Like the fact that my sister is perfectly fine hanging out and laughing w the brother who did this makes me sick. The fact that my family (who likes these mfs more than me. I hate all of them except for the daughter bc I feel like she went thru enough) has absolutely zero loyalty is so baffling to me. I wouldnt even spit on the brother if he was on fire.

my family really doesnt give a fuck though. Like I wouldn't spit in that brother's direction bc anybody who lets their father who molested their sister live with him is probably a pedo or weird himself. Nobody else did this but him, as far as I know.

My family thinks that just bc they super christian jesus freaks that they better than anybody is absurd.

This shit is a new low that even shocks me. I don't know what kind of mental disorder they have like i dunno if its narcissism or sociopathy, but its astonishing.

Now, with the daughter who my sister was besties with. I think she either deconstructed and started fw new age spritiuality or she de-converted from Christianity. Much like I did as a teenager. Like when I stopped being christian, my whole family supported their family over me and acted like I was a "hurt little girl" (my adoptive father's words not mine)

So this is probably a situation where my family is so brainwashed and morally bankrupt that theyll fw the son who supported his incestous child molester father but still christian over the victim who isn't.

Like even if I think spanking is wrong and I really do have real resentment towards the whole thing. They still fucked with my neuro pathways so now that im an adult in the real world, i have no ability to calmly address situations. My brain throws everything in the "youre about to feel pain and victimization like you did as a child" and it sets me tf off.

This why everything is a worst case scenario and I have controll issues. Bc I was taught that any slip ups lead to pain and humiliation and thats led me to require total control of my environment. Which is unrealistic.

I could go on but my fuckass parents absolutely didn't prepare me for the adult world and tbh I feel like I was robbed of 28 years of life. Like this is why as soon as I got outta college, got into the real world, and went through some shit, that my anxiety and ocd have gotten incredibly bad.

I was never given the tools to walk through the stresses of adulthood and its why I'm so fucked up rn. It's why I'm always having panic attacks, don't like life, and feel stuck.

Bc my parents conditioned my brain to run on fear and adulthood is scary. So now that im going through shit as little as "maybe my boss corrects me on a mistake", my brain cant handle it and I feel that shit in my body and nerves.

I'm gonna fix this, speak to my therapist about it, etc. But this explains everything. Like its probably also why I have health anxiety bc in the same way as a kid I'd just be living life, make a lil mistake or whatever, and get spanked.

My brain is viewing diseases and sickness as the same way. Like it's the lack of control leading to pain.

The worst part is is that they made me very vulnerable to fear and then drag and bash me when I'm anxious/fearful. bitch yall loved when I was fearful growing up, yall just get angry when it starts to inconvenience you.

in my heart ive been playing my swtor player character like he Darth Vindican's son/grandson so i was shocked when his ass popped up in Malgus' peepaw's geriatric brainrot nightmare hellscape. Rip Shae Vizla tho i cant believe she died over nothing and probably ruined my career as Emperor's Wrath after I waited like 20+ hours to get it back.

Darth Jadas coming back would be cool if I didnt already beat him on Dromund Kaas as an Imp Agent. It kinda makes the whole storyline of Imp Agent meaningless imo. Like apparently I wasnt powerful enough to beat a sith so mfs brainwashed me for no reason.

If I didnt have any history with Darth Jadas, I'd be like "oh okay typical sith shit" but like I know what tf happened to him. It feels stupid as fuck.

The Legacy of the Sith was a solid 7/10. Some super highs and some bullshit lows. I hate how they force you to be at odds with the Empire and you have no choices. I get Rivix was fucking my life up (smh ima smke that twink) but it was irritating.

my biggest complaint is that it was way too mf long and focused on all the wrong shit. like this expansion felt neverending in a bad way. It had some great moments and when it hit a flowstate it was great. But goddamn when it flopped it was terrible

Malgus needs to be in a mf retirement home. gramps is holoprojecting his 85+ deeply traumatized thoughts into everybody brain. He wouldve loved facebook boomer slop

but yeah now that I'm all caught up idk what ima do.

Overall, ima give swtor 9/10. not the most perfect game, but its the only mmo i ever find myself getting addicted to. Its the last Legends property we have, and it really captures the feel of that era of comics.