My Zone

I've never been so unsure of myself in my life, and yet I've never been more absolutely positive of the role I'm supposed to play in people's lives, and that is a mistake to be learned from. I'm not a healthy functioning human being on my own, and I'm the source of all of my own problems as well as the issues with the people I love the most. I seriously don't understand how I managed to build up such a bullshit positive stance on myself after all The years of self deprecation. Like, I really thought I was doing anything good? I really thought I was trying? I really didn't think I was a total waste of space and everyone else's time and breath? Did I genuinely start to think I was getting better while I just made everything exponentially worse? I'm a fucking idiot and I can't believe people even try to know me. That's like inviting Hitler to be your friend knowing he's holding a contagious flesh eating virus. Either way it happens, you're guaranteed disaster.