IT'S BEEN A LIFE

so i’m pretty sure almost everyone I personally know doesn’t use this anymore so I’m gonna talk about my life now.

Two years, and it was over just like that. Khalid really is feeling me right now because ya girl has been going through a rollercoaster of emotions. One minute i’m fine the next i’m thinking how is my world going to go on without him. I feel like no one wants to hear me talk about it anymore and they keep saying move on it’ll be fine. But he was the first everything, and for two years he’d been my best friend. I lost my best friend. I mean he’s not completely gone we’re still trying to remain friends and in a way i’m happy about that but at the same time. Nothing will be the same. I want to go to sleep and wake up at the time when we saw an in the future still: success, marriage and kids all in line. We’re young I know, and the hopeless romantic with me wants to keep the hope that one day we’ll come back to each other. One day years from now you’ll come back and say, “no one was ever you. it was always you. I see that now.” but nowadays keeping the hopeless romantic alive is irrational.

Everywhere I turn I catch glimpses of you. At the movies, I was reminded of the time we snuck behind the screen. Driving down the dark road at night but never feeling scared or alone in your company. Even when I turn over in bed I see you there grinning at me, kissing my forehead. 

So maybe you’re okay, and i’m going to be happy you’re okay. I’m going to pretend this is all alright so you wouldn’t feel bad. 

I still think we could be Marshall and Lily.