Métamorphose

This year felt like being awake during surgery

incredibly jealous of people who are not hardwired to feel a deep and profound pain at virtually all points of their life

when im 45 years old ill still be here posting like take my hand. lets go into menopause together

as i slowly try to get over my arachnophobia i must confess i always thought it was silly when people told me "don't worry, they're more scared of you than you are of them!" like okay first of all i'm not even sure if thats true, most house spiders seem like they're kinda minding their own business while i am demonstrably freaking out. second of all if it IS true then it doesnt even change how scared i am. like great now we're both scared. i'm scared, the spiders scared, everythings fucked. lets just burn the house down hand in unlovable hand (and hand and hand and hand and hand and hand and hand and hand.)