cute boys rule the world 🕊️💕

by the time the trip's almost up I'm at his beck and call 😵‍💫 running him snacks and cleaning up after him,, picking up popsicle wrappers,, pouring him a new drink, getting things for him, turning the fan on, he just sits there all cute and goes "hellooooo!! i need something!!" and I run in there all flushed ready to do whatever he wants ///// I want to be run around like an errand girl and do what a younger boy says 😵‍💫💕💕💕

and see that sort of thing... like you said if you notice you're having an effect on someone you keep doing it... that's the sort of thing I really really want someone to do to me...!! but also i kind of want to learn how to do that, too... is that weird...? the idea of being able to do it in a way that isn't mean is something i kind of want to learn how to do... usually i get so nervous that I'll overstep or make someone annoyed or uncomfortable. but i think if someone liked it and i could tell they liked it then it would be okay? I don't know... its interesting to me...!! something I want to work on so that i can do my part, too, and not always have to make someone else do all the work...!

I wonder if I'm the same way...?? I think I like bossiness in general but I really like boys so I don't know if it would be exactly the same way with a girl...? because I would still be more nervous around her but maybe the bossiness would help... she could just tell me to stop being nervous 😵‍💫 well just kidding I know that's not how it works hehe. but idk....! I think I would have to get bossed around if I was going to play with a girl... maybe it won't be like that forever but I think so for right now. Also, yay...! I love playdates!! I hope they have fun together!! ^_^

EEEEEK right,,, it makes me feel all fluttery thinking about it kind of?? 😵‍💫 he wouldn't tell me to do something like that without a good reason!! maybe he thinks they're bad for me or he found out a reason i shouldn't take them? or he wants me to learn how to deal without them? or he just wants me to stop so that I'm a little less put together and it's easier to get the upper hand on me,,, or he just thinks I'm cute when I'm a little scared and frazzled all the time?? or just cus he wants to see if he can make me do it????? I'm getting worked up thinking about it 😣😣😣😣😣////

the thought that he would actually Like me like that,,, 😵‍💫 "mmh it's okay if you forget it for one night right ...? we're busy, just take it tomorrow!" "oh, you can't find them? I don't know ...! one more night won't hurt!" "you're really cute today, I don't know why but I like you a lot better today, you feel more affectionate... <3"

I like talking about boys a lot but sometimes I feel really weird for it...!! but im finding out there are lots of girls who think about the same stuff I do! so that makes me feel really nice, it's not bad to talk about stuff that's dirty or a little weird, you just have to know who else will listen and play too...! I like imagining boys who are kind of bullies >_< it makes me feel excited thinking about them having a crush on me but also being bossy to me...! I know it's kind of weird but I like it for some reason! or teasing me...! like you know how people would say that boys tease girls if they like them? that's the sort of thing that I like to think about on my own, like a little treat...

I would like to listen!! You can show me their music! I like to listen to music people show me! Sometimes I forget if they tell me the name and I don't look it up later but if they show me right away I like it a lot! I like feeling warm and comfy, I hope having some more to drink will make me feel that way too! I already feel it a little bit...! That sounds really fun! I can show you some music too maybe but it might not be as cool. And I really like talking about boys...!! I just um... well I don't want to say anything that will weird you out >.< but I like talking about dirty stuff too... I don't know if you would like that but I like having ideas about boys and dirty stuff so hehe... but we don't have to talk about it if you don't want to! I wonder if I might accidentally say too much cus I'm so relaxed...? 😵‍💫

awawawawww thank you...!!! same same, I'm excited to see how it helps!! and also 😖 hehe,,, a cute boy bullying me does sound like a good reward... 💖💖💖 he can tell me he's proud of me for taking care of things 🩷 but it doesn't change anything he's still totally gonna boss me around and be a big meanie to me 😖😖😖 hehehe,,, yes please!!

🫣 You're really so nice...! You'd do that for me? I appreciate it a lot... I think I would be able to relax having someone I can trust around! So I could get a little giggly or... huggy or cuddly or all that... I worry about being too close with anyone so I like the idea of getting to just do it without feeling nervous...!! So um... if I sit close or I laugh a little too much it'll be okay, right? I'm just going to try to relax as much as I can... and um, if I feel a little funny when we're close together I won't worry about that, either...!