Pancakes

Now, I turn 31 in about a week.

I sing in my car at night to the angsty mixed CDs I made as a teenager, but now with a voice that I can feel rumble in my chest precisely where that heavy feeling used to sit like a bag of concrete.

My beard tickles as it blows in the wind, and my lungs are so full because they are no longer bound.

I sing, and I drive home after kissing someone goodnight who sees every part of all that I am and all I am not and does not flinch.

I go to bed sober.

And everything is not okay. But everything is better.

And I wasn't supposed to be here anymore, after I tried putting myself back in the closet very literally and permanently that October over 10 years ago.

But sometimes belts break. Knots give way.

And now here I am.

Driving and singing, as loud as I can.

Young trans guys, it is absolutely imperative that you stay alive.

Thanks for tagging me to do this @yelenasvestpockets! <3

Name: Bea

Age: 21

Relationship status: single

Sexuality: straight

Crush initial: J

Followers: 110

Favourite fiends/mutuals: @brekker-by-brekkerr, @profwonderbearthementalista, @redwidow616, @fangirl-couch-potato, @hiddenvioletsgrow and @ten-cent-sleuth just of the top of my head.

Birthday: June 14th

Name: red (i mean obviously that's not my irl name but it still is my name)

Age: 19

Relationship status: single

Sexuality: ace

Crush initial:

Followers: i don't wanna look rn i think something close to 200

Favourite mutuals: soooo many okay @anixknowsnothin @gh0st-interrupted @pardonmydelays @necngravestcnes @noproof-youjustknow @endofanera-startofanage @leavethecityy @loulooser @ettengiv @xproskeith @ncttcday @hershey-not-the-chocolate-maybe and ofc you too @backgroundagent3

Birthday: 24.10

Favourite song: have to say multiple so formidable by twenty one pilots and the archer by taylor swift

Age: 18

Relationship status: single

Sexuality: i dont know .probably bi/pan w preference for women or fellow non binaries

Crush initial: no one rn

Followers: 502( i think i was at 520 smth a few weeks back . lost a lot since i started being open abt mental health problems)

Favourite fiends/mutuals: @gh0st-interrupted @narcissus10191 @chenebula @dragonerd8224 @redwidow616 @24-cats-in-a-trenchcoat @butterfliesareamyth @a-chance-of-raine @here-am-i-sitting-in-a-tin-can @a-purple-girl @periwinkle-the-11th @im-on-crack-send-help @bucketsandraincoatsand @nammagadbad and aspen i forgot his url again (well i interact w yall the most - and sorry if i forgot someone js had this on top of my head)

Birthday: dont have one

Favourite song: idk

Age: 17

Relationship status: Single 😔

Sexuality: Aromantic, Panromantic/sexual, ambiamorous

Crush initial: no one

Followers: 506 I think

Favorite friends/mutuals: @abs0l3m @reggies-spam @thatonequeerk1d @urlocalloser10191 @narcissus10191 @justaboymadeofhoneyandglass @asteroid-gardens and more I may be forgetting

birthday: You'll figure it out when it comes

Age: Wouldn’t youuu like to know :P

Relationship status: Single

Sexuality: Demisexual, Omniromantic/sexual

Followers: ~1,000 (I think)

Favorite friends/mutuals: @purple-iris-flower @starkayezer @maz-the-chickennugget @writeenbyoliviarodrigo @writerthatarts off the top of my head ⭐️

Birthday: April 7th

age: not answering this one but i'm a young teen!

relationship status: (unfortunately) single

sexuality: lesbian (?)

crush initial: i

followers: 30+ ig

favorite friends/mutuals: @troyssix @raise-a-gla55-2-fr33d0m @cherrysfavoritegirl @thescarleteevee + sof but since she was the one tagging me lol <3

birthday: june 20th

age: not answering but also a young teen!

relationship status: single (sadly)

sexuality : pansexual

crush initial: don't have one, but if it's fictional, I'll recite the alphabet

followers: 100+

Favourite friends/mutuals: @itzzkaylaaa @i-had-a-bad-feeling @brunettebelova and so many others (and mari but she tagged me)

birthday: june 16th

Age: all u need to know is im in high school😭

Relationship status: takennn

Sexuality: biromantic/asexual

Crush initial: B (bf)

Followers: like 150 smt!!!!! Ily guys!!!!

Fav friends: @manicallyydepressedpsychopath @splooshsplash @empty-plastic-water-bottle @new-zee-land @lilybecca1 @littlerat2 @itzzkaylaaa @narwhals-randomness @/thescarleteevee @angelicassassinations @abbyth3w1tch @jinxed-starry-pages and more!

Bday: July 12th!!!

Age: between 14 and 17

Relationship status: single 💔 /lh

Sexuality: any guess is as good as mine

Crush initial: J

Followers: around 400 I think!

Age: [REDACTED]

Relationship status: in a qpr with my absolutely amazing girlfriend!! <33

Sexuality: demiromantic asexual lesbian

Followers: good question. like 120-something on this blog? im pretty sure ive broken 200 on @what-is-that-cats-genetic-string tho lmao

Favourite fiends/mutuals: all of you! (also i noticed that that is fiends instead of friends, so you are ALL my favourite fiends)

Birthday: january 19

Favourite song: i have like 10 lmao, but generally most of the ones on me and my girlfriends shared playlist are amazing

Name: liv :]

Age: 17

Relationship status: FUCK OFF I DONT. WANT TO BE ALONE ANYMORE AND I AM PERFECTLY HAPPY LIKE THIS ALSO

sexuality: demisexual bisexual

followers: 89, but the point of tumblr isn't the followers. it is as much chaos as you can create with one note flops

favourite fiends/mutuals: i love you all but in particular atm @goromustdie @shelbeforgotten @faeyells @clodyghost @tea blankets and stars whose new user ive forgotten plus a great many more :3

birthday: feb 8

Age: 282937382

Relationship status: pining.

Sexuality: Omnisexual, Demiromantic and demisexual. Transmasc and probably some other obscure labels.

Followers: Ion keep track of that.

Favorite fiends: @blobbyblobblobblobblob @bemusedrodent @polteergeistt @narniasclosetvoltron @kaiserinemmelin @kae-eee @slumberofthesea

Birthday: February 14th…

age: too young

relationship status: yearning like you’ve never seen

sexuality: lesbian except for when im in denial

followers: 149

favorite fiends: @fashion-foxy @spontaneous-asks @noxofsky @bluepuppethidinginafilingcabinet

birthday: may 21st

Age: not telling ;)

Relationship status: single

Sexuality: bisexual

Followers: 249 (mostly porn bots I don't care enough to block)

Friens (i literally just added all my mutuals, apologies if i missed you, or you're not a mutual) : @commanderbabygirl @ @internetgiraffekid1673 @valenceasimov @m0sst3r @spontaneousful @aceattorneygamesfan @dykesforlassie @bluesherryrebelforever @fang-ghoul @tandoorinightsmare @worthedging @speaking-riddlish @foolish-fran @thebrazilianfan @seriousbusiness4130 @harbinger-of-lesbianism @colonelcat @doritopaw101 @rainbowlimenade @scarilyeverrose @wormpiratesblog @innermonologuexo @horroronnie @aestheticaddicted @vitamin-zeeth @hay2es @emixion @super-subraminion @spectralowl @dumbdolphin333 @tortillachips19 @sayuricharmsyou @0-i-am-toaster-child-0 @cant-get-worse-than-this @vampyyrikosmos @wise-lizard-wizard @cometsandghosts @zyn0nn @zombezsamx @sharkshooter @dremiruu @rubyroybel @ambquiroga @lizzieehearts @kae-eee @ennow @fnaffantasy @joyoimiya @aniovandoblog @thelilylav @applewhitehorse @james-preble @athena-xox @otherclawdeen @mymhandeahdolls28 @forsakenostalgia @st4rlight-kayz @vrsenus @beezonia @0girassol @seftali228 @alexamost @bluepuppethidinginafilingcabinet @birdbombvs714

Bday: 20/12/YYYY

Anyways

Name: Athena/Yaalth Ada

Age: 17

Relationship status: painfully single

Crush initial: L & C

Followers: 897

Favourite mutuals: @eah-loving-lesbian @harbinger-of-lesbianism @vrsenus @st4rlight-kayz @starlust500 @zyn0nn @james-preble @applewhitehorse @emixion @internetgiraffekid1673 @dayo-seign

Birthday: May 19th

Name: Wizard

Age: 20

Relationship status: Taken and in love with my amazing wife

Crush initial: M

Sexuality (will be adding romantic attraction as well): Demiromantic demisexual lesbian

Followers: 375

Favourite mutuals: @magicisrealandsoismyally @vrsenus @st4rlight-kayz @starlust500 @athena-xox @sailor-crusader @applewhitehorse @punkeropercyjackson @hyperfixationsgobrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr @timetravellingkitty @tiredguyswag @bearballing @guldaastan @aishabellasbigblogofeverything

Birthday: 04/20 (i dont care lmao some company probably has my information anyway)

Name: Cassandra

Age: castle vampire

Relationship status: single and DYING and also endlessly pining

Crush initial: shan't say.

Sexuality: bi

Followers: I think 112 , might have to check

Favourite mutuals: @iristovevo @adamsguitar @jacseelawyer @animalawesomeness @imgoing80hds @harbinger-of-lesbianism @your-average-sentient-suit @theellastrator @wisegirl42 @calypsoluvsyouu

Birthday: 28th November

Name: Dove/Eli

Age: minor

Relationship status: single

Crush initial: never had one :)

Sexuality: i dont know man

Followers: like 40?

Favorite mutuals: @kikithefox231 @the-starry-seas @hyperfixationsgobrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr @emo-crowgirl @xp-luna-m0th @howtonerdoutovereverything

Birthday: when the stars and the sun meet, when the bird's worn the mountian down to nothing, when the sea roars and the thunder claps and the whole world shouts my name

Age: Adult but like barely

Relationship Status: Single

Crush Initial: Never had one before

Sexuality: Aroace

Followers: 455. I think most are bots though.

Favourite Mutuals: @rawenky @animalawesomeness @furrysinthematrix @xp-luna-m0th @ace-does-stuff

Birthday: [REDACTED]

Age: 19

Relationship status: single

Crush initial: ‘n’ as in ‘no one’

Sexuality: aroace

Followers: 70

Favorite mutuals: @emo-crowgirl (thanks for tagging me :D), @mismess , @stormyseawitch , @varianlikescheese

Birthday: August 12th

Age: Nuhuh

Relationship status: happy

Crush initial: M for mothman

Sexuality: aroace (for now- still figuring out what that means)

Followers: do I look like I give a flip

Favorite mutuals: @cryptic-platypus @caffetato-the-caffeinated-potato @onejellyfishplease @rawenky

Birthday: August 19th

Age: nope

Relationship status: umm.. does platonic marriage count?

Crush initial: Ummmm… idk- um. Can I have PW for my platonic wife?

Sexuality: Biromantic Asexual

Followers: idk like- 50 or something?

Favourite mutuals: @varianlikescheese @fishy--friend @astralphobia

Birthday: July 29th (AKA yesterday)

Name: Viridian

Age: 17

Relationship status: newly taken (new as in like 3 months but that's new for me)

Crush initial: K (or C depending)

Sexuality: either Lesbian or Bisexual but definitely Asexual

Not a clue on followers but probably like 2

Favourite mutuals: @messenger-tothe-moths @wispywilliam @norah-fleetwood-of-deadwood @starsandspacefog @screwnames-ihatenames

Favourite song: oh oh how dare you hmm

Punk Tactics by Joey Valence and Brae

Carry on Wayward Son by Kansas

Relationship status; platonically married to like 500 people are majority are women. Other than that single…

Sexuality: Polyamorous Lesbian all the way

Followers: 103! My upp blog still has more.

Favourite mutuals; @an-undisclosed-number-of-worms @norahfleetwoodwhenceshecame @amberasks (cba to @ ur normal acc) oh my god who am I friends with @aspennntree (I’m sorry to @ you, your really cool I shouldn’t be talking to you) same with @theshycreeperart yhhhm who else uhhhm @lapisdiu @starlightboomstudios @alienalee @rotting-liver idk who else sorry if I miss you…

Favourite song: currently.?.??

Trees by McCafferty

Animal I have become by Three days Grace

Age: 19

Sexuality: Sapphic, polyamorous, cupiromantic, graysexual, agender

Relationship status: Taken!!

Crush initial: S (my love <3)

Followers: 23?

Birthday: Dec 28

Favourite song: My Love is Sick by Madds Buckley

Name: Kell, sometimes Alex irl

Age: ur mom

Sexuality: vincian/queer, unlabelled

Status: single asf

Crush initial: j ,,,

Fav moots: uhhhhhhh @norah-fleetwood-of-deadwood @fizzfangzz @lennnington @kala-mies @pumpk1nz-p1e @maxattackx @jessterrr @xxboymania @hot-vyncent @halob0y @trulytrulygreg @slavik9livez @xx-xxm1lklv3ndr-t-33py666xx-xx @dantyacinth @mudkipstars and definitely more

Followers: abt 120 last time I checked

age: 14-16 (not sharing specifics)

Sexuality: pan, and hypersexual if that counts

relationship status: taken by my love @cloverzz4

Crush initial: c 💚💚💚

Followers: 48~50 I think

favorite song: let you down by stomach book or sweet tooth by cavetown

☆age: uhhhh im more than 7 years old and younger than 2100 years old so you can guess :3

☆sexuality: id say gay, aromantic, and quoiromantic are the main ones but I also am omnisexual and uh.... im forgetting... Just generally queer methinks

☆gender stuffs cuz I wanna share: agender, gender queer probably, transmasc technically and uhhh hmmmmm. idk bro i also am border collie otherhearted if that means smth to you

☆relationship status: taken ^^ absolutely in love with my super super awesome best friend boyfriend, potato:DDD

☆crush initials: uh like their letters right? o I think but also p and s :)

☆followers: uhh like 50-60 idk lolz

☆birthday: uh yesterday lolz July 28th :3

☆favorite song: cant chooseeee, maybe rn itsss: east coast, wicked boy, and southern sky by Alex g!!!! days like this, unlikely lovers, the chess game, falsettoland/ about time, falsettoland reprise ya from falsettosssss. this is how it went by beabadoobee and flying model rockets and Jim Bogart by the front bottoms :33

Name: pan/pancakes, i might share my preferred irl name soon tho cuz nobody irl knows it hehe #tboy

Age: teen

Relationship status: single

Sexuality: pansexual :P

Crush initial: r

Followers: 89

Favourite fiends/mutuals: @remembersmoke @kitkatthekitkatkat @one-and-only-dandeo that’s who comes to mind first :]

Birthday: july 26th

Favourite song: rn its love vigilantes by new order

hiiii!! sorry i was sleeping </3

hiiii!! sorry i was sleeping </3