ed biatch active may 2021!!

ok i take it back i feel like shit and full af i hate myself and my life i’ll never accomplish anything

I feel like self compassion is actually SO much more important than self love. By self compassion I mean being able to understand yourself- why you do the things you do. To look at what you've done wrong and take responsibility for it but also to look at everything you've done right and take credit for it. Loving yourself is something to work towards but understanding yourself is more achievable sometimes.

being self indulgent is so important sometimes. i don’t necessarily love the person i’ve become but i understand why i am the way i am and i forgive myself for this. you’re all trying your best and i want you to know that i love you and you’re still a good person, even on the days you feel like you aren’t

i don’t think people on this app talk about how your disorder takes over your life. it takes over every thought that you’re able to have. something switches in your head and months and months later you realise that this disorder is used as a ‘coping mechanism’. it’s not just wanting to lose weight anymore or wanting to feel the euphoria of seeing the numbers drop. it’s the distraction that this disorder supplies. i haven’t cried properly in months because my mind is constantly full with the voice of my disorder. my eating disorder coaxes the miserable thoughts that now lie deep within my head. it may be a good thing if you look at it in a certain light, but it’s exhausting. this disorder takes over your fucking life so please try to get out when you can.

Reminder: abusive siblings are just as disgusting and pathetic as abusive parents and partners. And they can all choke.