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My son reached that age: it's really tough to carry him to bed should he fall asleep anywhere that's not in his room.

Today I watched a video with my son where he saw how little chickens are hatching from their eggs. It was a very special moment. He was very excited. The first birth he witnessed kind of. 😅

Okay maybe my son really is autistic, because he really struggles with social stuff. But yesterday we met another child at the playground and the child was so obviously neuro-divergent and my son immediately bonded with him. They instantly understood each other, played very well with each other. My son happily exclaimed "mama the boy is so nice to me" and I was like... "yes that's awesome". Damn it made me a little sad. I wish more children were like this. Which may sound weird because it is a disability and a massive disadvantage in this world to be neuro-divergent, but I somehow feel like autistics do have a bigger heart...

Little man is very very ill and I am hating every second of it. 💔

Went to a baby-party/gender reveal thing today. I am so happy for my friend. This is such an exciting new chapter in her life. She looked so stressed and nervous at the party. I wanted to give her one big hug after another and tell her "It's all going to be alright." Seriously I am sooo excited and happy for everyone pregnant right now, because it's going to be so horrible and disgusting and extremely stressful and yet it will be the most beautiful and meaningful thing that you'll ever do in your life. And you will love it. It's going to be the worst and the best time of your life at the same time.

It is so cold today, my child refused to go outside.

My son is growing up too fast. I never understood why adults kept saying things like "times moves so fast" or "it feels like yesterday that you were a baby", but I totally get it now. I also kind of understand why some people keep making more and more kids. It's probably to enjoy all these fun/cute little firsts again and again. And I get it. It would be so nice if I could spent just one day with my 2-year old again, or my 1-year old who just started to walk or my fresh little baby. 😭 But I know these times are over and wont come back again. I should really cherish these moments with him more, because soon enough I'll be crying about wanting to go back to these days.

Halloween was so much fun! My son was so happy to be trick or treating with his friends and us parents were stressed and happy at the same time because the kids were running from house to house. I wish I had this kind of energy for myself.