Our Lemony

Trying to become someone u wanna be isn't illegal.

Its been awhile since I last updated this blog and for those who is wondering why I created this blog in the first place... Well it's because of Heather, this blog contains a part of our memories and it contains some part of our history being together too... I decided to write today it's because I want to note down every mistakes I've down for these 8 months being with my darling... FYI, shes a straight forward woman which I find it rusvmeally good, why? Well not much people point out my mistakes and I really do appreciate her, ofcos not only this reason so that I'm appreciating her it's also because of many more reasons that is keeping my heart beating with love towards her and myself. But June 2013 is one of our worse month, we've been thru all kinds of obstacles but this month is rather a bad month for me and Heather, for some reason I can't find a really good reason why everything happened so sudden, and to be honest I wasn't ready for this, I didn't expect this would happen to us both... I don't have a right and suitable word for this growing pain in my heart that I'm having now, but a pain is a pain, it will go away eventually, either it ends well or ends rough. This problem of ours is something I cannot avoid, it's something rather scary if u ask me... Something disgusting and it's about me... I made her feel annoyed whenever I asks her questions about our feelings, I made her feel insecure from me threatening her with my weakness, I made her feel scared about my temper, and one of the worse, I made her feel insecure. These problems are so disgusting... That without her telling me, I have no clue I did those actually; and now I know the truth, we both begin to split up for a while just to maybe cool down a little... But what I'm really worried is her changing, and her love towards me are not as strong as before... Before all these, she was a sweet girl, that smiles at me and make me feel happy and lucky... Now she's someone different which I couldn't reach... A lot of problems between me and Heather has beginning to seed, and it's beginning to get worse day by day. But I ain't giving up... This girl that I'm in loved with is different and I would really want her to be my wife in the future... *sigh* I really do hope this dream come true... I really love her. Baby, I miss u.

Kua hi!! With darling looooo. #gsc #gurney #gatsby

My first #blvckscvle tee.

Mushroom Steak. Medium Rare... Here i come. (at Harvest In Cafe)

I love this new haircut! Thanks again bro!

#Snoopify invaded @heather_sleepy

#catwang invaded @heather_sleepy

@heather_sleepy #Snoopify

Now this explains everything. #toe #cupboards #pain

Now I find this picture very attractive. #triangle #deer

February 17th is our 4 months together, I know it's nothing big but to me even though we've only been 4 months, theres so many ups and down that both of us had faced, but there is always something kept us moving forward with stronger and more stable mindset which that is our HOPE and CONFIDENCE; no matter what happen or fights we always heal each other with just a smile and a kiss, which honestly it feels so good and I could even feel warmth deep inside my heart. Darling I love you so much seriously, if I didn't meet u at SOJU ROOM I think I'm some player now. 😘😘😘 love u much!

Yeah! Thanks LANSI! @lansicaps

After breaking up with my ex months ago, so I went a little crazy and kept on spending lots of money in alcohol, and cigarettes; last of all women... That time I was so fucked up until I can't even recognize my own self. There is once I begin to adapt the new me and didn't want to end that night life, because I thought thats the real me, but then of course I was terribly wrong. A few of my BEASTS and BEAUTIES, is mad because of the new me for example, Marlz, Steffy, Amber, Dawn, Ming, Chris, Moon and Kelvin; they were always by my side especially Kelvin and Marlz. So I controlled myself from drinking by locking myself in the room with full of PC Games and 1 of my favorite junk, SHISHA. Lost a lot of weight and gastric strikes me constantly after shisha or ciggy. I still remember that day, September 1st I woke up early, logged into Facebook to see if there's anyone to talk to and I saw 1 girl, this girl I know her for months well at least I know who she is, she's my friend's target and this guy have been tackling her for a very very long time, I thought for quite sometime "should I talk to her? Wouldn't hurt right? Just friends yeah?" So I chatted her but she didnt reply at first, so I wasn't expecting anything anymore; watched an ANIME episode and when I return to Facebook she replied, some how I feel a little smile in me for no reason, so we chatted for whole day, "wow" I feel comfortable when I talk to her and sharing with her, at first she was like my little sister that listens and understands. After a few weeks I fall in love with her, I kept on blaming myself for falling in love with her why? Well it's because from my friend is still tackling her until there is one day I asked him myself and he told me he's tackling other girls, so I stayed silence and I went for Heather without telling anyone. To be honest Heather is a pretty hard girl to tackle but I kept my chin up and started to be natural and tackled her... In the end I had her on my arms and she also made me understands what's love, caring, beneficial and conditionals. Darling I don't know what to say I hope that you will understand why I'm like this... I maybe different when you first know me, remember I told you that "whatever u need to know about me is who I am right now?" Well that's true, I'm still me; who you love, share, sayang, and a lots more... Darling I love you, and thanks for showing me the light. I love you.

Muffins! #muffins #kennyrogers #banana #chocolate

Heather's cuteness level 9000.. Well too me.... ✌✌#couple #cuteness #home

Our pajamas... My Wolfgang! But it's alright she looks awesome with it. :) #wolfgang #quiksilver #pajamas #night #sleepover @wolfgang_kl_