Left Handed for a few years now

For a while, I had it under control.

Just a small porn addiction - just to control my hormones - and I was careful to keep it far removed from my job as pastor of our non-denominational, conservative Bible church here in the rural mid-west.

But that all changed the Night Satan Came to church.

It was a Sunday evening, and I was in the midst of teaching a series of classes on world religions - how wrong they all were in comparison to Christianity.

That particular night, I was teaching on the occult. I had a PowerPoint presentation I was sharing while teaching, and one of the slides was the picture I have included above in this post - a picture of the ancient diety Baphomet.

When that picture came on the screen as I was teaching, I looked up at it and was suddenly filled with a burning inside that I still can’t explain. My heart began to race, and I became completely distracted. I lost my train of thought, and began to stutter and stammer.

Eventually I regained my composure and finished the lesson. But I couldn’t get away from the strange, dark sensation that I had while looking at that picture.

I tried to put it out of my mind on the drive home, but now it was completely consuming me. I felt my mind racing with very uncharacteristic and unholy thoughts.

By the time We arrived at home, I knew what I had to do. With my heart racing even faster, I told my wife I had left my Bible at the church, then headed out the door and back down the road. I was still dressed in my suit and tie.

I entered the church and headed into the sanctuary. I didn’t turn any lights on and it was now dark outside, but there was enough moonlight streaming through the windows for me to be able to make my way to the altar.

I stood there for at least 10 to 15 minutes - it seemed like an eternity. I could look up and see the pulpit I had just preached from, and behind it was an illuminated cross hanging above the baptistery.

The light from the cross cast a shadow over me as I stood there, shaking, looking down at the altar.

The altar, where I had made so many vows and commitments to the God I served. The altar where I had been consecrated as a minister.

The dark voices in my head were coaxing me on. I tried to resist, but what had started out in the service as a small whisper, now was becoming like loud, shouted commands.

And then, suddenly, instinctively, I knew what I had to do.

I had prayed many times at that altar, but never the kind of Prayer I was about to give.

I knew that just taking my pants down to my knees would not be good enough. Savagely, I began to pull off every bit of my clothes - from the tie, to the shirt, all the way down to my socks, until suddenly I found myself standing in my church sanctuary at the altar completely naked.

What happened next I can only describe as sort of an “out of body” experience. I collapsed to my knees. I could feel my knees hitting the cushioned pad of the Prayer rail. My cock in my hand, I was masturbating furiously.

I suddenly felt my other hand, which had been gripping the altar, loosen and reach around behind me. I felt my fingers ran deep into my ass hole - thrusting , probing, deep and hard. Something I had never done before, something I would never even consider doing.

Then I looked down and saw I had drawn my fingers out and I was looking at them. With my other hand still stroking, I put my fingers into my mouth and sucked them dry.

Then I watched as my hand came out of my mouth and raise to the sky above my head.

In worship? In surrender? Asking for forgiveness? I wasn’t sure.

The orgasm was the most intense I had ever experienced in my life. it seemed like a load that had been building all of my life. I watched as my cum covered the wooden engraving of the Ten Commandments that was carved in the altars wood in front of me.

I could see the wet droplets shining in the darkness, illuminated by the light from the cross hanging just above me.

I literally collapsed on the altar. I sensed that I had just been a part of some invisible spiritual battle. You could almost see angels folding their wings and turning away, while demons were laughing and rejoicing.

I felt many emotions there in that sanctuary that night. I’m not going to lie - shame, fear, and embarrassment were some of them.

But above and beyond them all, I had a feeling inside that What I had done had pleased Him - Satan - so very much.

And, as strange as it sounds and as hard as it is even for me to comprehend now as I write this , that was the greatest feeling I had ever experienced in my life, and it’s the one that keeps driving me down this dark, forbidden path.

It’s what is giving me strength to write this to you right now.

THE CURE @ LITTLESALLY666.COM

THE CURE SYNOPSIS CHAPTER 1 TO 6

Most Christians believe that homosexuality is a disease. Some of them think of it as a mental disorder, while others see it is actually a manifestation of sexual demons – like a form of demonic possession. Whatever their understanding of homosexuality, they all denounce homosexual behavior, male, female, bisexual or transgender as something that is against God’s laws, against the natural laws as described in the Holy Bible – which to them is God’s word.

This is not something new; in fact Christians have been trying to cure gay boys and girls, and men and women since the time of Sodom and Gomorrah. The Sodomites are cursed to damnation for their perverted behavior. They have used various methods to assert ‘heterosexual desires’ in the minds of those who have strayed from the so-called righteous path. They have used conversion therapy, also known as reparative therapy; they have employed chemical castration with hormonal treatment; aversive treatments such as the application of electric shock to the hands and/or genitals; and nausea-inducing drugs, administered simultaneously with the presentation of homoerotic stimuli for masturbatory reconditioning.

Satanic lust produces a level of arousal impossible for those who do not serve our Master.  I have found that the more one desires sin and demon possession the more intense the effect.   Once one is released from the guilt and shame imposed by church brainwashing, the freedom to feed is released.  No longer does it matter if the object of one’s lust is: sister, brother, mother, teacher, male or female.  One is now a fuck animal who only cares if the object of lust is fuckable.

Realize that fucking is your duty to Lord Satan.  Realize that exceeding and breaking down your limits is your obligation as a slave of sin. 

Cock, cock, cock, is the only thing that my mind wants every minute of the day. Cock is so powerful that makes my body get warm and my skin starts to burn from the very insides, when i see a cock, my body craves to have it between my lips and hands to worship it and put my tongue in that soft skin slit that only a cock has.  I just want to taste the precum going down my mouth while i grab the big and hairy balls of the man that is feeding my body and soul with his awesome phallus.  I want to feel it in my ass, raw fucking my hole and make me moan of pleasure.  I crave all my holes filled with that warm and creamy cum that gives my soul a reason to smile and keep sucking cock.  Do what makes you love your cock more. Do it out of love for your own body. Love balls full of cream. Love that juicy cock filling my mouth with delicious cream.  Its filling my insides with that warm cum. Mmmmmmmmm.  Licking that fat dong getting all that cum that still flowing from the cock head.  You know you wish that cock would stay hard all night so you can ride it like the bronco rider you are.  I bet you can take a 12 inch cock up your hole with ease.  I'll be licking your hole as that cock rams in and out of your hole opening it up wide.  You can feel your cock getting hard.  You might even feel that hard monster cock opening your ass.  Oh yeah! Feel that dick bouncing up and down in front of your lips. You know you got to have it.   Licking underneathe that thick shaft getting it all wet and Licking the precum.  We worship that cock together. Sandwiched between our lips.  Going up and down each side of that cock, sniffing and licking. You want it so much.  It's like a drug.  We get drunk on cock and cum.  Watching manly bulges, look how thick and smelly it is, how hairy and how is that glorious smell.

 Fuck, how awesome it is to be a man to have that desire for another man and his manly attitude just to sniff his balls.  And smell the ripe stink of sweat and cum of his jockstrap where dirt for 5 days gathered man's natural scent of the stains that permeates the nostrils. Imagine to be at his feet ready to worship.  All that testosterone and his manly attitude to put his balls in your face while his dick touches your eyes.  Uff, so hot and smelly.  I'm so hot from all this.  Fuck me! Fuck my ass!  Fuck !  Fuck the World that tries to control my freedom.  Fuck religion that tries to Penn me up like sheep and tell me what to think and how I should believe.  This is what I love; sodomy, sucking cock, fucking ass, swallowing cum, bathing in cum, raw fucking men.  It is time to unleash the beast!