PannaTe

Never would I thought the ppl that walked into my life in 2015, wouldn't walk into 2016 with me.....

I literally hit rock bottom after I already thought I did. But more just keeps happening to me. There is no one I can go to, sadly to say. Where do you go from here? There's so much on my plate, that I keep it all to myself and ppl don't even know what's going on. I've been crying every single night for the pass week just keeping it to myself. It's just so hard. I literally just wanna give up! Can I just escape reality right now? How can't you talk to someone who hasn't even been in your shoes it's for hard me. Like where do I go from here? What do I do? How do I handle this? WTF!!!! Ahhhhhh I just wanna scream. One after another after another. What else can happen. Some say, all you can do is go up. But really, I just keep getting deeper and deeper to the core. And I feel like I'm not even there yet. I'm really not even use to this feeling, I'm a happy person I'm always positive. Idk this feeling that I have. And really I just wanna give up on everything now. This is something I don't like.... So what do I do? I'm ready for 2015 to be over with. And honestly really to get 2016 over with also. And the year hasn't even started yet.... I'm just done.

I've never broke down in tears so much all in one week.