"my horses have big hair" - me, circa 2015 - 1997 -
ae/aer or they/he
transmasc nb lesbian
audhd schizotypal schizophrenic
mfa creative writing student
paralegal, lol, lmao, even paleofauna, ponies, furries, amphibians, rocks, retrofuturism, discussions, weird takes, literally always schizo posting see just my art on @overlordponyart
Cover artwork for Ork by the late British artist Richard Clifton-Dey. Psygnosis released Ork in 1991 for the Amiga and Atari ST.
The artwork, entitled Behemoth's World, was flipped and zoomed in a bit when it was originally used a decade earlier for Blue Öyster Cult's 7th album Cultösaurus Erectus.
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hung the lesbian flag outside with the wife. it’s on a bush behind our lawn flamingos
of course, wife is pan, rave roommate is ace, and cis roommate is bi, and i’m only “lesbian” for conversational convenience (microlabels are a bit impolite to lay on unsuspecting folks), but WE ALL LIKE WOMEN AND THREE OF US HAVE WOMAN IN A PART OF OUR GENDER SOMEHOW, SO IT’S CLOSE ENOUGH
i've wanted to do this in past years, but just never found the time. well. i found the time, so! i have made pride icons of the mane 6! i did several flags for each pony, and i am just going to reply to this post with each set of them, i guess?
i also made one icon per horse that is colored in using the pride flag colors instead of canon colors. i am willing to make more of these for US$10 apiece (of the mane 6, that is). if you want an OC pride icon, i'll do those for US$45 (:
if you want another pride flag in the background of one of the icons, let me know! i’ll do that for free and add it here!
the thing that costs a little money is explicitly recoloring the ponies to the pride flag colors! adding a different flag behind them and nothing else is free of charge (:
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man, i hate coming back home from vacation. not because i dislike the house we live in & certainly not because i don’t miss the cats! we still live in the city.
general vent / diary entry / unorganized thought processing under the cut
i grew up in a small town (pop. ~300). we drove 45 minutes one way to get groceries & were a 2-hour drive from the nearest city. the closest hospital was in the same town with the walmart for years until they built one in what used to be a corn field.
i’ve never liked cities or towns. admitting this in the wrong company gets incredibly weird. people think it’s just because i haven’t accounted for some kind of racial bias that was instilled into me—don’t worry, i’ve certainly thought about it and that isn’t my problem and only was for maybe six months when i first moved out at 18 lol
i have a deep-rooted schizophrenic delusion that masses of people are observing me at any given time. this bothered me in a town of 300. Halifax is the size of my hometown’s closest city, Cincinnati. we live next to an apartment building & a tenant there throws shit at my car all the time. it Does Not Help my brain, which i am constantly keeping in check.
i don’t like to go outside here. i don’t want people to see me and monitor what i’m doing. it’s also really fucking loud. there is so much construction and traffic all the time; it is positively hostile.
biking is straight up dangerous. busing is terrifying for me, but doable if i can manage to walk 1km up a steep hill—rarely the case. i drive and once enjoyed driving, but everything about the roads in Halifax is awful & my car’s clutch is actively going out (i lost first gear on vacation). i just don’t leave
the landlords chopped down a healthy tree that shaded our back yard and provided privacy, presumably bc they marked the incorrect tree as dead. now, the one place that felt kind of ok to go to outside without a big walk or drive feels actively hostile.
i recognize that living downtown is a privileged position & that helping to house people who need it on a flexible budget because i can pay to do that is a wonderful position to be in. we have a house. i like our house. the neighborhood is pleasant. we have cool roommates that i’m so very happy to help. it’s what people who live here wish they had.
and i fucking hate it here.
we went on vacation six hours away to the northernmost point of Nova Scotia. it’s all mountains and ocean; hardly any towns. absolutely serene despite the accommodation being very, very small. i wish i could have enjoyed it more. i dreaded coming back here every single day.
we did go hiking and it was great! i worried so much, though, because i have been having terrible chronic pain when i try to walk around town. the 1km walk to the bus stop hurts my knees and hips so much that i am almost in tears when i get to the terminal, or i just have to turn back.
we walked for miles up mountains and back down again. slippery trails. some a bit washed out. i was nothing but the normal amount of sore.
i want to be dramatic and say the noise of the city is so unbearable to me that it lowers my pain threshold, but while that might be kind of true, it’s more likely it just hurts a lot to walk on hard surfaces when you haven’t been doing that basically ever. america isn’t exactly pro-sidewalk
it’s dumb to whine about not getting a mortgage fast enough when other people post GFMs to pay for rent or important bills, but i am dying in this fucking city.
i also feel so guilty because my wife is very much a city creature, but there’s a small solace in the fact that they are way more adaptable than i am (rural>city trips about killed me after 1 day; they were fine besides the usual fear of the dark for 5 days) & their partner and kits wife like cities and will hopefully be in Halifax to swap around living arrangements from time to time.
i’m just so fucking exhausted, man. spring/summer is the worst for my depression and it’s really laying it on this year. since starting T, it has been harder to cry (weird feeling!) but i have been tearful for over a month over the stupidest shit. also the sun is freaking me out more than normal. doing great.
Here’s the thing I feel like a lot of folks don’t get: I’m not trying to forget what you said. Honestly, I really tried not to. I can’t control what I do and don’t remember—forgetting things just happens. It’s annoying for you, I know, but for me it’s distressing as hell and when you make a big deal out of it rather than just reminding me you make me feel ashamed. I’ll remember that, at least.
It costs you nothing to be kind to people with memory problems. Please. It’s scary enough without people treating memory lapses as a personal failing.
This might sound a bit random, but how do you go about reconstructing the ears of extinct mammals, along with other stuff that doesn't really fossilize?
Oh boy, that's always tricky, and I am by no means an expert in it.
I usually look at the closest living relatives, past that the skull can tell you some stuff, like the ear opening tells you where it should sit, but when it comes to the shape there is usually not much to use for reference.
Climate and ecology can play somewhat of a role. Like how mammoth ears are quite small, while extinct proboscideans in hotter climates must have had larger ones, but the further you go back in time the less certain it gets. Digging mammals might also have large, directional ears to pinpoint prey under the earth, but the more fossorial they get the more large ears can become a hindrance.
When it comes to reconstructing the snout there are a few more things to go off. The family a mammal is in usually already gives you some pointers. Marsupials usually have not that much soft tissue beyond the bone while for example, manatees are the exact opposite. The size, position and direction of the nasal opening are another factor as is the size and position the infraorbital canal, that somewhat informs you about size and shape of the snout or how prominent whiskers might be. That is actually one of the major pointers for us in the moment when hair appears in synapsids, as this canal directly feeds them.
There are many more things one could talk about. When the skull is well enough preserved one can reconstruct it really forensic style, muscle by muscle, but I usually lack the knowledge for that, I leave that to the mammal experts.
The good thing with mammals is that we do know a lot about them, it's just a matter of learning all about it :P
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doing a writing intensive after not writing for years is a Choice i made
after crying for one full day, i choked out 1800 words of weird body horror in 3 hours before i had to go to sleep for work. it isn’t edited or good, but whatever, an attempt was made & that’s more than i can say about any other time since i began full-time employment
i need to start posting unhinged shit about my OCs to regain the motherfuckin’ plot. feels like i’m over here manosphere nose to the grindstonemaxxing or some shit — by that, i mean i’m clinging desperately to my middle class income for the incredible privilege of home ownership, a thing i believe i can do only now and certainly not later. in some ways, having no expendable income is less stressful; you always know what goes where and that you’re up shit’s creek without a paddle if something goes wrong. i have a weird savings account now, and a banker who can smell the adulthood-of-SSDI-payments on me.
there’s always an acknowledgement in the air when i have to do some weird financial shit with my wife that i am a hair trigger from snapping and that the only thing holding my psyche together is a delusional tunnel vision sort of hope that i will get out of this city and have a house. maybe then, i will allow myself to rest for a week.
i cant wait to quit my job so that i can gleam some enjoyment from this life through my dumb little projects. until then, gotta remind my OCs that they’re alive. and stop scrolling on shit like bluesky. hopefully both will make me feel slightly better. (summer makes me crazy.)
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i've wanted to do this in past years, but just never found the time. well. i found the time, so! i have made pride icons of the mane 6! i did several flags for each pony, and i am just going to reply to this post with each set of them, i guess?
i also made one icon per horse that is colored in using the pride flag colors instead of canon colors. i am willing to make more of these for US$10 apiece (of the mane 6, that is). if you want an OC pride icon, i'll do those for US$45 (:
if you want another pride flag in the background of one of the icons, let me know! i’ll do that for free and add it here!
the thing that costs a little money is explicitly recoloring the ponies to the pride flag colors! adding a different flag behind them and nothing else is free of charge (:
kitty is finessing the situation, and vanity just really wishes their girlfriend wasn’t such an instigator. they just wanna go home!
vanity is a fairly unmodified genet; they maintain a more bipedal body plan than kitty, which is why they’re Like That. (they’re also almost two feet faller than her lol)