I get that you're trying, if there's a next time just call me"

She nods, "there won't be a next time" he gives her a quick look "fine, if there is I'll call you"

"And the Mickey thing didn't bother me, like I said if you want to talk to me or someone else we can arrange it"

Cassie pulls him with her as she leans back, he's holding himself over her palms flat against the mattress "Maybe in the future but I think I'm ok at the moment"

Sean moves in to kiss her, her fingers massaging against the back of his head, both of them finally settling after a tense evening.

Cassie is sleeping peacefully next to him, her snoring keeping him awake. She looks so adorable but the noises coming from her are that of a gremlin.

'Sorted Mickey out, not sure what to do now' Sean leaves the bed, closing the door quietly behind him and calls Ash from the office.

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One Shot - Siblings In London.

Cassie opens the door with a massive grin on her face, her siblings were actually stood outside her door in London.

She practically squealed as Birdie embraced her, she ushered them through. "Sean's on his way home, he got caught up with a meeting" 

She breezes into the kitchen, placing the bottle of wine into the large fridge. "This way" she gestures back into the lounge. 

"Bird I'm worried our sister has gone…posh" Ash chuckles.

"Oh definitely, I'm not sure we should even be in her presence after our long drive from the ass end of no where" Birdie laughs along. 

Cassie turns round "if you two don't shut up I will make you share one room" 

They both stop laughing, Ash grabs Cassie into a sort of headlock. She's grunting pushing him away as Birdie looks on in amusement 

"You wouldn't dare" he laughs, rubbing his knuckles into her scalp.

"Ash!" She screeches he finally lets her go.

"I don't care as long as I'm far enough away from your bedroom so I don't have to hear you fucking Sean" Birdie cackles, as Ash groans.

"Bonnie I'm begging you please give me the one furthest away" 

"Not after that you twat" she shoves him.

"Anyway, there's an office and bathroom between the guest rooms and our room" 

She rolls her eyes, making her way down the hall, pointing them in the direction of the guest rooms letting them fight out who got the one with an en-suite. 

•

"I've got a few friends coming for the evening as well, I hope that's ok?" Sean asks passing the box of Thai food across to Ash. 

"Yeah man, the more the merrier. Right girls?" He smirks at his sisters.

Turns back to Sean "any of them girls?"

"You're not hooking up with anyone while staying under my roof" Cassie laughs. 

"Oh it's yours is it?" Sean teases nudging her with his elbow. 

She leans in to kiss his cheek, lips sticky with sauce. "Not at the table please" Birdie groans.

"Where are we going anyway?" Cassie asks, she'd left planning up to Ash and Sean. Ash determined to have a proper London night out.

"Soho then we can move on if we want" Sean steals a forkful of food from her plate. 

"Where did you two meet?" Birdie asks, filling her glass with more wine. 

She looks content, relaxed. Sitting by the open balcony doors, the cool breeze and sounds of the wharf filling the room.

"Mayfair" Sean takes the bottle from Birdie.

"Cass why were you in Mayfair? Trying to pick up a rich guy?" 

"No, he was just a lucky bonus. Sash had friends in high places" she shrugs "who were also very high all the time" 

"And why were you there Sean?" Ash asks, mouth half full of food.

Cassie frowns at him "Ashley Peters we weren't fucking raised in a barn don't talk with your mouth full"

He rolls his eyes, sticking his tongue out at her the remnants of food on his tongue.

"I swear to god As-"

"Anyway why were you in Mayfair that night, Sean?" Birdie interupts.

He laughs, "My brother is one of the people Sash knows. I was keeping an eye on him. He's not so much in the high places he's just high all the time" 

"Really kept an eye on him if you left with my sister" Ash jokes.

Cassie throws him another look opens her mouth to speak.

"Both of you need to shut up" Birdie groans. 

•

"Oh come on Bird, live a little your going out in London. When was the last time you had a proper night out?" Cassie is holding up a cap sleeved short black dress. 

Birdie sits on the end of the bed wrapped in a fluffy white towel, "Cass I'll look so fucking ridiculous in that dress" 

Cassie sighs "You won't, because we're fucking identical and I look hot in it" 

"We're not identical anymore Bon" Birdie sighs.

"Birdie we will always be identical, so put the fucking dress on and stop pouting" 

Birdie huffs, getting up from the bed "Fine, but if I think it's too short I'm finding something else" 

Cassie waves her moaning away "If Sean's invited his friend Josh, you should definitely pay attention to him" 

Birdies head snaps round "Are you trying to set me up with one of Sean's friends?" 

"Oh sorry too young for you?" 

"Fuck off Bonnie.. I just don't want to be set up with anyone right now" she shrugs, rummaging in her toiletry bag. 

"Bird, you don't have to stay away from men forever. What happened with Steve was awful but give yourself a break for once" 

"A break what does that even mean?" She crosses the room so she can look through Cassie's makeup bag.

"You know just have some fun, you're always so uptight" 

"Bonnie I am no-"

"You are, now what are you looking for?" 

"A lip liner or something I don't know I haven't glammed up in a while" 

Cassie snorts out a laugh "glammed up? Sorry is Nellie Jennings in the room with us" 

Birdie rolls her eyes taking the lip liner from Cassie "you could go get ready in your own room, you know" 

"Yeah I could but Sean is harder to wind up" she grabs her body lotion, foot propped in the edge of the bed rubbing it into her legs.

"Jesus fucking Christ Bonnie, is it even worth putting on underwear that tiny" Birdie groans as she comes back out of the bathroom confronted with her sisters ass on full display.

Cassie throws her a look over her shoulder "Sean likes it" 

"I bet he fucking does" she scoffs "surprised he can even find it to take it off" 

"Who said he takes it off"

Birdie glares at her, Cassie can't help it she has a desperate need to tease her twin.

"Did Steve enjoy a more modest set?" She cackles standing up straight.

"No but I bloody do" 

"Ok I'm seriously worried that Gran is in the room with us" Cassie bumps her hip against birdies "you need a few drinks and a good snog" 

•

"Is Josh coming?" Cassie asks Sean when their in the kitchen sorting drinks for the small group that was now in their lounge. 

Sean grabs her round the waist "Why? Fancy someone new?" 

Cassie shakes her head "No you're all I need. I just thought Birdie could do with a distraction" 

"He's coming, and I can put in a good word for our Birdie" he smirks.

"She thinks she doesn't want it, but she just needs to lighten up" 

"Who needs to lighten up?" Ash joins them in the kitchen, empty glass in his hand.

"Birdie" 

Sean grabs the whiskey from the side, pouring it into his glass "I'm not sure we have enough time to get her to lighten up in one evening Bon" 

Cassie grins at Ash, Sean shakes his head "you two are awful to her" 

"She brings it on herself" Cassie takes the bottles of wine through to the lounge. 

Ash shrugs "she's always been like it, she makes it so easy" 

Sean laughs, heading for the lounge "Sean.."

"Yeah?" He turns back to Ash. "Has Cass been okay? You know since she's been back?" 

Sean places his glass on the kitchen side "Yeah…well..she's had her moments but she's been fine" 

Ash nods "I just…I worry about her. I know I'm the baby of the family but she's my sister. I get to keep an eye on Birdie but Cass being down here I don't get to check in as much"

"I'm the youngest as well and I think I do all the worrying so I understand" 

Ash smiles, refilling his glass once again "you'd tell me though? If she got bad again?" 

Sean nods "Of course..but I can honestly say how you see her right now is how she's been since we came back give or take a couple of occasions" 

Ash watches Cassie laughing in the lounge, her arm around Birdies waist as they chat to a couple of Sean's friends. "They didn't have much time with their dad and my dad is a cunt to them so I always feel like they're my responsibility" 

Sean looks across at the twins "a lot of responsibility there, mate" he laughs.

Ash shakes his head, "Well you've took one off my hands so thank you" 

Sean laughs, "She's the best thing that's ever happened to me" 

"Jesus Christ no more alcohol for Sean he's soppy" Ash calls as they join everyone in the lounge.

Cassie uncurls from Birdie, making her way across to Sean. He wraps his arms around her, she bends her head back with a grin "What you being soppy about?" 

He leans to kiss her "you" 

"Ah he's alright this is normal for him" Adam laughs clapping him on the back as he makes his way back to his partner sitting at the dining table. 

•

The whole group piles out of two taxis in Soho, all in high spirits. Cassie has her hand linked with Birdies as they navigate the uneven pavements in their heels.

"You look gorgeous, Bird" she whispers as they wait to be let into the club, Sean up front talking to the guy on the door and seconds later the rope is lifted. 

"Thanks Cass, this dress wasn't so bad" 

"See I told you. You should always trust Bonnie Girl" she giggles. 

The group are filtering up to the booth area, Sean has organised drinks for the two tables already. Cassie can't help the swell of pride in her chest he's her guy. 

"You needed this" Cassie shouts over the music, they're on the dance floor four songs deep and no intention of stopping. 

Birdie nods, she did. She can't remember the last time she felt this free and happy. Maybe the night out with Cee near Christmas before things with Steve got hard and messy.

Maybe she should entertain the thought of one night with someone else, just to prove to herself that she can do it again, the old Birdie wouldn't have even thought twice about a one night stand.

Cassie wraps her arms around her neck, pulling her out of her head.

"I love you Birdie Henderson" she giggles voice tickling right into her ear drum

"I love you too" she grins rubbing at her ear. 

"It's our song!" They both shout in unison, as Gabrielle's 'Dreams' fills the dance floor, they're clutching each other singing at the top of their lungs.

Ash joins them from another section of the club, arms slung around them as they all screech the lyrics. 

It hits Cassie as the song finishes and they move apart for a breath, this feeling is better than anything cocaine as ever given her.

Ash squeezes her hand as he disappears back into the crowd. 

Cassie spots Sean making his way towards them, she almost throws herself at him. His hands on her waist.

"Thank you" she hums still catching her breath, "for what?" He smiles pushing her hair over her shoulder.

His hand cupping at her chin "For helping me, for allowing me to have this as my life" 

He leans to kiss her, "You deserve it Cass, I want to give you whatever you want for the rest of our lives" 

Birdie tugs at her hand "don't give up on me now Bonnie, I'm just getting started" 

Cassie beams at Sean, he pulls her back quickly "Josh is here" 

"Let's take a break, desperate for a wee" she smiles, "Fine, I could do with a drink" Birdie lets Cassie lead her off the dance floor following Sean back up to their booths.

"Where's baby brother, he exited the dancefloor pretty quick" Cassie asks looking around as Sean hands her a glass.

He points to the seating in the corner "Jade has been keeping him company" he hands Birdie the second glass over the top of Cassie's head. 

Both girls turn in sync to look over where Sean pointed, Ash catches them. They cackle as he subtly flips them the finger.

"How do you tell them apart after you've had a few drinks?" Josh laughs from beside Sean. 

Sean shakes his head with a coy smile "Cassie has a loud mouth. I'd know my girl anywhere" 

Cassie spins round "Josh!"

Both men laugh as she proves Sean's point. Josh gives her a quick hug, "this is my sister Bi-"

"Bella" Birdie butts in, Josh smiles at her leaning to greet her with a kiss on her cheek. 

Birdie leans into him as he greets her, he smells like woody citrus, his hand resting lightly on her waist. He's tall, with sculpted biceps.

"Hi Bella" he smiles, Birdie feels a rush of warmth over her body as his soft Irish accent breaks through the noise of the club. 

"You weren't lying when you said I needed to pay attention to Josh" Birdie giggles as they squeeze into one cubicle in the ladies. 

Cassie laughs, "Gorgeous isn't he?" 

"The accent and his eyes" Birdie practically drools, "I can't though" 

Cassie tuts as she shimmies her underwear back up her legs "you can, what's stopping you?" 

They switch places, Cassie adjusting the hem of her dress "nothing is stopping me but I haven't had a one night stand in months"

"Well tonight is the perfect time to break that draught, I've heard from countless people that he's an amazing fuck" 

Birdie sighs, "It's not a draught I've been having sex, I don't know Bon I'll just be another girl on his list "

"Birdie Henderson have you seen him? Being a name on his list is definitely not the worst thing to ever happen to you" Cassie unlocks the cubicle. 

"I guess, oh Bonnie I don't know" she whines washing her hands. 

"Birdie just flirt a little, see what happens no one is forcing you to fuck him" Cassie shakes her hands over the sink before grabbing some paper towel. 

"But if you know it went that way…I can bring him back to yours?" 

Cassie tries to keep a straight face but she can't; a grin breaks through "of course you can. we can all have breakfast together tomorrow" 

Birdie reaches across to shove her "shut up, you're such a cow sometimes" 

Cassie checks her lipstick, before they leave the toilets. 

•

It's three am when they get out of the taxi back at the flat. Ash has Jade hanging off him, Cass had laughed into Sean's ear in the taxi as they noticed Ash struggling to stay awake. 

Birdie is being lead upstairs by Josh, his hand linked with hers. He'd asked her to dance and they hadn't separated since. 

Sean is carrying Cassie's heels as she pads along the hall in her barefeet, fingers linked "can't wait to sleep" she sighs.

"Oh? I don't get lucky like those two?" Sean grins.

"Maybe if you're quick" 

Sean pulls his key from his pocket, "I think I can manage that" 

"There's waters in the fridge and paracetamol in the bathrooms" Cassie waves in the various directions as she heads for the bedroom.

"Oh not staying up for a nightcap, Bon?" Ash calls, Jade is sprawled on the sofa fighting to keep her head up and her eyes open.

"I promised Sean sex, if he's quick"

Birdie snorts out a laugh, "And they say romance is dead" 

"She treats me so well" Sean laughs handing waters out to everyone "now if you'll excuse me I need to hold her to that promise. Make yourselves at home" 

They all groan as he disappears into the bedroom. "I suggest we all retreat as far from their room as possible" Ash mutters helping Jade up from the sofa. 

The four of them head for their separate rooms with mumbled good nights. 

"I think tonight was a success" Cassie hums as she straddles Sean, his hands immediately stroke down her sides landing on the curve of her ass. 

"Yeah?" 

"Yep Birdie is finally loosening up, Ash didn't take any drugs and I got to come home with the best guy" she cups his face in her hands, rolling her hips down against him.

His eyes locked on hers, foreheads pressed together as she continues grinding down against him.

"The best fucking guy" she whispers, Sean's mouth drops open as he swells in his boxers "Cass, fuck" he laughs lightly.

Her head drops so she can press her lips against his bare chest, his hand curling in her hair tugging as she rocks against him.

Sean pushes her back, she squeals as she falls onto the mattress. He pulls her shorts down her legs, her feet pushing at his boxers. 

Sean lets out a deep groan as he pushes into her, she's soaked taking him instantly, head thrown back onto the mattress. Sean dips his head, sucking against her neck.

"I fucking love you" he rasps, watching her as she tries to grip onto the edge of focus. "So much…so much" she whines. 

Sean pins her hands above her head, his hips rolling into hers, her cunts velvet heat taking his breath away. 

"This is going to be really quick" he laughs, Cassie giggles flexing her fingers against his "Oh good then I can sleep" 

Sean pushes his hips into her, making her gasp "Im so fucking lucky" he laughs

Cassie nods, wrapping her legs around his waist "the luckiest" 

•

Birdie groans as the harsh sun floods in through the floor to ceiling windows, she's warm the body pressed against her back isn't helping. 

Her head is fuzzy, she can vividly remember Cassie pushing tequila into her hand countless times. Her whole body aches, her feet are screaming at her for wearing heels. 

"Morning" the hoarse voice comes from behind her, the warmth fanning across her neck. 

His arm tightens around her middle, she shuffles back into his chest. Imagines flash in her mind of that strong muscular chest above her as they moved together, hot breath mixing between them. 

The flex of his back as she dug her nails in, his hand gripped against her thigh as he held her leg against his hip. 

The way her name rolled off his tongue, how she gasped against his neck.

"Morning" she sighs, feeling content. 

"That window is so fucking impractical" he chuckles.

"I guess if you actually close the blinds, which I think I did before I went out"

"Yeah, they were closed and then we opened them" 

"Oh god we did, let's not tell Cassie what happened against the windows" she laughs, turning around to face him.

•

Cassie makes her way out of the kitchen, pushing the balcony doors open she steps out, her home is full of people she loves.

She's disgustingly hungover and her boyfriend woke her up with two orgasms, she's happy and content.

Her siblings coming down for a long weekend was just what she needed after a few tough weeks with Sean's Family.

"Morning Bon" Ash's voice breaks her silence, she turns round.

"Morning" she smiles "there's coffee in there" 

"Yeah all good your husband is getting me a cup" he shrugs, pushing his sunglasses on.

"My husband" she scoffs pulling out a chair, placing her coffee cup down on the table. "Has Birdie emerged yet?" He asks.

"No, I think she's enjoying Josh before they have to go their separate ways" Cassie smirks, "Wait where's Jade?"

"Oh she left hours ago, had work or something" he pulls out a packet of cigarettes from the pocket of his hoodie. 

"Ahh just a one night thing then?" Cassie holds her hand out for a cigarette. Ash lights one for her before he passes it over.

"Yeah London is all about no strings attached..although I took her number you know just incase" 

Cassie nods with a roll of her eyes. Sean appears moments later, two cups of coffee and her dressing gown over his arm. 

"Still have that ugly thing?" Ash laughs, taking a drag on his cigarette.

She pulls it on, bringing her legs up onto the chair "yeah it's cosy"

"It's hideous, Sean please tell her it's hideous" 

"Oh she knows it's hideous" Sean takes the cigarette Ash offers, they fall into general conversation, hangovers mellowed by the morning sun. 

•

"I know you're not here for much longer..but would you like to go for dinner?" Josh comes out of the en-suite, towel wrapped around his waist. 

Birdie allows her gaze to linger on his body, the water droplets rolling down the defined lines and chiselled abs. 

"I'm here until Monday, and I can be free tomorrow night" 

He smiles, letting the towel drop from his waist "and do you come here often?" 

Birdie wraps her arms around his neck as he climbs over her once again, "I don't, but I'm sure my sister would love for me to visit more" 

"I'm sure she would" he hums before his face is buried in her neck, his lips pressing against the marks his teeth leave. 

•

All three of them look towards the lounge as they hear voices, Sean points his cigarette at them both "behave alright?"

Cassie gives Ash a look before they nod at Sean "you said she needed to lighten up and she has so don't ruin it"

Cassie squeezes his knee as Ash laughs lightly "yes dad" he mumbles with a smirk.

Snorting out a laugh Cassie kicks Ash under the table.

"So Monday I can pick you up at 8" Josh smiles hand cupped warm against Birdies cheek as they stand at Sean's door.

"Great," she hums as he leans to kiss her.

"Coffee, Bird?" Sean calls from the kitchen as she passes, she stops "black one sugar please"

Sean nods "good night?"

She smiles "yeah really good thanks"

"They're on the balcony" he gestures to the open doors "should I be prepared?" She groans.

"I've warned them" he places a clean mug under the coffee machines spout "I'll bring this through"

Birdie thanks him again, bracing herself to face her siblings.

"Here she is" Ash cheers, arms open. Birdie rolls her eyes but lets him hug her "Bon, we need to go shopping or something. I have a date on Monday"

Cassie's head flies up from her phone "with Josh?"

"No, some other guy I met…yes Josh you idiot"

Cassie throws her a look, swallows down her reply "you can always look in my wardrobe"

Ash splutters out a laugh "she doesn't want to look like a slut on a Monday evening"

Cassie flips him off "if I wasn't so fucking hungover you'd be dead"

Birdie sighs "fine, but don't force me into anything"

"I won't, but I will stand by the fact that black dress helped you get laid"

"Look at us, we all got laid" Ash grins leaning back in his chair as his sisters tell him to shut up in unison.

Sean appears with Birdies coffee and the delivery bag of breakfast food Cassie had talked him into ordering.

"I'll get plates" Birdie gets up from the chair she'd only just sat down in. "No Bird, I'll do it, you're my guests" Cassie stands up as Ash rips open a bag of pastries.

Cassie runs her hand over Sean's shoulders "love you" she hums.

Both Ash and Birdie smirk at each other, "Sean, I'm sorry to bring this up but what the fuck have you done with my sister?" Ash laughs, crumbs flying past his lips.

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