Sometimes in like “meh im barely disordered” and then i got to a social thing where people are like talking about how craaazy it is for people to not eat for long periods of time/not eat breakfast/thinking taking metamucil is like crazy person behaviour and im like …..

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Like deep inside im fucked up but it feels good to be in a body that is more accepted and less “obscene.” It’s like im living a different life. People treat me so differently. It’s FUCKED actually. Cuz i was never really big. I have lived in a straight sized (size 4-8, s-m) body and still my body wasnt good enough. I wish this shit didn’t matter!!! I wish food wasnt engineered by evil companies go give us @ddictions and BED. I wish we just could all have access to normal healthy food. I wish losing didnt FEEL SO GOOD. BUT IT DOES.