Long may the Sun shine!

I'm terrified of taking up spaces.

I'm terrified of asking.

I'm even scared of talking in DM or answering asks, because i keep having the dreadful feeling of bothering someone or not able to give a proper answer that you'd expect.

And yet no matter how careful I am, how many precautions I make, I'd inevitably make someone uncomfortable/upset because I can't convey my ideas and emotions well. Not only because this is an online space, but also because I'm bad at expressing myself and that's even worse when I'm using English, which is like my third language. And now I even have slight dyslexic/reading fatigue due to work, which makes me keeps messing up the words I use.

I came to realize that the longer I'm in a western place like this, the more chance I'd hurt someone, whether accidentally or to my knowledge or not.

So now this blog will be abandoned, I will go back to where I came from. I'll still leave it here as an archive for stuffs I posted, because I love Dark Souls dearly, and I love the people I met here even more, you are all kind and very talented. I am very grateful for the chances I was given, and how you're all patient with me.

Imma calling it D-suke village now, just to bully him because he makes me go through that place

DS2 i love you for NOT include this shit

Yknow i know the he/him pronouns of Throne Watcher is likely a mistranslation/assumption but now he's he/him to me.

"Only those storyline elements that actually make it into the game are something that I need to force players to accept as a base for building up their own interpretation of the world. There are things in my head that aren't in the games, after all - so after that, it's all up to the players. I have no intention in forcing any of the storyline upon any of the players out there, and there will be no official statements made about the 'true' story of the game."

A rough translation of that part because I think it's interesting to read:

Interviewer: Out of all the areas in DS2, why choose Earthen Peak?

Miyazaki: For the DS2 area selection, I consulted with Tanimura (Yui Tanimura, Director of DS2) to decide. We chose it because the silhouette would be memorable for DS2 users, and it fit the map design intentions of the Dreg Heap. Regarding the Desert Pyromancers mentioned earlier... after we decided to use Earthen Peak, a staff member requested it, saying, "If Earthen Peak is appearing, users won't accept it if that gear isn't there." I thought, "I see, that might be true," so we adopted it. It felt right that the Desert Pyromancers survived in the wreckage of Earthen Peak, and I felt it added a bit of narrative depth.

Interviewer: No, that was a wonderful judgment!

But Artorias's charm was not because he was a badass corrupted swordman like Gutts or whatsoever. He's not Gutts I'm exploding everyone!!!

The thing about Dark Souls is that actions have consequences, whether the story people tell about them is true or a lie. Ages rise and fall, but deeds linger and they inspire others long after the individual is gone. Gwyn convinced the world that linking the fire was a noble, necessary act. Solaire inspired the entire Sun cult of Dark Souls II. The Ivory King convinced Alsanna to stand against the Old Chaos.

Artorias belongs in that lineage, but not as a triumphant hero.

Yes he has an awesome design, incredible boss fight that became the DNA of other bosses in the next game but most importantly, a heart of gold. He only wanted to protect his dog and live up to the crushing responsibility placed on him as a fairly young knight (he didn't have any fancy title by the time of the DLC, just Knight Artorias). Facing Manus was a suicide mission, for Artorias was a fiery god-kin, and that makes Artorias resorted to desperate measures like making a pact with the Abyss because he couldn't bear to let others down.

And despite all of his efforts, he still failed. For protecting his companion. For fighting a force of nature that is basically the anti-thesis of his race's existence.