Wota Life

JO1 Yonashiro Sho

I just feel like screaming into the void. I don't know what to do anymore. Where did we go wrong?

Tonight I cried AGAIN because of you. And you just don't care. I gifted you MONEY twice. One of the times out of a concern that I had wronged you. Even when you spent it after telling me the opposite, I still considered you my friend. I never mentioned it even though my gut was screaming at me cause you said one thing and did the opposite with that merch.

I heard you when you didn't have the job.

I trusted you. I loved you. I'm literally sick and you still don't care. You know my past and you still don't care. You know my worries, and you still don't care. I prayed for you and worried about you when life was hard. During my trip, during that storm in your town, I told my friend MULTIPLE TIMES, "please let them be ok, please."

All of this for a stupid fandom joke THAT I APOLOGIZED for and what do I get in return... subposted and status updates "not about me". I'm told I'm seeing things, when I saw the status responding to my dumb joke with EXACT MEMBER COLORS. I saw the tumblr post where I was tagged. I saw that status at work that made me cry.

I try to fix it and talk it over with you and now you decide I'm nobody and not worth it.

You claim life is busy now... for almost a week to drop a sentence to let me know you are ok or for you to even check on me.

I'm not dumb. I see the writing on the wall. I just didn't want to see it cause I believed you were better than that.

I'm tired. I'm hurt. My heart is broken. I have learned a valuable lesson in all of this to put myself first, be more guarded, and a lot of people in this world are truly selfish.