but love isn't fair

“and now i know and i wouldn’t love you any less for it. i couldn’t love you any less for anything, because i love you so much.” he whispered gently before himself felt like he was about to cry himself, knowing that he said yes after all this time. “mister harvey-knox.” jude repeated happily before returning the kiss. this was a joy to jude. he felt alive when the ring was on ozzy’s finger. he’s happy. “i’m so in love with you, puppy.”

jude noticed ozzy crying and started to get nervous, he knew that those resemble happiness when it came to romantic movies, but something seemed off when it came to these tears, they didn’t feel happy. he was right when ozzy started to speak, his body lowering to look up at ozzy this time. jude just listened to ozzy, holding onto his hands as he explained what he felt and the past between mason and himself, he’d heard rumors about an engagement when it was in the news but he didn’t believe it, because he never believed that stuff. “ozzy..you’ll never hurt me, we’ve been through too much and now were here and i don’t want to let you go.” he admitted, kissing his hands lightly long before placing the ring onto ozzy’s ring finger. “well looks like we’re getting married.”

“first of all, you are so beautiful and i love you so much,” he commented, letting himself kiss his cheek before turning ozzy around to face him, “second i need you to get away from any sharp objects by coming with me into the lounge.” jude added, taking the knife away from ozzy’s hand and leading him into the lounge. this was it. the moment that will change everything in their lives as jozzy, besides the fact that they were actually jozzy. but this is going to be something that hopefully both of them wouldn’t regret.

jude let go of ozzy’s hand and stood in front of him, not feeling nervous as he initially thought he would, but more calm with the situation, knowing that he would have ozzy as his husband is something to be excited for. “oscar knox, we’ve met many months ago at a place of which we described to be our happy place, which was seattle. since then we’ve been through a lot of things together, jealously, other relationships and even poligamy but somehow through all of that we still managed to be together and i couldn’t be more thankful for you choosing me,” he paused, smiling ever so brightly before getting onto one knee, “so, my dear puppy, i don’t how to say this without being cheesy but will you marry me?” he asked, taking out the box from his back pocket and opening it to reveal a ring, one of which was from a family line of generations and now going to be placed upon ozzy’s finger if he says yes.  

oscar giggled. it was so random and out of nowhere that jude stated saying that, and even though they complimented each other  all the time, it was still so amazing to hear those words from his boyfriend. he blushed a little, kissing jude’s cheek back and letting go of the knife. “i love you too, you know?” he replied, following jude into the living room without any further questions. 

jude has been thinking over the pros and cons of marrying someone like ozzy, the pros is that he can finally settle down and hopefully have the family that he was dreaming of while keeping ozzy in the picture, along with the fact that it’s been a year since they first met and had the secret fling that was in seattle. a year since his life was turned into a dysfunctional mess, and a year since they made it. a year since jude decided that ozzy was it. but the cons? he couldn’t quite remember them as he look at ozzy in their shared kitchen, beauty underneath the glow of the eco lighten light. they hadn’t let the apartments know that they lived together and they choose not to, for the sake of keeping things spontaneous and fun.

when jude entered into the kitchen and let his arms drape around ozzy, he felt at ease when he was with ozzy, he always did and he always will. he still had his doubts after their first time around, but currently? this was perfection to him, it always was. “puppy? can i ask you something?”

@ozzy-knox

ozzy hadn’t been worried about anything. his life was going smoothly. the band was in its calmest moments, just doing eventual practices but not touring, his family was all great and his relationship with jude had never been better. living together had turned out to be a very good decision, and even though those big steps really scared oscar, he hadn’t been as scared as he thought he was going to be. jude made everything so much easier, more beautiful, more peaceful. and to give back to his boyfriend, ozzy decided to have the perfect valentine’s day weekend. even though his cooking skills were completely doubtful, he was going to make an effort for jude. 

My… m-my wedding? I’m not planning a wedding… I’m not engaged yet.