While watching a YouTube video of a fan reacting to Heeseung leaving Enhypen, I came across a comment under the video that I want to save here to think about on my own time. I wish YouTube allowed one to link to comments. Screenshot isn't easy to read so I'm copy-pasting it below the screenshot.
Why This Situation Is Structurally Strange —
ARGUMENT 1: Belift's own statement contradicts itself in a single paragraph Belift's official statement reads: "It's difficult to relay the whole process through a short notice, but this decision comes after extensive deliberation." Rolling Stone This is a self-defeating statement. If the process was extensive and complex enough that a short notice cannot explain it — then why did they choose to release a short notice? No one forced that format. A company that spent a "long period of deliberation" on a decision this significant has had ample time to prepare a thorough, detailed explanation. The choice to keep it vague is deliberate, not logistical.
ARGUMENT 2: The contract timeline makes "long deliberation" almost impossible to believe Belift explicitly confirmed the departure has nothing to do with contract renewal. ENHYPEN's exclusive contract runs until November 2027 — roughly 20 months away — meaning this decision was made entirely mid-contract, with no external deadline forcing it. Soompi In the K-pop industry, mid-contract departures happen under three circumstances: personal health, internal conflict, or a forced restructuring by the company. Belift ruled out all three officially. What remains is a company voluntarily breaking up a commercial asset — a group that just completed a world tour that included a milestone Coachella debut, and released an EP in January 2026 that topped the Billboard Top Album Sales chart The Korea Times — for no legally or commercially documented reason. That is abnormal business behavior.
ARGUMENT 3: Belift was given a direct question and refused to answer it When Billboard asked directly why Heeseung could not pursue solo activities while remaining in ENHYPEN — pointing to BTS and BLACKPINK members as precedent — Belift's full response was: "We concluded that allowing HEESEUNG to focus fully on his career as a solo artist, rather than pursuing solo activities within the team, would be the most fulfilling approach for both ENHYPEN and HEESEUNG." The Korea Herald That response does not answer the question asked. The question was why the parallel option was impossible. The answer restates only that a choice was made, not why the alternative was ruled out. In PR and communications, this structure — restating a conclusion without addressing the premise — is a non-answer. It is not a refusal to speculate. It is a refusal to explain.
ARGUMENT 4: Heeseung's own letter uses passive language that does not match a self-initiated decision Heeseung wrote: "Over time, I shared the work I had been creating with the company, and we spent a long time discussing with many people how it might best be presented. After thinking deeply about it for a long time, I ultimately made a big decision in line with the direction that was discussed." Billboard The phrase "in line with the direction that was discussed" is not language of personal agency. Compare this to standard K-pop departure statements, where artists typically write "I decided," "I chose," or "I wanted." Heeseung wrote "in line with the direction that was discussed" — meaning the direction pre-existed and he aligned with it. That is a structural difference in language, not interpretation.
ARGUMENT 5: The timing within their commercial cycle is commercially irrational ENHYPEN released The Sin: Vanish in January 2026. The group had just wrapped the Walk the Line World Tour in late 2025. As of early March 2026, Sunghoon had publicly stated the group had "an upcoming tour and other activities ahead" for the year. The Korea Times The announcement came on March 10 — just two days after Heeseung himself had spoken about plans to return to Europe with the group. TODAY.com This is the core commercial paradox: a company does not invest in a world tour, a new album rollout, and a publicly-stated upcoming tour, then announce a founding member's departure two days after that member discussed those very same plans. Either the planning was done in complete ignorance of the departure — which is impossible given Belift claims "extensive deliberation" — or the announcement was made at a moment when the departure could no longer be delayed, regardless of where the commercial cycle stood.
ARGUMENT 6: Industry observers, not fans, are flagging this as structurally unusual The Korea Herald quoted an official at a major K-pop agency who noted: "It is highly unusual for a member of a thriving group to leave the band specifically to pursue a solo career while remaining under the same agency." The official added: "There must be some reason both Heeseung and Belift Lab chose to maintain their contract — it likely means both sides believe there are benefits to continuing the partnership," Soompi — implying undisclosed terms or obligations neither side is publicly addressing.
Summary
The structural problems here are not about emotion. They are about four verifiable inconsistencies:
Belift claims "extensive deliberation" while simultaneously running full 7-member commercial operations until the final week
Belift was asked a direct causal question and responded with a restatement of the outcome
Heeseung used passive framing — "in line with the direction that was discussed" — not active language
The departure happened mid-contract, mid-tour cycle, and mid-promotional calendar — the three worst possible moments commercially
None of these are resolved by Belift's public statements.
-End of the copy-paste. I'm not surprised that PR statements are inconsistent and say a whole lot of nothing, because PR, but I enjoy the writings of fans, and many fans' writings have effort, critical reading and thinking put into them. And I like to go back to read and refer to them to do some thinking of my own.
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Need to get something off my chest. I didn't want to talk about Heeseung right now. But with so many conflicting opinions, I'm wondering if Heeseung DID want this?
If he did want a solo instantly—that is fine. But the timing of this happened so illogically, that I can't HELP but think about it. This is just a rant. So.
So, here is my version of the timeline:
It's 2025. Hee released dial tragedy, and it sounded really good. And that was around... summer(?). Heeseung thinks he is definitely ready for a solo album, but he needs to get Bad Desire, the concerts, and Knife over and done with.
Hee suggests his ideas to the team once they hit November. At this point, filming En O clock. He is ready to go. He thinks he can do it within a group, and this would be a point in his life that really boosts his artistry.
The label decides that he should wait—discussions start in December of what he should do—this may include renewals, schedules, and anything to do with his solo.
He gets told that this isn't possible with their schedule. Even then, Hee wants to try and negotiate this, and he properly fights to make an album of his own while being in the group. He gets called greedy and "putting his ambitions above the group," and Hee falls into doubt. He doesn't know what to do.
Cue conflict in his head, the day dreaming, and the zoning out. At this point, it's ending December. En O clocks are filmed, but Heeseung is deeply conflicted.
January, he gets given more options of what he can do. He is told there is NO room for his artistry even though other artists are allowed time to do this. Manipulated more. Therefore, the desire to leave rises and emotions run high.
They have their comeback and are filming BTS of the comeback stages where he is visibly seen being distant on camera. My guess is that he told Jungwon/other members, and they decided that they couldn't get involved too much. But that Heeseung's idea of a solo is good. They support him. They know he talented af.
Then, cue all the interviews and shows where he says they "are planning/working on their tour," and he smiles when he accidentally "spoiled" it. They even have their comeback live where he is seen happy, less distant. So, at this point, Heeseung may feel positive with the members' support.
February arrives. He does his life, and everyone acts normal. Jungwon comes live a few more times. So does Jay. And all the members. They know discussions are happening, but nothing is negative as of yet.
Then comes the news of the fancalls, the Melbourne concert festival, and they film a video where all 7 of them are also discussing that they are excited to go! Fan calls are promoted as 7 members when fans purchase the tickets for each event, expecting Heeseung.
Heeseung is getting more irritated with being kept on hold with his album. He keeps asking. And then, March arrives. He damn well knows he needs to do something about it. Then, they deliver a dumb ultimatum on a random weekend in March that pushes him into a corner. He is now conflicted again, manipulated to be thought of as greedy, and is thinking about his future. He tells the members. They are a little bit pissed, and there could have been confrontations.
Could be the reason why all members were "sick" on that one event last week. Things went down.
Another fancall, but he says, "we're planning on coming to Europe" — indicates that they were planning for a tour.
9th March, he goes to Shanghai for the fancall. Riki isn't there because of politics. And he knows he has to make a decision.
9th-10th March overnight, something must have pushed Heeseung to do this OR the label pushed him to do this to either: cover up a scandal he did; cover up a scandal in HYBE (bc yes, Bang PD also had some criminal sentence given to him); they are hard launching Heeseung for no reason without his group; Heeseung genuinely was pushed to the brink for some reason. And does so in the middle of promotions. This is where the big gap is that we don't know among many others (and has caused fans to spiral).
Now, I want to reiterate—if Heeseung wants to leave the group, that is fine. But the lack of closure of why he left now rather than later, what pushed him to drop Enhypen, and why Belift couldn't make space for his creative freedom is now what fans demand. It doesn't make sense as to why this happened.
That is what I demand. I need the whole truth. From him. Not from AI generated letters, but from his own mouth, from the members as well. But, considering how much he was talking about touring, being with the others for their 10th anniversary, and doing activities in 2026 AS A GROUP, his words don't match this action, and has left us MORE confused.
So, for this to suddenly happen overnight means something must have happened to push this decision. I know it wasn't planned:
They planned their Melbourne trip. (Heeseung is not going to be there and cancelled his flight).
En o clock was filmed, edited, scheduled, and released for 3 weeks now. (It has now been postponed until April, even though they left it as a 2 part episode where part 1 clearly has Heeseung edited in).
They had fan calls scheduled (postponed and/or cancelled until later this month).
They have so many more activities they talked about (tours, solos, being together).
So no. It wasn't planned because otherwise, this wouldn't be as disorganised as Belift is trying to hide it as. It is the messiest departure I have ever seen with no explanation, no transparency, no truth as to what made Heeseung supposedly "choose" to commit himself elsewhere after all this in such a last-minute decision.
Onto my other point—if Heeseung genuinely chose this with all his mind, why are the members having to act as if Heeseung doesn't exist? Isn't this something he chose to do? Why wouldn't the members want to say something in SUPPORT of Heeseung going solo, knowing that the media has BLOWN UP in backlash against this decision. If this was Heeseung's whole decision, then the members, Heeseung, should reassure the fans themselves. Not the label—the members themselves. They have to act as if he was never there, which isn't a good look for anyone.
Next. It was so rushed. Usually, with departures, the member leaving usually has one last goodbye in person. Not dramatic but visible. But for Heeseung, it was a letter, no appearance, and now, we don't know where he is, if this is really in his best interests.
Next, onto his letter and statements. The belift statement said he has a distinct and different music style.
Okay? So? Lots of groups do their concept as a group and solos, and you know what? This brings in more attention and money to the group as a whole. People have speculated that Belift pressured him to do so in order to get double the amount of money—but that also is weird. If this was about money, they could still get that same amount of money even if he was IN a group. The thing that really upholds that is their timing and creative freedom. They didn't give that to Heeseung, made him feel guilty and trapped, and now, this.
Second—this is still about Heeseung's statement regarding how he doesn't want to be greedy—again, lots of groups do this and it is NOT seen as greedy. Unless you don't have eyes, solos have gotten great attention. E.g:
These artists, in one way or another, have brought attention and money in for themselves and their groups, all while keeping their creative freedom.
So, for Heeseung, it comes down to his team manipulating him into thinking otherwise. Heeseung also mentioned doing it in the company's suggestion, further reinforcing the idea of how the management team were not supporting him, pressuring him into choosing one or the other—
Which makes no damn sense. Even if he did choose their "suggestion", it still implies he was given an ultimatum and no choice. He was forced into a corner. Which is a problem that fans have.
Someone on tiktok also mentioned that it could be a contractual issue and it physically does not allow Heeseung to make solo music.
But that doesn't link to why he did this so ABRUPTLY. He could've left after Melbourne, after fan calls, and in a more softer way too. This was a smack in the face.
This clearly wasn't planned. It's messy. It's vague. And it has kept the fandom in the dark. Causing this explosive mania in the media. If Belift want us to truly support Heeseung, they would address our questions. Heck, get Heeseung and the members to reiterate that they should support this because it IS HIS decision.
"What if the dude wanted to go solo?"
Hm well, this again doesn't explain his abrupt exit with all the schedules. Usually, artists are happy about a decision being made. Why should he hide? Yes, maybe he is drained, but it doesn't explain why he can't make another post or why the members can not come in support of him. I will support Hee no matter what, but with the timing and schedules, it seems odd and strange. Also doesn't explain why they would do so in the middle of the week. Not to mention how much he's been emphasising tours only a few weeks ago. We need an explanation.
"You guys are being dramatic."
Well, yeah, sorry to be dramatic, but what the company has done is also dramatic. The energy is just being matched since it came out of nowhere.
"Petitions and protests aren't gonna do anything. What if he doesn't come back anyway."
You're right. It could do nothing. But it could also force an explanation out to fans about WHY Heeseung left so abruptly knowing they had schedules lined up. What was his reason? I need to see the truth bc i genuinely hate being left in this ambiguity of what is going on rn. Most of the people saying this genuinely are not part of the fandom and don't understand the sudden mania. These Petitions actually show the label how POORLY this was handled because of the confusing timing and how his actions have confused everyone. In fact, these Petitions could show how they need to be transparent in order to calm the masses down and clarify.
"He's probably sick of the mistreatment."
Yeah, sure. But then, it doesn't explain why he would stay under the same label when the burdens would just increase. With the members, he could face the burdens together. Going solo under the same label wouldn't do as much justice, I fear. It would be the same amount. Less people. Idk.
"I thought you guys hated Belift and wanted him to be creatively free. Why are you guys not letting him???"
God. The way these people pmo. First of all. He isn't even leaving Belift. He's allegedly going to be a soloist under the same group. Second of all, we are saying all this because HE ISN'T CREATIVELY FREE. Let me explain. He can't be creatively free in a group, and they couldn't be bothered to give support to him, but if he's alone, Belift will let him be creative? It isn't US not letting him be creatively free. Its Belift who is limiting him for no reason, saying that being in a group and doing solo projects is "greedy/putting his ambitions over the group" when in reality, this wouldn't be true. Letting him? Bro, we want him to be creatively free, but it shouldn't require him to leave the group; in this case, we are saying that Belift SHOULD make time for him within the group. To do so outside the group feels like it's isolating him. And if this is what Heeseung truly wanted—to leave for creativity, I still think it says a lot about how the label is restricting the other members, too. Additionally, can they not let Heeseung come on and say this to calm everyone down? Let him be visible. Let him be here for the fans who are panicking. Maybe he doesn't want to, but I think this whole incident is not helping Heeseung if he did decide to do this. So, maybe let him calm the masses? I'm confused as to why he can not stay in a group and be creatively free. That is a question I would like answered, but it wasn't in his sudden departure. Another reason why fans are going crazy.
"You guys are being parasocial. He's not dead."
Lol, what. A lot of things in many people's life gives them a safe corner (lol me), but just bc I'm upset, doesn't mean I'm parasocial. I know this is a man I have never interacted with. Idk what goes on behind the camera, but again, when fans are kept in the dark, they tend to speculate.
Adding to that note, since fans are speculating and such, why haven't the members ADDRESSED IT. I will accept whatever path Heeseung chooses, but this supposed decision has made the members act like he doesn't exist, as if they need to erase him and have left fans confused.
Simple solution. Address the confusion, the questions as I have addressed above (about the timing, cancellations, and the members), and shut the mania down. This silence from the company and members isn't helping anyone at all, especially Heeseung. If they want us to be satisfied with thst decision, let Heeseung speak fr. Let the members voice their support. Right now, it seems stiff and uncertain.
Another note I would like to add is:
DO NOT go onto other groups/producers/makeup artists or whatever and ask them to do something about it. Seriously. I think yall pissed off the producer when he has nothing to do with the company. We are targeting BELIFT and Enhypen. Don't go under TXTs account and spam Heeseung in such a silly way. Also, don't wish this on other groups (except ADP, Tarzan, Super Junior😹😹✌🏼. They deserve to go fr). DO NOT take information from twitter from random people because this is easily spread as misinformation and we don't need crazy theories right now. We need logic. Please be mindful of how you read and comprehend things before blowing it up!!
And another thing: for the other fandoms being so petty. "Well, they said bad things about Jin at the MAMA awards".
Holy shit. If we're gonna talk abt toxic fandoms, let's start with ARMYs because I'm BOTH of these. The utter irony to be petty about being asked to help with the petition is met with such aggression that it genuinely boils my blood. They're not obligated to help, of course, but you don't need to hold that over another fandoms' head when you know damn well it wasn't all of them, and say "I don't care. Why would I help you when yall said xyz? " Genuinely immature asf and chronically online asf.
As I've said. The point of all this isn't to necessarily bring him back for good. It is being done because fans are aware of the strange timing of it being in the middle of the week, that he has said things conflicting with this event, and that it clearly wasn't planned. The point of these Petitions or protests is to demand Belift to let the members be heard and seen together and see their reasoning. And for our questions to be answered. For Heeseung to, at least, be seen one more time. Not to disappear on a whim. This sudden event has left us all confused on why. We just need that answered.
And update: the members posted on weverse one by one. Probably to calm the fans. But I'm lwk still restless and need answers. It's day damn 4 without Heeseung. I'm going crazy.
Anyway, this is just a pinch of my thoughts. And you don't need to take it to heart. It is just my speculations. So yeah. I miss him :( I wish we could hear from him.
Girl, you definitely nailed it with this post! It’s incredibly well-articulated and perfectly captures the thoughts that engenes are feeling right now.
Hi everyone! I wanted to gather my thoughts here as X seems pretty inflammatory right now. I do want to start off by saying to please read the whole thing before anyone jumps me. I hope that we can all be cool-headed about the recent news. Anyway...
I think it's time to drop the outrageous conspiracy theories and look at it at face value. Heeseung, no matter if there was an ultimatum or not, did choose to leave ENHYPEN. As someone who works in marketing/public relations and has been a fan of K-Pop since 2009, I don't believe it was BELIFT's choice or best FINANCIAL interest for Heeseung to leave the group at all. He is a popular member internationally, he sings so many parts in their songs, and has many center parts in their choreogeaphy. They would have tried their hardest to keep him, no matter what. I think this was their best case scenario to keep both ENHYPEN and him (with his dreams and ambitions beyond the group), and still make money from both.
This situation reminds me a lot of Hyunseung's departure from BEAST. A few months before BEAST's contract was up, pivotal member Hyunseung left the group "due to differences of opinion between him and the other members concerning their music." He even won a solo "Best Male Artist" award while promoting with BEAST just before he left, which unironically mirrors Heeseung's UPICK Global Choice award win. The 6-member group later left the company together and formed a new group as HIGHLIGHT. The parallels are uncanny and I recommend you all read up on that situation to learn how to navigate Heeseung's departure. I'm not saying that this is the direction the boys are headed, but I just wanted to let you all know that this has happened before. It is not as unprecedented as people say. This happens in K-Pop! We will be okay! Be happy for Heeseung and please be there for the rest of them.
With the immense responsibility that falls on the remaining members, I hope we can support them without a need to be so reactive. Boycotting, historically, does not work in K-Pop UNLESS your intentions are for the group to fail. ENHYPEN are human beings with idolhood as their JOBS. You stop buying their merchandise, you stop attending their concerts, you start talking about how ENHYPEN is nothing without Heeseung... you cut off their resources and money and the ground they stand on with BELIFT. While you might think it's temporary, losing Heeseung has already caused people to leave the fandom. Do you think furthering that by decreasing support will actually lead BELIFT to take action and bring back Heeseung, who stated that he WANTED to pursue a solo career? This would probably embolden them into thinking that ENHYPEN can no longer be a sustainable group for them to keep.
This is not Mark's situation where the graduation system in NCT Dream was already set in place and people knew he would leave eventually. There was always anger and uproar even up until his graduation date that led SM to overturn their decision. This is not Seunghan's situation where a massive scandal blew up his career in an idol group. Fans were boycotting RIIZE for him to be in or out of the group. It was a lose-lose situation.
On the other hand, this feels a lot more decisive. Belift or HYBE does not flip-flop around like SM does. Please read Heeseung's statement with a more level headed lens. He says "I made a big decision to approach ENGENE in a better way according to the direction the company suggested." I don't read this the same way other people on X have. To me, this is textbook damage control (no negative connotation here, but just as a fact).
BELIFT read through this statement and made sure it was good to post. That's how PR is handled. In fact, I think this was added in to specifically take the heat off of himself and the other boys and make sure the blame is shifted to the company. At the end of the day, BELIFT will always be hated. They know that. They are okay with that. I think this was included so that there is no insinuation of ill-will on either ENHYPEN or Heeseung's side. What I dislike is people overanalyzing this part of his statement and making it seem like he had no choice in the matter.
Please don't infantilize Heeseung's decision-making capabilities. If he hated the company, he would have terminated the contract. That's been done plenty of times before in K-Pop. In fact, there's been scenarios where people leave their agency but stay in the group itself! Heeseung, based on his statement, just had a different vision for his music. We need to learn how to be okay with that as fans.
Belift is a shitty company, but they aren't stupid enough to create a financial burden on themselves to force out a pivotal member to leave their highly successful group. I don't think that's what happened. They wouldn't risk brand deals, upcoming schedules, fan backlash, etc. This departure seemed like it would have saved them the most money, which is ultimately their number one priority.
This is just the reality we need to accept and face without being in denial.
And I know Heeseung has talked about future plans with the group, I know the timing is off, I know it seemed like things were headed in a good direction. But that few weeks break, Jungwon's messages in WeVerse, and Heeseung teasing his upcoming projects aren't to be ignored either. This has been in the works, even if it came earlier than we might have all expected. It might feel like a sudden decision to us, but I'm sure it must've been a lengthy conversation for them. The boys, of course, have to put on a brave face in front of the fans. I don't doubt that they've all been hurting and dealing with so much behind the scenes during this decision and did not show us.
There's a lot of things we don't know and I hope we can learn more as time goes on, but we need to know our limits as fans. I will continue to support ENHYPEN, who I've loved since the start of I-Land. I also can't wait to see what Heeseung (or EVAN) has in store and I will also be supporting him as well. Though I understand the anger and resentment, please do not spread any harmful theories or inflammatory sentiments. They will not help ENHYPEN or Heeseung.
Anyway, thank you for sticking around if you read the whole thing. I know this is sad, but we will be okay!!! Let's support them right now. The boys really need it ❤️
Hi everyone! I wanted to gather my thoughts here as X seems pretty inflammatory right now. I do want to start off by saying to please read the whole thing before anyone jumps me. I hope that we can all be cool-headed about the recent news. Anyway...
I think it's time to drop the outrageous conspiracy theories and look at it at face value. Heeseung, no matter if there was an ultimatum or not, did choose to leave ENHYPEN. As someone who works in marketing/public relations and has been a fan of K-Pop since 2009, I don't believe it was BELIFT's choice or best FINANCIAL interest for Heeseung to leave the group at all. He is a popular member internationally, he sings so many parts in their songs, and has many center parts in their choreogeaphy. They would have tried their hardest to keep him, no matter what. I think this was their best case scenario to keep both ENHYPEN and him (with his dreams and ambitions beyond the group), and still make money from both.
This situation reminds me a lot of Hyunseung's departure from BEAST. A few months before BEAST's contract was up, pivotal member Hyunseung left the group "due to differences of opinion between him and the other members concerning their music." He even won a solo "Best Male Artist" award while promoting with BEAST just before he left, which unironically mirrors Heeseung's UPICK Global Choice award win. The 6-member group later left the company together and formed a new group as HIGHLIGHT. The parallels are uncanny and I recommend you all read up on that situation to learn how to navigate Heeseung's departure. I'm not saying that this is the direction the boys are headed, but I just wanted to let you all know that this has happened before. It is not as unprecedented as people say. This happens in K-Pop! We will be okay! Be happy for Heeseung and please be there for the rest of them.
With the immense responsibility that falls on the remaining members, I hope we can support them without a need to be so reactive. Boycotting, historically, does not work in K-Pop UNLESS your intentions are for the group to fail. ENHYPEN are human beings with idolhood as their JOBS. You stop buying their merchandise, you stop attending their concerts, you start talking about how ENHYPEN is nothing without Heeseung... you cut off their resources and money and the ground they stand on with BELIFT. While you might think it's temporary, losing Heeseung has already caused people to leave the fandom. Do you think furthering that by decreasing support will actually lead BELIFT to take action and bring back Heeseung, who stated that he WANTED to pursue a solo career? This would probably embolden them into thinking that ENHYPEN can no longer be a sustainable group for them to keep.
This is not Mark's situation where the graduation system in NCT Dream was already set in place and people knew he would leave eventually. There was always anger and uproar even up until his graduation date that led SM to overturn their decision. This is not Seunghan's situation where a massive scandal blew up his career in an idol group. Fans were boycotting RIIZE for him to be in or out of the group. It was a lose-lose situation.
On the other hand, this feels a lot more decisive. Belift or HYBE does not flip-flop around like SM does. Please read Heeseung's statement with a more level headed lens. He says "I made a big decision to approach ENGENE in a better way according to the direction the company suggested." I don't read this the same way other people on X have. To me, this is textbook damage control (no negative connotation here, but just as a fact).
BELIFT read through this statement and made sure it was good to post. That's how PR is handled. In fact, I think this was added in to specifically take the heat off of himself and the other boys and make sure the blame is shifted to the company. At the end of the day, BELIFT will always be hated. They know that. They are okay with that. I think this was included so that there is no insinuation of ill-will on either ENHYPEN or Heeseung's side. What I dislike is people overanalyzing this part of his statement and making it seem like he had no choice in the matter.
Please don't infantilize Heeseung's decision-making capabilities. If he hated the company, he would have terminated the contract. That's been done plenty of times before in K-Pop. In fact, there's been scenarios where people leave their agency but stay in the group itself! Heeseung, based on his statement, just had a different vision for his music. We need to learn how to be okay with that as fans.
Belift is a shitty company, but they aren't stupid enough to create a financial burden on themselves to force out a pivotal member to leave their highly successful group. I don't think that's what happened. They wouldn't risk brand deals, upcoming schedules, fan backlash, etc. This departure seemed like it would have saved them the most money, which is ultimately their number one priority.
This is just the reality we need to accept and face without being in denial.
And I know Heeseung has talked about future plans with the group, I know the timing is off, I know it seemed like things were headed in a good direction. But that few weeks break, Jungwon's messages in WeVerse, and Heeseung teasing his upcoming projects aren't to be ignored either. This has been in the works, even if it came earlier than we might have all expected. It might feel like a sudden decision to us, but I'm sure it must've been a lengthy conversation for them. The boys, of course, have to put on a brave face in front of the fans. I don't doubt that they've all been hurting and dealing with so much behind the scenes during this decision and did not show us.
There's a lot of things we don't know and I hope we can learn more as time goes on, but we need to know our limits as fans. I will continue to support ENHYPEN, who I've loved since the start of I-Land. I also can't wait to see what Heeseung (or EVAN) has in store and I will also be supporting him as well. Though I understand the anger and resentment, please do not spread any harmful theories or inflammatory sentiments. They will not help ENHYPEN or Heeseung.
Anyway, thank you for sticking around if you read the whole thing. I know this is sad, but we will be okay!!! Let's support them right now. The boys really need it ❤️
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I never saw that fortune teller video, for some reason I never did. But I saw it today, and damn she really predicted someone would leave.
Why couldn't belift manage group and solo activities together? Wtf? I always thought after years promoting together they would start focusing on their solos without leaving the group, like how BTS, BP, etc are doing.
Enhypen wasn't even the last group in my mind to have a member leave. I can't imagine how hurtful it must've been for each of the boys, especially Heeseung.
I can't even bring myself to say Heeseung and Enhypen separately man.
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Soooo...I'm excited to share that I've started writing my own fanfic! It's been a fun journey so far. However, I do need some help choosing the male main lead. I would love some suggestions, but please keep it to Enhypen members only. Check out the mood board I've created for inspiration!
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. ° ༘ 💋⋆ 🎸 ₊˚ෆ [ LEE HEESEUNG ]
“y/n, stop.” you never turned around as heeseung kept calling out to you. you didn’t want to. turning around meant facing him again, and you didn’t know if you were capable of it.
“y/n, stop!” you walked faster, but heeseung’s legs were faster than yours. a brisk walk turned into a jog, until you broke out into a sprint, your vision blurred as you realized you’d never be able to outrun him. this proved to be true—before you knew it, a pair of arms had enveloped you with a strong force, the momentum barreling the two of you to the ground. you hit the grass with a thump.
“just go away,” you murmured, trying to avert your gaze from him. as you scrambled to your feet, you felt a tug at your legs. reluctantly, you looked downwards. the sight before you made your breath hitch in your throat.
heeseung laid himself bare for you as he got on his knees, grasping at you as if he was begging for his life.
he was begging for you.
you felt paralyzed as he looked up at you, pathetic and desperate. “just listen to me,” he pleaded, all discretions gone. his inhibitions had finally thrown out the window as he threw himself at your feet.
“heeseung—”
“please,” he begged, bowing his head. “i need you more than anyone else i’ve ever needed in my life. i didn’t get it before, but now i do.”
he looked up at you then, his shoulders slumped, his palms facing upward on his lap. “y/n… i love you. you don’t understand how badly i need you.”
he was in complete submission of you. the thought of lee heeseung at your mercy was a thought beyond comprehension.
“get up, heeseung,” you pleaded, not wanting to maintain eye contact. you tried to push him away, at least trying to pull him up from his knees, but he wouldn’t budge.
“stop calling me that,” he cried, shaking his head. he was groveling now. “baby, please. i need you. i’ll do anything to show you. i promise, i’ll spend the rest of my life proving it to you.” his eyes were tear-stricken. “please.”
you gave him a good look, the way he threw himself at your feet as if he knew nothing better. you were silent, completely still. he was a mess at your feet, and even if you wanted to say something, you couldn’t. you were at a loss for words. this was too much to take in all at once.
“let me prove it,” he begged, staring up at you like it was all he knew how to do. “give me the chance to show you how much i need you, how i’ll put everything into showing you that i need you here with me.”
. ° ༘ 💋⋆ 🎸 ₊˚ෆ [ PARK JONGSEONG ]
“what is it going to take for me to prove it to you?” jay yelled at you from across the way. “what do i have to do, huh? what do you need from me to show you that i’m serious?”
“just forget it, jay.” you gritted your teeth and turned away from him, your back facing away. “just go.”
“no. no!” his voice was clear. “i’m not going anywhere! i’m going to stay here, and i’m going to make you listen to me! i’m being serious about this!” he reached out to you, grabbing your shoulder with one hand and spinning you back towards him in one fell swoop.
you narrowed your eyes at him. “so you’re serious now, huh?” you asked facetiously. your tone held traces of mockery. “don’t make me laugh.”
“yes,” he agreed without letting you interject. “yes, i am serious. i will do anything and everything to prove this to you—right here, right now.”
“sure you will. just what could you possibly—jay? jay?” you stumbled over your words as he reached out to grab your wrist, giving you no room to fight back as he firmly placed your palm over his heart. you were frozen in place as he approached you then, breaking the distance between the two of you. “what are you—”
“do you feel that?” he interrupted you, his voice desperate, whiny. “do you feel me?”
you did. his heart beat was racing, more than you’d like to admit. the longer he stared at you, the faster it seemed to go. but no matter how fast it beat, he continued to stare at you, conveying his desperation the only way he knew how. “this is what you do to me,” he breathed out, gripping your wrist tighter. “keep it there. you drive me crazy. i need this. i need you.” when he realized you weren’t going anywhere, his facial expression softened. “i love you,” he whispered.
he had you stunned. he saw the way your jaw fell slightly ajar, and he took the opportunity to come even closer to you. his chest was inches apart from yours. “i’ll do anything to prove it,” he pleaded. “if this isn’t enough, i’ll do something that is. y/n, this is the most serious i’ve ever been in a long time. if it’s anything you can believe from me, it’s this.”
“jay, you can’t be serious,” you whispered.
he looked at you, the determination and desperation in his face clear. “yes, i am.”
. ° ༘ 💋⋆ 🎸 ₊˚ෆ [ SIM JAEYUN ]
“why do you keep doing this to me?” jake called out to you, his voice wild with frustration. “stop pushing me away! stop doing this!”
“just leave me alone,” you screamed back at him. but no matter how far you moved, he followed suit. “i don’t want you here. leave me alone.”
“you’re lying to yourself and you know it!” he argued, now beating your pace with a jog. before long, he caught up to your pace, taking your hands within his own. “y/n, i don’t understand. help me understand. i’m right here, for you. don’t you get it?”
“can you just let go?” you thrashed in his grip, trying to throw his hands from yours, but to no avail. “i told you, i don’t want you here, you don’t need to follow me, you don’t need to do anything of this. just leave already!”
“no!” he yelled in retaliation, his eyes widened with panic. “do you not get it? do you really not understand?”
“no,” you spat at him, “i don’t.”
then, in one swift motion, jake had his hands gripped to your hips, almost slamming your body against his. you yelped at the close proximity, but his eyes never wavered from yours.
“y/n,” he whispered, his voice breathy. “i’m yours.”
you didn’t answer, his shock confession processing in your mind. noticing the way you slowly loosened your tense body, jake pressed his forehead to yours. “i am yours,” he repeated, his words pronounced. “undeniably, i belong to you. you are all i think about, you are in my dreams, you haunt me, and i invite it. i want all of it. i want all of you.”
“jake…” your attempts to escape his hold were futile—but you weren’t really trying your best, anyway. your voice faded as he traced your bottom lip with his thumb.
“i don’t care if you’ve got some baggage,” he continued, desperation creeping into his voice. “i don’t care if you have demons to fight, i want you. you, your baggage, your demons, i’ll fight them all for you if i have to. i’ll prove it to you. i’ll do anything for you. you say jump, i say how high.”
you swallowed a lump in your throat, completely in submission to his embrace, and he explored your expression, your eyes, your face.
“do you get it now?” he asks, his voice softer. “i love you.”
. ° ༘ 💋⋆ 🎸 ₊˚ෆ [ PARK SUNGHOON ]
“y/n, don’t make me do this!” sunghoon’s fading voice amidst the crowd was your only solace in your attempt to distance yourself from him. “please! just come back!”
“go to hell, sunghoon,” you spat at him, hearing the way people jostled and chastised him for rudely tossing them aside to reach you. but you didn’t turn to witness it for yourself. “i don’t want you here.”
“no,” he yelled at you, across the distance, amidst the people. he knew he couldn’t reach you. there were far too many people in this rush hour, and he’d lose the energy to push against them to make it to you. “i’m not going anywhere, i’m going to follow you until you turn around and let me say my piece!”
“what is there to say?” you asked, venom in your tone. “you don’t like saying anything, so don’t make me laugh.”
he grimaced at your words, because he knew you were right. but that had to change. right now, or else he was going to lose his chance forever.
“i have plenty to say, y/n,” he urged, pushing against yet another wave of unsuspecting strangers, all of whom shot him dirty glares. but he didn’t care—not in this moment. the way people thought of him didn’t matter, when losing you was in the balance.
“yeah, right.” you laughed, but there was no humor. you continued to storm away.
“i love you!”
his words made you stop in your tracks. despite every nerve in your body telling you this was a bad idea, you turned around, facing him from across the crowd.
“what?” you asked him.
“i need you,” he cried out. as more strangers realized what he was doing, they stepped to the side to give him some space to squeeze his way towards you. “i said it. i know i’m not the best with words, that a lot of the time i’m lacking, but if this is what it takes for you to understand, i’ll say it a thousand—no, a million times over.”
at last, amidst the active crowd, he grab your wrist and pulled you closer to him.
“do you need me to say it again?” he asked, searching your eyes for the answer. “because i can. i will. as many times as it takes. in front of all these people.”
he cups your face gently. “i’ll tell the world if i have to, if that’s what it takes for you to believe me.”
. ° ༘ 💋⋆ 🎸 ₊˚ෆ [ KIM SUNOO ]
“seriously, if you aren’t going to actually tell me what you’re trying to say, then stop making me think you’re going to.”
you huffed at sunoo, who had stumbled over his words once more. he scrunched his face in frustration, playing with his fingers as he followed you while you were walking away.
“hold on,” he cried, the frustration visible on his face. “please—just give me a second. i… i just don’t know what to say.”
“you’ve been saying that for months, sunoo. months.” you shook your head in disbelief at his words. “you keep stringing me along, wanting to tell me things, then you chicken out, and then you act like it never happened when i ask you about it. i don’t want to feel stupid anymore, because this isn’t fair.” you sped up your walking face, almost causing him to trip when he tried to keep up.
“i know, and i’ve been really mean for that,” he admitted, the anguish clear on his face. “but really, y/n, if we can just stop and you can just listen to me, i promise i’ll find the right words for you—”
“i’ve been trying to listen to you this whole time,” you snapped at him. “you’re the one who just won’t talk.”
“i’m going to!” he exclaimed, taking a deep breath as he quickened his pace. “please, just stop!”
“you’re so confusing, sunoo.” your voice twinged with hurt. “why would i believe you now?”
“because now i have the words to tell you that i love you!”
you stopped walking. as if time moved in slow motion, you turned, only to see sunoo bowing deeply for you. his eyes were squeezed tight, his hands were shaking. your breath was caught in your throat.
“what?” you asked, barely a whisper.
sunoo slowly looked up to you, and your eyes widened as you noticed his had begun to well up with tears. “i’m sorry,” he cried, approaching you and grasping your wrist. you didn’t move away from him. “every time i thought i had the confidence to tell you, i’d get scared you’d say no. that i would do something to mess everything up. and then i’d lose you.”
“and then i realized that by not telling you, i’d lose you even faster.” he gently squeezed his hand against yours. “and now, i’m realizing now that i’d rather tell you how i feel and make myself look stupid, no matter how i have to say it, than to lose you from my own cowardice.”
you couldn’t believe your ears. “sunoo…”
“i won’t be a coward, not anymore.” he swallows a nervous lump growing in his throat, shaking away any lingering anxiety he had left. “i adore you too much to ever hide away from you again.”
. ° ༘ 💋⋆ 🎸 ₊˚ෆ [ YANG JUNGWON ]
“y/n, you need to understand!” jungwon was desperately trying to get you to listen to him, but you were too busy grabbing your things, your contempt for him loud and clear. “this is necessary, what i’m doing is for us! can you please look at me? i’m really trying!”
“i’m trying, jungwon,” you hissed at him, throwing shirts into your bag without bothering to sort them out. “i really have tried to. but i feel alone. and i’ve tried to talk to you so many times, but no matter what, that’s the only thing i ever hear from you. that it’s necessary and that it’s for us.” you’re nearly in tears thinking about it, but you don’t want to look at him. “but what about me? i don’t know what your bigger picture is, because you’re always so focused on working towards something necessary, when all i’ve ever wanted is just the present time.”
your words ring deathly in jungwon’s ears, and his body feels crushed with the weight of it all. he’s rendered speechless, as you finish packing your things. you take his silence as him giving up, and you feel a pang of hurt in your chest, that he didn’t try any harder.
no matter. you were on your way out, anyway.
without another word, you slung your bag over your shoulder, your eyes glued to the floor as you made your way to the front door.
to your surprise, you heard jungwon’s feet scrambling past you, and by the time you reach the door, he’s already there, his back pressed towards it, keeping it close. he kept himself there to keep you from leaving. you saw the way the color escaped his face, begging you to reconsider your choices.
“y/n, please, don’t do this. just let me make things right with you.” jungwon planted his feet in a way that kept him rigid against the door, but the desperation on his face told you that if you really wanted to, you could push him aside. “i was so focused on the bigger picture i didn’t realize i should’ve focused on the special details in front of me.” he reached out to you, “i see that, and i don’t want to ever make that mistake again. i didn’t mean to hurt you, i’m so sorry. please, y/n, let me make this right.”
you gritted your teeth, trying to keep your composure. but jungwon’s sincerity was something you couldn’t ignore. “jungwon, why now? why does it have to be now?”
“i…” his voice falters. “i don’t… i don’t want to give you a stupid reason. or a lame excuse. i just… i thought i was doing the best thing for you. but the best thing was always to just appreciate having you here with me.”
when you don’t respond, he slumps to his knees in front of you. before you know it, he’s bowing for you to the floor, his hands curled into tight fists. he’s shaking.
“y/n,” he begs again, “please, i know i was too in my head to realize how much you needed me. but i need you. everything i’ve been doing is because i love you. and i’ll do anything to reassure you, to make sure that you never have to doubt me ever again.” his voice is muffled against the floor, but his words are crystal clear to you.
you dropped your bag and knelt beside him, nudging him. “stop bowing,” you murmured, your lips pressed together. “just get up. please.”
he peers at you, slowly getting up from his bowing position. without warning, he envelops his arms around you. “please believe me,” he whispers, “i’ve never been so sure about anything in my life. i need you here, with me. and i’ll be here for you, i promise.”
. ° ༘ 💋⋆ 🎸 ₊˚ෆ [ NISHIMURA RIKI ]
“you can stop pretending now,” you whispered, a clear hurt in your voice. “i’m sorry.”
riki was in a state of distress as he realized you had interpreted his words the wrong way. as you turned to move away, he grasped your wrist to prevent you from going any further. “y/n,” he breathed, shaking his head furiously. “no, you didn’t let me finish, you’re getting it all wrong.”
he was surprised at the speed you removed yourself from his hold. you were already walking away, and the farther you walked, the tighter riki’s chest constricted. he took a deep breath, realizing what it meant to chase you down. what this would mean for him.
but as he watched you fade into the distance, he cursed to himself. you were here, now. leaving, because of him.
it didn’t take him long to find his resolve. he chased you down, sprinting to catch up to you in a matter of moments.
you heard him sprinting, but you had to fight the urge to turn around to look. you didn’t know how much more you could take of this—
until he yelled out your name.
“y/n!” he called out, his breathing increased, his face flush from a mix of working up a sweat and something deeper. as you heard your name, your resolve weakened, and you turned to face him.
only for you to nearly be plowed over by riki’s forceful embrace. having to almost screech himself to a halt, he caught himself by wrapping his arms around you, nearly causing the both of you to topple over.
your face was pressed against his chest, but he wouldn’t waver. “riki, let go,” you called out to him, but he shook his head.
“i’m sick of this,” he whispered, “i’m sick and tired of running away. i’m done with this. i’m done with pretending.”
“what are you—”
one hand snaked around your waist, the other reaching forward to cup your cheek. “i need you,” he said, his voice no longer quiet. a proclamation of the truth he had been hiding from the world—no, himself—for too long. “more than i’ve ever needed anyone in my life.”
you were put in a stunned silence. riki only held you tighter, the facade of his indifference slowly slipping through the cracks. his eyebrows creased, his lip slightly quivering. “if it’s anything you’ll ever believe from me, let it be this.” he searched your eyes, to see if you harbored any doubt, any challenge to his words. “i’ve fallen so deeply in love with you, it’s suffocated me whole. and i… i’ve tried fighting it, i really have. but i can’t do that anymore, when it hurts me, and it hurts you.”
his thumb caresses your cheek. “i’ve been a fool,” he confesses, “but let me be your fool. i’ll learn, and i’ll be better. for you—for us. and i swear, i’ll make you the happiest you’ve ever been.”
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jay x reader, friends with benefits, angst, suggestive
summary: You want more, and Jay doesn't. It's as simple as that. Except, it's not so simple when your heart aches to be with him. When you decide to cut Jay off, he does not take kindly to your actions and a confrontation ensues.
warnings: mentions of sex, suggestive scenes, like they make out two times?!, reader is DOWN BAD, jay has commitment issues, swearing, they have an argument, jay is a dick. typos probably
wc: 3.7k
(a/n: jay’s part is here!! im pretty proud of this not gonna lie heheheh, reblog, likes and comments are always appreciated :p)
You always tell yourself that the last time will be the last time. Everytime Jay undos the undressing from a few hours before, disappointment weighs so heavy on your heart that it convinces you- it can never happen again.
But it always does.
One word, one call from him. And, you’re always saying yes. For some reason, the small flicker of hope in your chest never dies. It convinces you that one day, he will ask you to stay. That he’ll say, “Don’t go.”
You’re never surprised, but always disappointed.
Tonight is no different. Jay calls you up and asks if you can come over. You say, yes. You always do. Before you know it, you’ve left your apartment, enroute to Jay’s home.
All you’ve brought with you is your phone, wallet, keys, and water; adorned on your body is your comfiest clothes. You and Jay are long past trying to impress each other. You never stay the night so the least you can do for yourself is dress comfortably.
You’ve memorized the way to his house, from every time he’s called you over. You’ve never felt like a booty-call, not by the way he treats you after you knock on his front door. And, you never wondered why you don’t indulge each other in your own home. This is always how it’s been.
You climb up the familiar steps and lift your fist to knock on his door. You never hesitate, not once in all your late night rendezvous. Your heart seems to forget all the heartbreak Jay’s caused you and all the disappointment that fills you when you walk out the same door hours later.
The door swings open, and there is your Jay, dressed in perfect domesticity. “Finally, you’re here.” He sighs in relief and gently pulls you into his home. But, not without a peck to your forehead.
“You act like I kept you waiting for hours.” You roll your eyes playfully.
“Well it felt like hours.” Jay shot back, matching your energy.
“I’m sorry to keep you waiting,” you quip. “It smells good in here.” Now that you’ve stepped into Jay’s home, you notice the aroma that fills the air- a mixture of seasonings- garlic and onion you’re sure. You smile to yourself. It’s one of the many things you admire about Jay, his love for cooking. And, he’s good at it. You’ve shared his meals countless times and they never disappoint. Excitement, mixed with hunger, brews in your stomach at the thought of eating some of Jay’s food.
“Thanks doll. Felt like cooking up something before you came over.” Jay replies. Placing a hand on your lower back, he guides you to the kitchen, as if this is your first time at his place. You bet you’ve memorized the steps to his kitchen and bedroom by now.
“What’d you make this time?” You question carries genuine curiosity, as Jay has cooked an array of dishes.
“Lemon pepper chicken with green beans and rice. I’ve been wanting to try this recipe for a while because I’ve never cooked with lemon pepper before and I thought why not…” Jay’s voice trails off. You don’t mean to tune Jay out- it only happened because you’re entirely focused on admiring Jay and how he floats around the kitchen so naturally, tending to the food on the stove. He owns the space; his confidence and naturalness only adds to your desire for him, to have him in every way.
You stop yourself before you spiral into a mood of longingness. You’re determined to not bring down the mood tonight, not until you and Jay have your usual…routine.
Once the food is ready, Jay prepares your plate for you, insisting it will taste better if he does it. Typical Jay, ever the gentleman. You chat through the meal, recapping your day and week, providing updates on your mutual friends, and everything in between. It feels so domestic, and right. It reminds you that you and Jay could have this. Home-cooked meals, the intimacy of sitting at the dining table, getting ready for bed together, and holding each other close when the day comes to a close.
At least, that’s what you imagine life with Jay would be like.
You help him clean the kitchen, dancing around each other in a perfect rhythm.
Once you finish drying the last dish, you turn around, only to find Jay had caged you between himself and the kitchen counter.
“Oh! You scared me.” You giggle, from both surprise and nervousness at Jay’s proximity.
He says nothing, only smirking and capturing your lips in a kiss. It stops time for you- whenever he kisses you, it always feels that way. It’s firm and slow- but that’s how Jay teases you. His patience is unmatched, opposing your urgency. Don’t misunderstand, Jay feels a similar urgency to have you, but he quite enjoys teasing you first.
You respond with such fervor, starting to feel desperate. Jay’s hands move from the counter to the waist and press you into him.
Right before you invite your tongue to tangle with Jay’s, he pulls back for a breath. He leans his forehead against yours and gasps for air. “Let’s move this to my room yeah?” He asks cooly, but you detect a hint of desperation in his voice. It makes you proud to know that he’s as desperate for you as you are for him.
You nod quickly and follow him to his bedroom. You know where the night is headed and the sadness you’ll feel when you leave Jay’s embrace is guaranteed. But, even though you want Jay in every way, only one way is enough for now.
-
You still feel warm from your high an hour ago. But, Jay always makes you feel that way. Your afterglow remains long after whenever you’re with him. You’re in the perfect position to fall asleep, head on Jay’s chest while his fingers trailing rhythmically up and down your bare back, relaxing you. But, you know you can’t fall asleep. In a few minutes, when Jay feels it’s socially acceptable to kick you out, you will get dressed and leave. You savor these moments while they’re here.
Time passes and you’re still here. Hope blooms in your chest; he’s never let you stay this long. It must be way past midnight at this point, usually you’re home by now. This hope encourages you to open your godforsaken mouth and rehash a conversation with Jay that you’ve had over and over.
A part of you knows that even if you bring up the topic again, nothing will change. But, damnnit, there’s hope!
You sit up and reach for your discarded shirt on the floor. Covering one part of your vulnerability will help unveil another.
Jay gives you a look that questions why you moved from such a comfortable position.
“Hey, Jay.” Your voice shakes ever so slightly, but you’re blaming it on your exertion from before, not on your nervousness.
The boy only hums in response, however it’s encouragement enough for you to continue.
“I was wondering if you thought any more about what I said all those months ago? About us? I just…I want more for us and I think we would be really good together. I really really like you. I want everything- all of it- with youl.” You spit out your words like they’re fire, rambling through your thoughts. You don’t even look Jay in the eye, too embarrassed that you’re clinging to the impossible.
There’s a moment of silence which allows you to bask in your humiliation. Then, a sigh from Jay.
“Do we really have to talk about this again? My answer is the same. I just can’t commit like that right now.” His voice is soft, but firm- as if he knows your fragility but needs to make his words heard.
Your frown deepens, and Jay unfortunately notices.
“Come here,” He pulls you back to him, “You know it’s not because of you, right? I really really like you too. But, I know you deserve more than I can give you right now.”
You nod, despite not understanding. You try to make sense of Jay’s words but they weren’t adding up at all.
You don’t understand- if he really really liked you, why couldn’t he commit? Why wouldn’t he take you out on a proper date? If he liked you, didn’t he want the same things you did?
Him making dinner, being obsessively caring during your intimate moments, and offering the best aftercare, it was all twisting the knife he had dug into your back.
Okay, maybe it wasn’t in your back, because you knew where this was going, or you should’ve known. This was no betrayal. It was all inevitable.
It doesn’t make the pain of him leaving you in the dark bleeding, hurt any less.
It’s time for you to go. You pushed his limits and now tension mixes with the smell of sex in the room. Despite Jay holding you close, you feel so far from him. So, you need to go before you say something stupid.
You sit up and try to muster up your most sheepish smile, trying to not give away any disappointment in Jay’s answer. You’ve shown enough vulnerability for one night.
“I think I’m going to go home for the night- I’ve got, you know, an early morning.” You lie through your teeth. It’s a Saturday night (or early Sunday morning at this point).
Jay nods slowly, as if he knows you’re lying (he does). He follows your movements, sitting up and searching the room for his disregarded clothes.
“I’ll walk you out.”
You only nod in response. Your voice seemed to die along with your hope. You lead yourself and Jay to his front door. Opening it, you turn to bid him goodbye.
You’re almost caught off guard by the look in Jay’s eyes. He looks disappointed- in who, you’re not sure. His eyes hold a hint of sadness too.
He leans forward, but you panic. Thinking on your feet, you go for the awkward side hug. You swear you can almost hear Jay grimace.
“Text me when you get home.”
“Sure, yeah. Goodnight Jay.”
With that, you walk out the door.
-
By the time you’re home, you have made a major decision.
Well, it feels major to you.
You decide you’re gonna distance yourself from Jay for a while. And this time, you’re serious about it. You need some time away from him. From the home-cooked meals. From the fluid conversation. From the softness.
You need to get your heart in order before you see him again. You predict you will either lose feelings for Jay, and continue your affair, or you’ll learn to live without him.
You’re not looking forward to either outcome, but it needs to happen. You can’t anticipate the same heartbreak every time you see him. The longing, the desperation, the hope. You can’t do it anymore.
-
Four days have passed since you saw Jay. Not seeing him in person over the week wasn’t out of the ordinary. You both have full-time jobs, so it’s normal to not see him until the weekend.
What was unusual was the lack of communication entirely. You and Jay wouldn’t go a day or two without texting each other, or having a quick phone call.
You were honestly proud of yourself for not contacting him. However, you feel a bit disappointed that he hasn't contacted you at all. You sound hypocritical- the way you want him to simultaneously let you be and pine after you. Feelings are confusing.
The first weekend without Jay is the worst. You take extra measures to avoid Jay- seeing him, confronting him, even thinking about him. Your phone is turned off and placed across the room where you can’t reach. Your best girlfriends come over for a movie night, providing some much needed girl time. By the time they leave, you have completely forgotten where your weekend usually leads you.
So, you busy yourself by cleaning the kitchen from earlier in the evening, disposing of popcorn bags and leftover candies.
For a second, your memory betrays you. You imagine a few months ago when Jay invited you over for a ‘movie’ night. Popcorn and snacks were prepared, but soon forgotten. You two didn’t even make it half through the movie before you were on top of each other. Jay had pulled you onto his lap as you started to make out, each kiss intensifying. Your bodies begin to move against each other on their own and before you know it-
You shake your head from the daydream. Jay does not deserve to take up that kind of space in your mind. You won’t allow him.
You continue to straighten up your apartment, before you retire to your bed. It’s almost like your body doesn’t know what to do with itself when you’re not in Jay’s apartment on a Saturday night. It’s sad, and it’s precisely why you need space from him. Your heart is growing too dependent on him.
Picking up your phone, you see a particular notification(s) that makes your sore heart stutter.
One missed call and four messages from Jay.
Jay <3: I called to see what you’re up to tonight. You can come over if you’re free.
Jay <3: I made kimchi jjigae. I think I finally got the recipe down.
Jay <3: Just realized it’s been a minute since we talked.
Jay <3: Missing you right now.
The last message was sent only 30 minutes ago. You glance at the clock, it’s only 11:30- not even that late. Jay is probably still up, and if you leave your apartment now you could probably make it before-
The better part of you stops yourself before you can impulsively see the one person you’re trying to avoid. That’s Jay though- so addicting it makes you go against your better judgment.
You sigh and turn your phone off. The determination for space is strong, motivated by the ache in your heart.
-
Jay feels like he’s going crazy. His 7 text messages and two missed calls have gone unanswered by you.
Why the hell were you ignoring him? Were you okay? If Jay hadn’t seen your activity on your socials, he would’ve thought you were dead. He’s not trying to be dramatic, he swears. But, during the months and months that you’ve known each other, you’ve never ghosted him.
Jay racks his brain for the reason you’re ignoring him right now.
It surely can’t be because of your last conversation right? You both have had that talk multiple times and it never resulted in completely ceased communication. So, Jay concludes that’s not it.
What if you met someone new? Surely you would have told Jay about them. And, why would you confess your feelings and then find someone new days later? Were you sick? Depressed? Maybe, you were out of town and forgot to mention.
Jay continues to spiral over throughout the week. He decides that, if by the weekend, you still haven’t responded, he’s going to take matters into his own hands.
-
You got through a second week without talking to Jay. It gets easier every day you think. Your heart still hurts to ignore his messages and calls- your feelings for him haven’t just disappeared. But, you have to cut him off completely or the heartache you feel will continue to crush you.
The weekend has come again, but this time you find yourself alone in your apartment. You hadn’t realized how much you needed a weekend to yourself. Spending time with yourself is a skill you’re learning to cultivate, especially now that you don’t have a weekend partner to rendezvous with anymore.
That doesn’t mean you don’t think about him. You think about Jay all the time, and it hurts that you won’t get the intimacy of his bedroom, cooking meals, and the domesticity with him anymore. But, it is still easier to cope without that than it was.
You’ve settled in the comfiest spot in your living room, book in hand and lights dimmed. A warm cup of tea close by, you’re looking forward to a peaceful night.
Not even two chapters in your book, you hear a knock at the door. You freeze for a moment, certainly startled as you weren’t expecting anyone tonight.
You don’t move, praying that whoever is at your door will just go away. It’s 10pm for god sake.
A knock echoes through your home again, but this time it’s followed by a voice you know all too well.
“Y/N! Please open the door.” Jay’s voice resonates through your apartment walls and through your heart. You try to keep your cool but your racing heart betrays you. It takes your entire willpower to stop your hands from shaking. You cannot let him see how much his mere presence affects you.
With a deep breath, you open the door and plaster on your most nonchalant expression.
“Oh hey! What’s up?”
Jay huffs and has to stop himself from rolling his eyes. “Oh good, you’re alive.”
His sarcasm is not lost on you as he pushes his way into your apartment, as if it’s his own. You can count on one hand how many times he’s invaded your space.
“What’s that supposed to-”
“Why haven’t you answered my texts, or called me back?” Jay cuts you off.
Adjusting to the shock of his arrival and looking at the man clearly now, you can see how upset he is. You’ve become an expert on his body language- furrowed eyebrows, tense shoulders, confused and pained look in his eyes- you could see it all.
“I don’t know, I guess I’ve been busy and I don’t know, I just…” You ramblings weren’t helping your case. In fact, you were sure they were only making things worse. You weren’t used to Jay being so straightforward. Usually, you felt like you were always the confrontational one in your dynamic.
“You were busy? Really?” Jay knew you too well to know your bullshit answer when he hears it.
“Yeah, well you know, life gets busy.”
Jay scoffs at your attitude. “That’s ridiculous. You can’t even send me a quick text to let me know what’s going on?”
You shake your head, “It must’ve slipped my mind.”
“This is such bullshit. You can’t just ghost me and then tell me it’s because you’re busy.”
“Actually I can.” You weren’t about to let Jay tell you what you can and can’t do. Especially when he continued to break your heart over the past few months. Though the past two weeks were hard, you believe the distance gave you a backbone of some sort.
“Grow up, I thought you were more mature than this. My god.” Jay snaps.
He didn’t mean to, but god he was so frustrated at the moment. His mind is clouded, failing to allow him to think clearly. Jay had never snapped at you that way before, ever.
This newfound behavior from the man dulled your senses for a moment.
Then, you found yourself growing angry. Angry at him, his hypocrisy, and the entire situation.
“I need to grow up? Seriously? You’re the one who needs to grow up. You’re the one who can’t commit. You’re the one who keeps leading me on.”
Jay’s bewildered expression makes you think your feelings are completely news to him.
“How am I leading you on? I’ve told you over and over again that I don’t want a relationship- I just want to fuck you!”
Jay’s crudeness was an absolute shock to you. Though you’ve never had such a heated confrontation with him before, you never imagined the thoughtful, deliberate man could say such a thing.
His words anger you even more. How could he not see how his actions were saying something completely different? He may have said he didn’t want a relationship, but all the moments he shared with you had you holding your breath just a little longer, waiting for him. You can’t believe you were so naive.
“That’s not fair. You did more than just fuck me. You cooked me dinners; we had movie nights; you text me and call me all the time. That’s the basics to being in a relationship, Jay. It twists the knife to do all those things with you and not be able to be with you.” Your monologue began at a raised voice and, to your dismay, ended with a whimper as you trailed off.
You tried to be strong, determined not to cry in front of Jay. But, the reality of the situation was setting in for you.
“It’s not my fault you took it the wrong way. I was trying to be nice. I would do it for any friend.” Jay snaps.
You try to look at Jay, but your tears cloud your vision. You don’t even know who the man standing in front of you is. How could he be so cruel? Why was he being so defensive? Though your vision was blurry, it became clear to you that Jay’s comments were intended to hurt you. Whether it was spur of the moment or out of rage, it did not matter. It hurts you either way.
“Get out.” Your stern, level voice sounded through your apartment.
“What?”
When Jay decided to confront you tonight, he never once thought it would end with him being kicked out of your apartment.
“Jay. Please leave.” You repeat, much softer than before. One could mistake it for a plea if they listen closely enough.
Jay’s shoulders drop. Gone is the anger in his body language, replaced by a defeated posture. He’s hesitant to leave; he knows you both should hash it out some more. Nothing was solved.
Nevertheless, he heads toward your front door. It’s a wonder he manages to make it through the thick tension in the air.
Jay looks back at you once more before opening your front door and stepping out of it. You don’t meet his gaze- you can’t. You’ll break and ask him to stay, to let him please you one last time. It would be the last time.
You were even holding out hope for Jay to turn around and ask you to let him stay, to not go.
But he didn’t.
There was no resounding knock on your front door. No Jay asking you to open the door. No confessions and pleads to stay. Just silence.
disclaimer: This is purely fiction- nothing in these works reflect real of these people. Additionally, I don't own any of the inspired songs.
ᶻ 𝘇 𐰁 .ᐟ THINGS ENHA DO THAT MAKES YOU SECOUND-GUESS YOUR 'FRIENDSHIP'
𝓅airing ∿ hyung line! enha x f!reader ᰔ 𝒽eadcanons ; fluff, friends to lovers, 𝓌: none that I know of 𐙚 𝓌c 1682 ᝰ.ᐟ 𝓇oro's note. i did not intend for these to be so long ﹒ ꒰ 𝓁ibrary ꒱ + 𝓂aknae ver
LEE HEESEUNG ∿ being touchy
you were used to heeseung’s touch. the way he would rest his hand on your lower back to alert you of his presence, the lingering hugs where his hands would hold your waist, how he would wrap his arm around your shoulders whenever the two of you stood or sat next to each other, his fingers absentmindedly tracing shapes on your shoulder as he talked and laughed with your friends.
and the little things like reaching over to put on your seatbelt for you, holding your hand while crossing the road or following the sidewalk rule, pressing his chest back up against your chest as he helped you reach for things on a higher shelf . . . they didn't seem so little to you anymore.
the lingering hugs lasted longer, his arm that used to rest on your shoulders moved to your waist to hold you closer instead. He would play with your fingers when you guys would binge watch shows in the living room, he would rest his hand on your thigh whenever he sat next to you, playing with the hem of your top. His fingers would linger on your face to softly caress your skin whenever he would tuck a strand of your hair behind your ear.
he didn’t touch his other friends like how he touched you, he certainly didn't pull them to sit on his lap when he played video games like he did with you. Or how he would cuddle you on the couch as you watched movies, his fingers absentmindedly caressing your sides while he placed soft kisses on your cheek, forehead or temple. Yeah, he definitely didn't do that with his other friends . . .
you knew that he was aware of how it was affecting you, and you also knew that he enjoyed every minute of it. giving you that innocent teasing smile when he felt your heartbeat faster against his chest, or when he notices that flustered smile on your lips. deep down you knew the reason why he touched and looked at you like that – and he knew it too.
PARK JAY ∿ spoiling you
you noticed jay’s habit of buying things for you very early in your friendship. whenever the two of you went out to get food he always made sure to pay the bill, quickly grabbing it before you could even see the amount, waving off your protests with a sweet smile. even when you were the one to make the plans he always found a way to pay first. when you had brought it up to him he just gave you that smirk as he said “Is it so bad that I want to treat you?”
when the two of you went shopping together, he always paid attention to the things your eyes would linger on but decided not to get it because it cost too much, sneaking the items in his basket to buy them for you, along with things he just wanted to get for you. he didn't even bother to ever look at the price tag, knowing that it was going to be worth it seeing that smile on your face.
he would bring you home items from when he went on trips with his friends/family, he would come up with excuses like ‘i thought of you when i saw it’ or ‘it's just a little gift‘ and one that never failed to make you a flustered mess was ‘I saw it and knew you would look pretty in it’ he had to know he was making you feel things when he said things like that . . .
you noticed how jay would always playfully complain about buying things for his other friends, saying that they could get it themselves, but with you he did it without a second thought. you weren't the only one to notice that. your fellow shared friends had noticed it too, and of course they had to tease jay about it. but he wouldn't let it bother him, he’d continue to spoil you, buying you anything that reminded him of you.
you’d wake up to a beautiful bouquet of fresh flowers outside your door every week, and almost every time you went to collect your packages there were always extra one’s, always with a sweet little note from jay ‘thinking on you’ ‘wear this tonight, i'm taking you out’ the gifts soon turned more romantic, domestic if you really think about it. but your relationship with him really changed once he gifted you that beautiful silver necklace with the letter ‘J’.
he loved watching you absentmindedly fidget with the necklace as you happily talked with your friends, or how you would always admire how pretty it looked decorating your neck. he loved to softly tug on the chain to gain your attention, or to use it to pull you closer to him. he didn't care who the two of you were with, he’d stop in the middle of a conversation to reach towards your neck and gently pull the necklace that slipped under your top, adjusting it so the ‘J’ could be seen by everyone . . . you both knew he was irrevocably claiming you as his.
SIM JAKE ∿ never corrects it when people assume your his girlfriend
you and jake have always been close, ever since the two of you met as young children – both of you were ‘forced’ to come along with your moms to a nice lunch between old friends. the two of you sat at the table, talking quietly and giggling as you raced each other to finish the mazes on the children's menus that were given. your mothers both smiling at the friendship blooming between the two of you. jake would refuse to admit it now, but his young self-did shed a few tears when he had to leave, not wanting to be away from his ‘pwetty friend’
as the years went on you only got closer with jake, he was your person . . . and you were his. but not only did he get closer to you emotionally, but also physically. and it was something that everyone noticed, the two of you grew up together hearing the hushed whispers of your moms giggling about how they would be in-laws in the future. So the topic of you two being together was something you were used to.
it was a popular misconception – that the two of you were together. anyone would think you were – with how close, touchy, and the way you guys looked at each other. And jake ever the polite, would say “oh – no we're just friends”. . . but jake found it unnecessary to correct the misconception as his feelings for you grew stronger.
he liked to see the flustered smile decorate your lips whenever someone mistakenly called you, his girlfriend. he found it adorable how shy and awkward you would get, stumbling over your words. he also really loved that moment of bliss where he could fantasize that the two of you were together – that you were actually his girlfriend. that him taking you to that cafe you loved wasn't just a friendly outing but instead a date.
you didn't know how to bring it up to him, that you noticed how he stopped correcting people, that he would always pull you closer to him when it happened. or how you noticed that big grin would always form on his lips after. that bliss you felt in that moment would quickly turn into confusion as your mind raced with thoughts on why he didn't correct them.
was it because he was just polite, that he didn't want to make the person uncomfortable by correcting them? – you really hoped that it wasn't just because he was polite. You wanted it to be because he wanted you too – that you weren't the only one to have those silly little fantasies of the two of you together . . .
PARK SUNGHOON ∿ being protective and possessive
one thing you admired about Sunghoon was how protective he was, to his family, to his friends, to you . . . with years of being best friends with him you didn't know why suddenly started to get so flustered whenever he got protective of you. maybe it was because his protectiveness was almost always accompanied with his possessiveness, and God was it hot . . .
he always follows the sidewalk rule with you and walks you back safely to your car / apartment etc., he never sits with his back to the door when you are out at a restaurant, all he wants is you to be safe. at parties he always had his arm around your waist, giving his best intimidating look to any guy who tried to come up to you, and if you were at the party without him, he always made sure to check on you through the night, staying up despite the tiredness just in case you called for a ride home.
he wasn't just protective of your physical but also your mental, he knew you better than anyone else so he could easily see whenever you were overwhelmed or going through something. he’d pull you somewhere quiet, he was there to listen to you talk about what's bothering you and giving you the best advice he could, and if you weren't in the mood to talk, he would do his best to distract you from your negative thoughts.
he sees your ex at a party? he's making sure he doesn’t come and bother you and get your mind all messed up after months of you getting better . . . he was very sensitive with you, especially if someone brought you up, he's always quick to shut down anything that's not appropriate.
everyone always assumed that the two of you were together, he was always so touchy with you in public, he had a habit of scaring off guys who had taken a liking to you, he never shot down the rumors of you together, only making them stronger . . . at this point the only two who didn't know you were dating where the two of you
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