⤻ * 𝖓𝖊𝖜 / 𝑩𝑨𝑳𝑨𝑵𝑪𝑬

ivy glances over her shoulder in the mirror to look at pavarti in between focusing on doing her makeup, looking respectfully, of course. ❛ oooh, let me dress you ! i have a few dresses that would look amazing on you. and we should definitely match, let’s be those bitches ! or we at least have to coordinate, like black and white or pink and red or something. ❜ she finishes off her eyelids with a healthy amount of a gold shimmer before dropping the brush down onto the counter. she runs down to the kitchen to grab a bottle of tequila, two shot glasses, and a bottle of orange juice for a chaser. she sat it all carefully on the counter, pushing her scattered makeup out of the way before pouring them both a shot, picking up one of the shot glasses and holding it up for a quick toast, ❛ what should we drink to ? ❜

      she adores ivy . there’s never a dull moment when she’s around and that’s just the type of person that pavarti wants to keep C L O S E . granted , trouble seems to follow them both in some way or another , but as far as she’s concerned --- that just makes things BETTER . “ you wanna dress me ? ” she inquires gilrishly , a giggle accompanying her tone as she teases the other girl . “ seriously ? we’re gonna be those bitches tonight , huh ? i’m down , girl , just make sure you pick something my ASS looks killer in . deal ? ” she pauses conversation , curling her lashes until they’ve got the desired volume , pushing them up with her fingers as she examines her foundation up close . pavarti’s grin turns into a d e v i l i s h smirk as ivy returns with tequila in hand , licking her lips as she watches her pour them some shots . she takes a hold of her’s , pursing her lips as she CONTEMPLATES something worthy to celebrate . “ to . . . being the sexiest bitches in the club ? ”

    he really thought that saying what he said was enough to scare the shit out of him, but what she said absolutely terrified him. because now, he knows he isn’t the only one feeling the way that he does – it was a lot easier, when he thought it was all one-sided (rather, when he pretended it was all one-sided because they were so silent about it). but once alex made the first push, he seemed to encourage pavarti to say whatever was on her mind, as well. it brought him both an electric excitement that he hasn’t felt for months and a happiness that he hasn’t felt in years, but at the same time it brought a lot of anxiety and fear that was instilled in him over a long time. he wasn’t even sure how he was going to respond to her — so, they’ve both just acknowledged their feelings, and they’re both terrified of taking it to the next level. “i don’t think i’d be able to shake you after just one night.” alex definitely knew he wasn’t ready to commit to one person. it was a mix of his fear of being hurt and left again, like what happened with ella and wilhelmina, and some part of it was that he felt he didn’t deserve to feel the cosmic love and pure energy that a girl like pavarti would surely give him. but then her fingers were on his lips, and then threading through his hair… and he could smell her as she came closer to him. alex closed his eyes, and just held her tighter. “then i won’t kiss you.” he mumbles into her hair, which smelled of sea salt and warm breeze from the events of earlier today. “not today.” he pulls away from her, lifting her chin up so she could look at him, and he simply smiles at her – the sight of her eyes looking up at him like that was enough to put a smile on his face, no matter what. “just sit next to me, and we can see where things go naturally.” 

      she feels overwhelmed . that’s the best way to DESCRIBE IT . it’s been weeks of keeping this all inside , falling harder even with her guard up . alex managed to infiltrate her defenses , hijack her thoughts and dreams until she’s a l l she’s thinking about in the dead of night , staring up into the darkness of her ceiling as she contemplates just CALLING him --- telling him let’s quit this bull shit and just do this . she’s well aware she’s flirting with disaster . pavarti’s done so well at keeping herself at a safe distance , but there was no more hiding when it was all put onto the table like this . a girlish S M I R K twitches onto her brims , a light hearted moment in such a time of intensity . “ no , no you definitely wouldn’t . . . , ” the singer hums , suggestiveness coating her tone , though her eyes convey faux - innocence through thick lashes . if they had any sense , they would QUIT while they were ahead , go on with this sham of a friendship as they continue to behave the exact opposite . blissful ignorance . she feels his grip tightening on her , and she feels a d e s p e r a t e pull to come even closer , but refrains . the air is thick between them , impossible to ignore the passionate tension that lingers . as his face presses into her hair , eyes flutter shut , savoring the way he FEELS , his breath warm against her ear . shivers travel up her spine . she says he won’t kiss her , not yet , and pavarti feels robbed even if what alex is saying does PERFECT sense . they’ve been going with the flow successfully for this long . so why does she feel so unsatisfied ? his fingers hooking under her chin compels her gaze to lock with his , her heart T H U M P I N G so loudly she can hear it herself . “ no . . . ” she trails off , “ i don’t want that . i just want you . ” impulsion takes over and she officially throws caution to the wind , staring all of her WORST fears right in the eye and deciding : fuck it . nails tangle in his short tresses , directing his face closer to her’s as she eagerly crashes her lips against his . 

Dark brows furrowed, though her lips didn’t shift from their position, seeming curious yet amused by the exclamation. “Don’t have a right? I’m afraid I hadn’t been informed that admiring appearances was something made unlawful after a fall out but if you’d truly prefer, I’ll keep such thoughts internal.” Of course, her perusal when it came to the topic of Pavarti went deeper than perhaps even the femme was aware, based both on what she had on display physically and emotionally; but despite all the bad of Natalia, she was well-mannered enough to know that at least some of those things ought not be spoken unless the other requested to hear them - an unlikely occurrence. “Or is even thinking such thoughts a criminal act on my part? Because if such is the case, I’m afraid the handcuffs may have to be broken out.” The fact of the matter was that despite her seemingly cool demeanor, she felt that had she held an ounce less self control she would have already risen and allowed herself to draw nearer, if only to see what reaction it would cause. “You don’t think of me but you certainly made it a point to make your way over here, mi amor. If you would like to, you’re more than welcome to sit and inform me just how deplorable I am.” 

      alcohol is a GREAT fuel . it’s flammable , all - consuming . it clouds her better judgement and encourages the compliance with her most d e v i l i s h of inclinations . she doesn’t want to give natalia any recognition whatsoever , yet here she is --- drunkenly chewing her out over shit that neither of them could change . would natalia even WANT that ? to rewrite their history and do things differently ? the thing is : pavarti doesn’t know and she’s too damn afraid of any answers she could possibly uncover . “ yeah , you don’t fuckin’ deserve to check me out , ” she slurs , tone accusatory as though the other female truly did commit a crime . a scoff escapes painted brims , unsure how to take natalia’s words other than in the W O R S T of ways . “ you can’t even fuckin’ talk to me for five minutes without bringing up your kinky shit ? what part of i’m too good for you don’t you GET ? ” it’s not even a fair assumption , yet based off of previous experiences , it’s an understandable conclusion to make . she thought she knew natalia so well . now all she sees is a stranger . “ don’t call me that ! you d o n ‘ t get to call me that anymore ! you just fuckin’ sit there like you don’t even know what you did wrong --- pretty fuckin’ DEPLORABLE if you ask me , huh ?! ”

        he decides to not comment anything else in regards to the trip she went on , doesn’t want his thoughts to remain fixated on whatever it was that she did with this other guy . daniel doesn’t ask either , instead he’s already made his assumptions . he’s been to santorini , and he’s not clueless to the warm romantic atmosphere set by the most breathtaking of views . though daniel did go alone , or rather a couple of friends after a quick stop in mykonos . he nods , digits shifting as they sink into her flesh , gently massaging her shoulders , as he speaks up , his voice remaining soft , keeps his gaze locked with hers , lips curling into a cocky grin . “  it is , yeah , your pussy’s my favourite , ‘s so fuckin’ good . i bet you love hearing me say that too , huh ?? knowing that you’re my favourite .  .  . ” daniel breathes , teasing query dripping off his tongue , before wet appendage darts out to wet his lesser brim seconds later . he’s well aware of the shit he did when they were together , how he hurt her , betrayed her , and daniel regrets it deeply . “  i know , ” if there’s anything he wishes he could do it’s jumping into a time machine to alter the shit show he caused , stops himself from r u i n i n g the only real thing in his life , from hurting the only person he’s ever felt anything for . he knows she deserves better , deserves so much more than anything he could ever offer , but he’s selfish , and he can’t d e n y the magnetic pull , or the way his heart flutters whenever he’s near her . he wants to prove her that he can do better , that he will do better this time , and that he’ll keep his promise . “  i don’t expect you to trust me right away , so just give me time to show you that i’m serious . ” he doesn’t want to hurt her , and he knows he’ll have to fight through hell and back to gain back her trust . it won’t happen overnight , and actions do speak louder than words . giggles parting pink petals cause his grin to widen , despite herr words , and as he speaks , its evident his own are meant to d i s t r a c t her from his previous suggestion as they smoothly roll off his tongue . “  you’re cute when you laugh , you know that ?? ” he tells her , before quickly adding . “  and i won’t pull that shit again , seriously .  .  . as i said fuck the bahamas . i’d rather stay right here with you anyways ,  ” brow arches as the femme speaks , and daniel laughs as he shakes his head . “ just let me pretend the song’s about me . ” he laughs , before adding .  “ you better not be doubting me , bebé . seriously .  .  .  you are , aren’t you ?? alright get up , we’re heading out . ” daniel reaches for the remote and pauses the movie , gaze falling on the brunette seconds later . “  start thinkin’ where you want the tat to go , you’re picking . c’mon , there’s a place we can get it done not too far away from here .  ” 

       pavarti has to debate whether or not she’s petty enough to BRAG about the other suitors in her life . is it wrong that she wants to inflict that same pain , same jealously on daniel as he did to her ? or does he deserve it ? she’s done p l e n t y of terrible things to the latino since he broke her heart . perhaps now that he’s ( seemingly ) giving this a genuine try , she should meet him halfway --- not play any games . however , that did include INFORMING him that there are others . it’s only fair . she’s not looking to settle down , not with anyone , at least not in this moment . pavarti doesn’t want this to become some type of fucked up C O M P E T I T I O N . she’s not a prize to be fought over and they weren’t in high school anymore . can’t she date around without it being an issue ? that’s what she hopes , at least . a smirk spreads across pavarti’s plump brims as he describes to her that her pussy is his FAVORITE flavor . he’s right --- she does like hearing him say it . she’s still possessive of daniel like that . “ that’s so sad for you that you haven’t gotten a taste . . . in what , months ? i almost feel bad for you , really . ” she has yet to decide to believe in what daniel’s saying . it’s everything she’d w a n t to hear , but that’s not enough anymore , not after what he made her endure . he’s managed to convince her he’s something he’s not before , he could do it again . “ i just don’t want you to EXPECT that i’m gonna get back with you . just because i’m fuckin’ you again doesn’t mean i love you . but i’m giving you time . all right ? that’s all i can promise you right now . ” it’s probably not what daniel wants to hear , but he deserves to K N O W where her head’s at . now he does . he calls her cute and she just giggles more , rolling her eyes as he insists that he’s done with trying to one - up alex . she’ll believe it when she SEES IT . her and daniel both have fiery tempers . she wouldn’t be able to stay silent if she ran into any girl he was seeing . it’s a bit u n f a i r that she expects him to be on his best behavior , but she does . “ mmhm , i know you would , ” the singer replies , cocky in delivery but she knows she can back it up . “ i hope you think of me fuckin’ someone else every time you look at it . ” pavarti sits up from her comfortable pillow of his lap as daniel pauses the movie , “ you’re fuckin’ CRAZY , you wanna go do this right now ? ” the brunette leans forward , lips only centimeters away from his as she coquettishly mumbles , “ my pussy really has you whipped , doesn’t it , papi ? i like that  . . . let’s go . ”

      for weeks since they first met and she declared that all she wanted was a pure friendship out of alex, he thought he could be deal with that – after all, a relationship is never something alex wanted. but he’s been in a constant battle with himself, the more he got to know pavarti, and the closer he felt to her… the more he felt like he was treading into dangerous territory. while he absolutely adored spending time with her, and the chemistry between them was unreal… he also always felt a sense of discomfort around her – always in the form of, i don’t want to get used to this… i don’t want to feel anything for her. but right now his mind was elsewhere, and the only thing he could feel was warmth and comfort… a sense of serenity that he possibly won’t find again back in new york. back with other people in his life, back to his work, and back to his parents. right now, there was only the pink hue of the sky, the sound of the waves beneath them, and pavarti by his side, closer than ever – in every aspect of the word. and then he looks down at her as she speaks, and she looks up at him, and she asks him, ‘do you feel it, too?’ and perhaps, today was the only day he truly allowed himself to feel it. and perhaps, today will be the only day he’ll allow himself to be so vulnerable around her. “i feel like i want to kiss you.” the words escaped him; they left his lips before he could even stop himself — and he didn’t fucking care. he didn’t know how to keep his thoughts to himself; the last few weeks with pavarti were torture, having to pretend that it was all just platonic and he wasn’t thinking of all the different ways he could make her feel good, and just kissing her once. “i’m…– i know, i’m not supposed to say that. friends, or whatever –” he rolls his eyes teasingly, smiling at her. “so i’m sorry.” was he actually sorry? because he didn’t sound like it.

       his words take her by surprise , literally STEALING the breath from pavarti’s lungs . he says what’s on both of their minds , something that has been repressed since the f i r s t moment they spent together at that party . it’s absolutely terrifying how time seems to slow in alex’s presence ; whisked away into a world of their own creation . she could stay here FOREVER . he makes her feel safe , warm . . . adored . she’s been so sure about someone before , heart in tunnel vision that she was B L I N D to the signs around her . god , how she hopes this isn’t another one of those situations . alex offers an apology , though she can tell it’s not genuine --- why should it be ? out of the two of them , he’s the ONLY one who has had the confidence to speak on what was so obviously between them . “ don’t be , ” pavarti urges , tone velvety soft , “ don’t be s o r r y . ” fingers dare to dart forward , lilac - painted nails ghosting along his oh - so tempting lips . “ i . . .  i wanted you to KISS ME since that stupid party . i mean it . ” eyes divert away , if only for a moment . she doesn’t know how to say what’s in her heart other than just saying it . “ i know i turned you away . it’s not because i don’t like you , i told you this back in new york --- i do . so fuckin’ much . boy , why do you think i can’t L E A V E your side for more than a minute ? ” it’s a weak joke , giggling softly as she hides her face into the exquisite curve of his neck . she inhales his cologne , his shampoo , his everything . “ but you’re not someone i can just be with ONCE , y ‘ know ? i can’t just fuckin’ kiss you once . if we start . . . i don’t think i’m going to be able to stop . it scares me . ” fingers thread affectionately through alex’s hair , releasing a sigh as the weight of her feelings is released from her shoulders . “ i’ve known from the second i met you that there was something s p e c i a l about you . about you and me . ”

          blood boils as it pumps through the male’s veins , tells himself to keep it together . daniel has no right to complain , has to remind himself of that very fact , tells himself he’d keep his eyes open and fight h a r d e r for what he wants , her trust , her heart . he’s unsure of this other guy’s intentions , but something tells him he might be after the same thing he is , her affection . “  you better have had some gyros then . i swear that’s a fuckin’ gift from the gods . it’s not a trip to greece if you’ve not had it at least once , seriously . have you ?? you better have , if not i’m ordering some right now .” he’s trying his best to shift the light of the conversation , set the focus back on them , on her , and divert his thoughts from wherever she stood with morgan . he evidently cares , it bugs him , but there’s nothing he can do than try his best to c h a n g e , and prove her he wanted to as well . baby steps , he can’t rush anything , and he knows that ,just like he knows that he’s lucky enough to be there with here , right now . “ i dunno , there’s no way there’s a fruit that t a s t e s as good as you , ” voice is low , corners of his brims twitching , a cocky grin adorning his features as pools of chocolate fall upon the side of her face , his digits shifting to thread through her curls once more . “ ‘s sweet .  .  . like honey , ” daniel knows exactly what he’s doing , teasing words meant to tempt the femme , paint a picture in her mind to remind her of how and what he could make her feel . he pops another nacho into his mouth as she rolls over , hues gazing into hers as she reveals there’s stuff about him on the album , things which he wouldn’t like , but he gets it , he understand , and he’s not going to complain . “  no , you’re right , i do deserve it .  ” daniel agrees , nodding for her to take some more from the bowl before he sets it to the side again , tongue darting out to wet his lesser brim . “  but i swear i meant it when i said i wish i could take all the shit i did back . ” he wants to do better , for her , and them , and he wants to prove her he’s serious . brows raise , hands lifting defensively , nervous chuckle parting his brims . “  alright , alright , i get it , i take it back , no bahamas . fuck the bahamas , ” arms rests on the couch’s arm , his other hand falling to rest on her shoulder , gives her a reassuring squeeze . “ lo siento , si ?? i mean it . i don’t want it to seem like i’m playin’ games here , when i’m not , i promise . ” there’s a brief pause , knows that his promises meant nothing with all the shit he’s pulled in the past , which is why he speaks up again , eyes lighting up with the idea that’s crossed his mind . “  i’ll get pussy fairy inked , both to celebrate and show you that i’m serious. you pick the spot . my cock and pretty face are off limits though .  ”

     pavarti is B E Y O N D weary of daniel and his intentions . he’s managed to pull the wool over her eyes once before , seemingly possessing a talent of saying just what the brunette wants to hear . whilst she ENJOYS having him back in her life again ( in this capacity ) , she’s not about to fall into the same pattern with her ex boyfriend . he hurt her badly , worse than anyone ever has . those wounds turned into scars --- d e e p and impossible to avoid , infesting her current love life to the point where she distrusts any possible scenario leading to her happiness . frankly she doesn’t care if he dislikes that she has other suitors . the bitterness in his voice serves as poetic justice . as far as pavarti is concerned , daniel is lucky she’s even giving him the chance to spend time with her . “ i don’t eat lamb , ” she expresses , “ but don’t worry . it was still a good trip . ” B E S T she’s ever had , really , but her ex doesn’t need to hear that . a sultry smirk spreads onto her glossy brims as he describes the taste between her legs , finding it impossible to not be lured in by the sensuality coating his accented words . “ your favorite , right ? ” the singer hums , a girlish innocence accompanying her tone . she’s always been able to express herself best through song . naturally her new album had PLENTY of material that depicted daniel in a negative light . she’s glad he takes it , that he understands the gravity of his errors . it might be too late , but at least he understands . “ you can’t . hindsight is twenty twenty . you should’ve KNOWN better . ” the last thing pavarti wants right now is to get into it --- she’s finding a rare moment of happiness here with daniel and discussing his infidelity would surely spoil that . “ no , fuck you for tryin’ to pull that shit with me . you’re not as slick as you think , ” she informs him , though she giggles as she speaks . right now , it’s all just words . daniel’s promises , his determination . . . words , words , words . he could talk as much as he likes , but they both know that actions were louder and only time would tell if he could stick to his word . a string of L A U G H T E R escapes the brunette as he poses the idea of getting the title of her song tattooed on his flesh and pavarti can’t resist the opportunity to fuck with him . “ you wanna go and get the title of a song about some dude lovin’ my pussy tattooed on you ? ” it’s about him , but he doesn’t need to know THAT . “ mm , do it then . i dare you . or are you all talk and no play ? ”

            free hand reaches into the bowl of nachos perched on the couch’s arm , a meal that he’d prepared for them earlier . daniel was quick to pop a cheese covered triangle into his mouth as he remained quiet , silently wondering what the possible reasons for her absence could be . he was clueless , had no idea that she’d gone away with anyone . instead , he was assuming that pavarti being busy was work related , and with her single coming out it did make sense . it’s evident , daniel is entirely taken back by words parting the femme’s lips .  news that she’d spent some time alone with another man didn’t sit well with him . “ oh , ” a rather awkward laugh falls from his brims , tongue darting out to wet his lesser brim , and it takes daniel a second to get it together . he’s j e a l o u s , though he has no right to complain , and he knows that . did he feel threatened ?? yes . whoever this guy was , daniel sees him as competition . “  well , i hope it was good . santorini’s nice , ”  but he prefers to believe she would’ve enjoyed herself with him even more . he’s gong to do some digging , and if it turns out to be the same alex he knows , he’d take back the invitation to appear in one of his music videos . palm rests flat against her shoulder , digits giving her flesh a small squeeze , chuckle rolling off his tongue as he points out his choice of words . “  well , it’s juicy .  .  . what’s the proper fruit for pussy then , huh ?? ” he questions laughing lightly , as he reaches for the bowl of nachos once more , offering her some . “ ‘s good though , really . está muy chévere , muy caliente , yeah ?? i like it . i’m excited to hear more of your new stuff , pavarti . ” he means it . he’s always appreciated her art , swears that her voice resembles that of a siren . she’s gifted , and he means it when he says it’s beautiful . thoughts wander back to alex unsure about whether or not pavarti and him were more than friends . daniel wouldn’t waste any time , he wanted her to know that he’s s e r i o u s , he wants her back , and he’d fight for a second chance . “  y’know .  .  . i could use a small break from new york , ” words themselves already hint at what it is that he wants . “ and the bahamas sounds like the perfect place .  .  . would you say no if i asked you to come with me ?? ”

       pavarti’s been adamant for months about keeping to herself . not only did daniel crush her DESIRE to date , she had too much going on . an album getting ready to drop , late - night studio sessions . . . the list was constantly growing and just wants to mind her own damn business for once . did she have feelings for alex ? yes . did she have feelings for daniel too ? she d i d . however alex had something that daniel didn’t : her trust . she keeps trying to convince herself that she isn’t searching for anything with anyone yet still finds herself keeping company with she simply CAN’T refrain from falling for . it’s a fucking mess and deep down she’s well aware she’s playing with fire . perhaps on some subconscious level she wants to get B U R N E D . either way , she can’t deny the sense of sick satisfaction she feels at the sound of his disappointment . pavarti isn’t low enough to use anyone for some petty game , but she has to appreciate the poetic justice of the moment . she doesn’t NEED daniel . she doesn’t need anyone . “ it was . it was a really great trip , ” she comments , failing to elaborate any further . she’s poked the bear --- she doesn’t want to enrage him . besides , she doesn’t wish to weaponize a man who means a great deal to her , alex . “ i’m not sure . what kind of fruit does my pussy taste like ? ” pavarti queries innocently , popping a chip into her mouth as he offers up the nachos . “ yeah ? i’m g l a d you like it , “ the brunette hums , rolling over then so she’s staring up at him , head still comfortable in his lap . “ probably not all of it . there’s shit on the album about you you’re DEFINITELY not gonna like . but you fuckin’ deserve it . ” with that , she offers him a sultry smile spread across her glossy brims , refusing to miss a chance to make her displeasure for him known --- she hasn’t gotten OVER it . not even close . it’s obvious that he’s only offering a trip to her because another man already has . daniel doesn’t even try to conceal it . “ i say that you’re JUST asking me because you’re jealous . and i’m not gonna play this fuckin’ games with you , daniel . don’t offer me shit like that just to compete . i’m not a fuckin’ trophy . you understand ? ” she’s not being C O L D , rather pavarti’s voice is quiet , truthful . they’ve already hit rock bottom . there’s no reason for her to not be upfront with him . . . but she does expect the same treatment . if he says he’s changed , she wants to see it .

        daniel hadn’t been subtle , intentions crystal clear from the start . her favourite kind of flowers delivered to her door the next morning painted the picture of what it was that he wanted from her , another shot at what they once shared , a chance to prove himself , that he’s serious, that he wouldn’t dare to fuck up in the same ways he had in the past , or in any ways for that matter . for once daniel was trying to change. he’s already acknowledged it’s not going to be e a s y to win her back , found himself anxiously waiting for her to text him back . he’s surprised that she’s asked him to come over , though he wasn’t going to say no , and miss this opportunity to spend some time with his ex girlfriend , thus his decision to postpone any plans he had of heading to the studio . digits slowly run through the femme’s tresses , delicately toying with her hair as gaze remained stuck upon the wide screen before them , and while he attempted to stay focused on the movie , his attention was mostly set on her . he’s missed this tremendously , and all he really wants is to share more moments like these with her . “ .  .  . you’ve been busy ?? ” query that had been on his mind finally dares to roll off his tongue , tone of voice soft as digits moved to rest on her shoulder , fingertips trailing small circles upon her skin as his gaze flickered to fall upon the cherub’s features . he’d rather look at her anyways . of course he’s noticed she’s tanner than usual , curiosity peaking as he finds self wondering whether or not she’d gone anywhere . “  i  .  .  . listened to your new song , ‘s good , really , it’s peachy , added it to my playlist and all . ”

       it’s not as though she’s trying to conceal her other romantic endeavors from daniel . why should she ? in fact , she W A N T S him to know there are others she has her mind on . pavarti knows better than to blindly place her trust in daniel like she did before . so far he hasn’t really done anything to PROVE to her that she can give her heart to him . flowers ? a few kind words ? it wasn’t enough to repair her shattered heart and she’d be lying if she said there wasn’t a sense of sick satisfaction that accompanies making him jealous . his fingers feel amazing t h r e a d i n g through her tresses , focusing on the screen in front of her as she purposefully keeps herself on emotional lockdown whilst in the presence of her ex boyfriend . it’s not like she isn’t HOPEFUL . she is . but pavarti wasn’t going to be his fool , not again , not ever . it doesn’t matter that she likes the way she feels in his arms , that she can still see that future she wanted so desperately with him looming on the horizon . she can’t and won’t be hurt again . “ mmhm , ” she muses , half - engaged with his query as she pays most of her attention to the screen . “ i went to santorini with alex . ” it’s so casual in delivery , she knows he won’t like it --- but so what ? the trip meant a GREAT DEAL to pavarti . alex means a great deal to her as well , even if their relationship was hardly conventional by any means . it poses a bit of awkwardness when daniel mentions her new single . ironically a song inspired by their sex life , though she isn’t too keen on giving him that particular ego boost right now . “ peachy ? ” pavarti inquires , amused by his choice of words , “ that wasn’t really the V I B E that i was going for . it’s called pussy fairy , daniel , you’re on about the wrong fruit . ”

Perhaps it would have been wiser to keep her mouth shut, to let Pavarti get out whatever venom had clearly made it’s way into her system in hopes that it would make her feel better for at least the night - but such would also mean she might more quickly lose what would most likely be the only interesting thing the night was going to hold for her. Smoke released into the air between them, her lips curling further yet at the refutation spat back at her, utterly cocky and yet - the truth. “I cannot and will not argue you on that. Perhaps it’s just the red that makes the fire within you seem all the bright.” And it does seem so incredibly bright in that moment. Natalia could practically feel the anger radiating off of her as she had drawn nearer and it enthralled her like nothing else, the energy seeming palpable in that moment. There had been a reason she had been so drawn to her, a reason that she had held on for longer than perhaps she should have - there was so much within her, it was powerful and it was stunning and to this day it held her attention, her thoughts dancing across the idea of drawing her in this state. “To dispose of an art you’ve mastered would be awfully wasteful, would it not? Besides, how else would you like me to be, Pavarti? Doesn’t this way make despising me so much easier?” 

       this isn’t the first time that pavarti’s temper has gotten the BEST of her , nor would it be the last . many would consider it to be her fatal flaw . add alcohol to the mix and she’s practically unstoppable , feeling justified in her rage . just seeing natalia is m o r e than enough to put a sour taste in her mouth ; their relationship couldn’t’ve gone worse . pavarti isn’t sure why she consistently falls for people who deceive her --- perhaps it’s what she DESERVES , some sort of karmic retribution for her unruly behavior . she’s tried to understand it , tried to protect herself from it with even more fervency , yet she always ends up here : looking like a fucking F O O L . she scoffs as her ex merely agrees with her . it’d be easier if natalia put up a fight , spit some venom as well . the way she’s sitting there , so damn poised , is infuriating . why can’t pavarti have the same effect on natalia as she does on her ? it’s not fucking fair . “ you don’t have a fuckin’ right to say anything about how i look anyways ! ” she’s admittedly grasping at straws to uncover something to pick at , something to FUEL her hatred . in reality , this woman broke pavarti’s heart . pain and anger go together so dangerously well , doesn’t it ? “ how would i like you to be ? i don’t know , natalia , i don’t fuckin’ think about you . you’re already fuckin’ deplorable enough on your own ! ”

           𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈  𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆  𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉  𝒑𝒂𝒗𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒊  𝒐𝒏  any  occassion  was  certified  to  be  a  good  time  ,  a  short  period  of  time  where  emilia  could  really  enjoy  herself  and  not  even  give  consequences  or  anything  else  a  second  thought  .  when  they  were  together  ,  all  that  mattered  was  the  two  of  them  .  it’d  always  been  like  that  and  a  predicament  that  emilia  was  far  too  comfortable  with  .  “  do  i  ever  not  flirt  with  you  ?  ”  she  retorts  quickly  ,  hands  effortlessly  falling  to  pavartis  own  hands  looped  round  her  waist  ,  well  aware  that  it  was  nothing  more  than  a  harmless  gesture  of  affection  and  one  she  welcomed  with  open  arms  as  usual  .  “  photoshoot  time  it  is  !  ”  she  exclaims  with  absolutely  no  quarrels  about  acting  as  the  photographer  in  this  case  so  she  slips  out  her  phone  ,  swiftly  tapping  the  front  facing  camera  icon  first  if  only  to  capture  this  momentous  night  in  the  form  of  a  photo  for  the  two  to  laugh  over  later  .  “  first  ,  i  think  a  photo  with  me  then  the  photo  with  the  dick  comes  second  .  ”

        “ you flirt with all the bitches , em ! ” she whines , pursing her lips as brows furrow into a FIERCE pout . she’s always been the envious type . . . when they were dating , pavarti noticed the way people look at emilia . she’s breathtaking . whoever ultimately ended up getting her e v e r y t h i n g was one lucky individual indeed . sometimes she wishes that person could be her , but she knew better than to get caught up in a possibility that simply could never be . besides , their friendship has become TOO valuable to ever do anything to purposeful disrupt the flow . “ of course ! chicks before dicks ! ” pavarti exclaims drunkenly , leaning over to press a full kiss to the other’s cheek for her pose , opting for something cute and cheeky rather than a predictable smile --- she’s positive she looks like a drunken M E S S anyways . “ okay , okay , ” the brunette whines , separating herself from the other female , albeit , reluctantly . she moves over to the car , crudely sticking her tongue out to the base of the dick whilst flashing her middle finger proudly with both hands . 

     alex wasn’t sure how happy he was. all he knew was that he hasn’t truly felt happiness in a while; there was always something in the back of his mind, as if to tell him ‘what’re you so happy about? you’re a piece of shit’. but in this moment right now? he felt happy. maybe it wasn’t genuine, or maybe it was only artificial, and in the moment – but the pink ambience around him, the sound of the waves crashing against the rocks… and most importantly, the feeling of pavarti’s pure energy right next to him, and the way her hand felt in his — was this the feeling he’s been longing for for years now? he wasn’t sure, but he wasn’t about to question it right now. he turns his head to catch a glimpse of her as she admired the view before them – and she looked breathtaking, actually. her hair was all over the place with the wind, and the haphazardness of it all was beautiful. he sits down next to her, his hand moving up and down her arm, playing with the skin as they sat in silence for a moment. “i almost wish i didn’t have anything else waiting for me back in new york.” he agrees. the past few days have been such an experience for alex, and he never wanted to look back – but eventually, they had to go back to new york. he smiles at her, fondly. “don’t look at me, pav, this was basically your idea.” his arm moves over her shoulder, pulling her a little closer. “it’ll be hard to top this the next trip we go on.” 

       she’s ENDLESSLY grateful that she’s here , experiencing this place for the first time with alex by her side . pavarti knows she’ll never forget it . she feels so alive , each of her senses in tune . she’s feeling e v e r y t h i n g . the gentle sea breeze , the smell of salt and flowers in the air . . . the touch of alex beside her . she takes a deep breath in , a slow exhale as she savors this sensation , hoping that it LASTS for forever . does he want that to ? or is she simply getting caught up in the idea of him ? right now it seems like the universe planned this all for a reason --- placing her precisely W H E R E she needs to be . “ me too , ” pavarti muses , hues focused forward on the deep blue of the ocean . she’s preening into his touch , head resting on his shoulder as cascades of dark brown shield her cheeks from the setting sun’s rays . “ being here , this PLACE . . . it’s pretty fuckin’ special . ” as his arm snakes around her shoulders , she effortlessly melts into his embrace . the warmth . the safety . she could die happy , right here . the prospect of doing this again with alex as he mentions their n e x t trip lights a flame in her chest and she finds it impossible to ignore what she’s feeling . she turns her head , face pressing against the crook of his neck . “ you’re right , it’s going to be difficult . but . . . i don’t want to think about it right now , ” pavarti begins , “ i just wanna feel this moment . and feel you . ” silence isn’t something she’s AFRAID of with alex . if anything , it gives her a moment to absorb it all , hyper - fixated on everything . there’s not a damn thing she could complain about . there’s nothing but perfection . “ do you feel it too ? ”

“  you  could  pull  off  literally  anything  ,  pav  ,   ”   she  responds  with  a  gentle  smile  .  she  truly  believed  it  too  ,  the  other  girl  could  wear  a  plastic  bag  &  alanna  would  still  think  she  looked  like  a  princess  .  she  laughs  softly  at  the  girl’s  next  words  ,  before  nodding  her  head  in  agreement  .  “   love  this  for  us  ,  ”   the  blonde  smiles  widely  as  she  makes  her  way  into  the  dressing  room  ,  gently  hanging  her  blue  gown  up  on  one  side  ,  leaving  the  other  hanger  empty  for  pav’s  dress  .  she  can’t  help  but  turn  around  to  face  the  brunette  as  she  joins  her  in  the  fairly  confined  space  ,  her  mind  wandering  to  places  she  knows  it  shouldn’t  .  the  blonde  snaps  back  into   reality  ,  closing  the  curtain  of  the  dressing  room  behind  them  before  sliding  off  her  shorts  &  lifting  her  tank  top  off  ,  tossing  both  of  them  on  the  floor  .   carefully  ,  the  blonde  steps  into  the  gown  ,  pulling  it  gently  over  her  hips  &  holding  it  in  place  before  turning  to  face  the  wall  ,  her  back  now  facing  pav  .  “  could  you  zip  me  up  ?   ”   she  asks  softly  ,  moving  her  hair  off  her  back  for  the  other  girl  .  

      “ stop FLATTERING me , i’m actually falling more in love with you , ” pavarti teases with a girlish giggle . it’s difficult to fight the rise of pink that encompasses her cheeks , loathing how effortlessly the blonde is able to i n s p i r e emotion . she’s certain no one else means as much to her as alanna does . friends , lovers , somewhere in - between : it doesn’t matter . she’d be by the other girl’s side for as long as she’d have her . hopefully that meant FOREVER . could one blame her ? for being so damn greedy ? the smell of alanna’s perfume floods her nostrils --- her favorite scent , it’s a genuine shock to pavarti that not everyone is madly in love with her . she has this magnetic pull . alanna could get A N Y O N E do to anything with just a mere smile . glossy brims press together , taking a step back as the blonde begins to undress , she takes a moment to redirect her thoughts , reminding herself that they are in a very public place . she figures she’d let alanna slip into her dress first before she begins to undress and try on her own , picking up her friend’s clothes as it pools around them on the floor to neatly place them on the bench . “ i’m already calling it , this looks so fuckin’ stunning on you . ” she hums , taking a step closer to seal the distance between them as her fingers are requested to zip up the back . hands rest on alanna’s hips for a MOMENT --- perhaps a moment too long before she zips it up , chin moving to rest on the other’s shoulder as she giggles softly . “ why are you so pretty ? i can’t stand you ! ”