Wow Depressing

I ruin everything I touch... how can you show me kindness..when I am in this space..I want you to know I care so much about you and I don't know what to do..I don't want you to hate me... I'm worried we never will speak again....but if were being honest..I deserve it..

Don't leave..please

The silence I feel when im alone.. its deafening I don't think I can do this on my own...

You make things so complicated in my mind I'm not sure if you really mean what you say or if I fill the void for you...whats the deal with you... you ask me how I'm doing and think shit is just normal but your fucked up... they are all fucked up yet I still care and can't shake the feeling im supposed to be there for you.. your the only one I wanted to save...

Theres to much pressure on me to make the right choice i just want to be alone I am not capable of loving someone not even myself rn...

When we stopped talking ....I felt awful..

I dont know if you want me to text you but I want to but honestly I dont know what I want my feelings are conflicted Im going to leave it up to you..but i dont know if ill answer..

Why am I obsessed with you

your singing will be the death of me...

I think I'm in love with you...

I guess growing up is realizing its just you..on your own and its just you holding you up.. there is no safety net. When you have feelings for someone its not enough to be with them its never easy how they show you in movies its not all positive and im not sure im ready to give up myself for that...something that isnt happy

I pretend that I'm doing ok but really I'm just trying to hold it together..

Your voice reminds me of you from the past..you are who you were and im glad you never lost that part of you the part that still shines through your depression the part of you that always inspired me..