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"Gwynevere was actually the child most alike to Gwyn and she hates that fact so she was also actually the most rebellious child. This is also due to her father's unfair treatment to her while NK got the firstborn and golden heir privilege" is another hot take of mine (with proofs as usual) and it's quite long so I don't know how to present it just yet... the clash between father who believes in nothing but patriarchy and the capable eldest daughter who ironically inherits after him the most... my battle to give Gwynevere agency...
Visions like this is why i turned off the ask box nfjdodsks it's just invitation for hate mails from NK's fans (<- paranoid)
Now that we're here, can I rant about how some of the Demon's Soul remake's design choices feel intentionally racist? Feel free to point out which part I got it wrong or add any addition though, I'm happy to be corrected.
Okay first. Like what the fuck is this.
It's already racist enough if they depicted them with a typical Japanese look. But how could they, look at the name Satsuki, and decide to use the CHINESE caricature since 19th century or something. Can't they distinguish between Japanese and Chinese?? Is this a proper tribute to a Japanese game??
And speaking of tribute, they claimed that their design "all rooted in our study of the original game's concept art". Okay so this is the Monumental's part in the concept art.
The half-open eyes of Buddhist statue have its own meaning. There are actually three states of eyes that the Buddha can be depicted with:
- closed: used to depict the Buddha entering Nirvana
- opened: actually quite rare, for the statue should be an example for the Buddhist and it's believed the eyes of a Buddhist should not look to the outside too much. Another interesting belief is it looks like the Buddha is angry. Like in my country gangsters or tattoo artists do not dare to tattoo Buddha with wide-opened eyes because it may invites troubles and goes against the meaning of having a Buddha tattoo, which is trying to have inner peace.
- half-lidded: the most popular depiction. Symbolize meditation, mindfulness, and a balanced state of awareness looking both inward and outward. It is not closed, for he is not asleep. It is not wide-opened, for he sees not only the outside world. Also it is the eyes of compassion, because it sees everything without prejudice
Sorry that's a rambling. But anyways what i want to say is, the eyes is an intentional design choice, just like how its clothes being pure white is also used to shown its purity. And what did Bluepoint do? They did the exact OPPOSITE
I honestly don't get it. Why would they do this. What would they achieve for doing this. Do they think they know the character better than Fromsoft themselves? Why do they have to disregard every notes, even though it's explicitly said there's a spiritual inspiration behind it. It's just so awful and disrespectful to me, there's nothing can excuse this.
That was my Asian part speaking. And now it's my Fromsoft fan part. You know how Fromsoft often leaves visual clues for us to figure out the connections of things. Yeah Bluepoint just goes in and says fuck it.
Now the Shrine of Storms is the shrine of the Shadowmen tribe, who has this particular custom of removing the lips, as seen on the figure on the Archstone, likely to make them look more like skeleton.
This is reflected in both the Abjudicator's and the Old Hero's appearance, who both are the manifest of Shadowman's beliefs and both have their lips removed in a similar way
Their attires also look similar, tied them up as beings from the same culture
And then Bluepoint just has to go with the most random designs ever. There are no connections between them, unless you consider nose rings and nipple rings are good enough design to describe an "uncivilized" tribe.
This cultural erasure even extends to the Boletarian Mausoleum, where there is a statue that depicts a figure similar to the original design of Old Hero. This implies the Boletarian family, or more specifically Old King Doran was from the Shadowmen tribe, and this statue is built to honor that root. This is something that got carried into Godfrey, who started off as some beast hunter but eventually became a lord. But then Bluepoint just has to go out their way to change it into a generic king statue.
I'm sure there are many more offensive things, I'm not really an expert on Demon's Soul like Forbid or Katy or anyone else out there. I talk about these characters because they are my favorites and it just feels so hurtful looking at what Bluepoint did. And then people still want them to do Bloodborne remake.
You're not gonna believe who I ship with Djura. First one get it right gets a free character art request that I will draw in 1.000 year.
We have a winner. Yeah sorry I ship Djura x Djura's apprentice because uhhh yknow, man with a big weapon and his apprentice uses a smaller, more mobile version of that weapon. It's like nkstein to me all over again I AM A SIMPLE MAN.
But yall's suggested ships are so good though I feel like a boyfriend who asks his girlfriend "can you guess where we're going for dinner" and just go to her first guess.
In a revealed design notes by Miyazaki himself about DS1 monsters, I think it's impressive how they already developed the idea behind Heolstor and Straghess back in 2009 - 2010. Granted Heolstor was a solitary man instead of a collective grudge (that's Straghess) but you can see the gist

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"GWYN HATES GWYNDOLIN AND FORCEFEMMED HIM AND HID HIM AWAY BECAUSE GWYN DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE A SON LIKE THAT"
Gwyn: gave instruction for his sons to shepherd the human and gave Gwyndolin a city
Miyazaki himself: the worship of the moon is the other major faith in Dark Souls and people who love the moon dress femininely to feel closer to it
You're not gonna believe who I ship with Djura. First one get it right gets a free character art request that I will draw in 1.000 year.
Idk if this is talked about a lot but I love how the Doll's name is a wordplay. In Japanese a doll is ningyou (人形 ) while a mermaid is ningyo (äşşéš) (ningyo is actually more fish-like than typical western mermaid though). They share the same sophomone which is the origin of the pun in the title of Hakoiri musume menya ningyo, which is kinda the Little Mermaid of Japan.
ANYWAYS. In Japan there are two most popular belief involve the ningyo: one is eating the flesh of a ningyo grant you immortality, and the other is ningyo cry tears like precious pearls.
And yeah I think any BB fan can already figure out what I'm about to say. This is likely the inspiration behind the story of Kos, whose flesh was violated by the hunters. Maybe the villagers who consume the phantasms from Kos was blessed with becoming fish-like, or maybe the hunters themselves actually ate Kos flesh and was grant "immortality" by getting trapped in the Hunter Nightmare. The most famous story about consuming ningyo flesh is Yao Bikuni, a woman who still retains her beauty and youth despite being 800 years old. Sound like Lady Maria's appearance in the Nightmare to me.
I'M OFF TRACK AGAIN. What I want to say here is, I believe the Doll (Ningyou) being also a wordplay to Ningyo would serve as another proof of her being a Kin rather than a normal doll, and why her tear turned into a tear stone. And also I find it's so cute that the Good Hunter turns into a squid while Doll is a mermaid. Kinda silly i know but hey what's life without a bit silliness
Me and my yuri crackship against the world
Funny how the reason for me to ship this is these gays were carrying me through the fight but Bellclaire only jumped to the lower floor AFTER Felicia had jumped. Before that the Sentinels were jumping my ass. Like okay sure whatever ig, who cares about the host anw go jump into the embrace of your hot knight girlfriend
I really don't know how I attract a lot of anon hate mails during my 8 months on tumblr, while my moots who have been here longer never had any. Maybe it's because I yap about lore a lot and have some strange takes that people don't like, but my suspicion is the reason being the way I talk is kinda...? meek...? Because I'm really awkward and at the same time I don't want to push my thoughts like the absolute truth so I tend to use soften words. And that's like an open invitation for bullies or something. One can only bully you if you allow them to or something something, they smell my weakness and I really am weak dsjkjks
But at the same time, the content of those hate mails are really weird. Like I understand if I got hate mails for saying something really bigoted or controversial takes, but they hate when I said Gwyndolin was inspired by Tsukuyomi aka the male moon god of Japan who sometimes get depicted as female and lives a more quiet life compared to his sun sister and his storm brother. Or when I say Grynn is not pushed as the canon name of Nameless King and we should just do what we want, I just adapt that name for him since I find it thematically fit, they called me stupid and not "figure out the lore like Miyazaki wanted to". Or when I say NK and the dragon cult are inspired by Buddhism, I got a mail that told me to stop making things up and my takes are stupid. Or when I draw Quelana with some Khmer inspirations because Izalith (city) is inspired by Angkor Wat, someone just had to send me an ask about how my drawing is ugly.
Idk there seems to be a pattern here with how they target asian-related stuff but I really cant be sure. Like I'm sure I made uglier drawings than that Quelana piece but they just have to have a problem with that specific one. I spent quite a time researching on that and I am from Khmer heritage myself so I put lots of love into it. Anw guys that's why I turned off the ask box (sorry if that's an inconvenience or sth) and why being on tumblr is very difficult to me sfksdjkj Really though, why me.
Oh no, you have ABSOLUTELY the right hunch on what is happening. You have a sharp intuition because, yes, it IS these two things.
1) Bullies DO sense your weakness, fear and meekness, like sharks sense blood dripping from the wound.
They notoriously pick weak target because this is what bullies ARE: pathetic and cruel jerks that want to take out the stress on someone who won't fight back. I constantly see accounts who do nothing but speak complete nonsense in the most obnoxious condescending tone you can imagine and insult other creators and type of content get huge following and never face backlash, whereas it is the nicest and kindest people who just want to be friends with everyone that are unpopular and always insulted over nothing.
2) Fandoms DO absolutely make all kinds of non-white people feel unwelcomed on multiple levels.
White Americans (and some white Europeans) think they are SUUUUUUCH good warriors against racism just because they will screech "b-but bad once is bad forever!!!!" at some content creator over YEARS long mistake they have long matured from, complain about someone not drawing human Pinkie Pie or Tenna as black people, call darkshipping 'inherently white people thing' and support soulless corporations grinding black actors through the classic 'hire them for the least fitting role possible -> have them go through unreal backlash and hate in the internet for months because it gets you clicks -> finally release your movie that flops effectively ruining this actor's career' scheme...
But they fail to understand what they are DOING on the levels of different sociocultiral contexts. Like you just said, you faced backlash because you, Asian person, have noticed very valid and fitting references for Asian culture, history and religion in a videogame by an Asian company. Their "anti-racism" starts and ends at how things are in THEIR countries and as a result they are not open for any mature discussion and communication with foreigners that have different upbringing and think from different standpoints. You know how until the oh-so-progressive person KNOWS someone they're talking with is autistic they will insult and bully them for obvious autistic sympthomes? You know this:
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The sad part is, they fucking do this with the national stuff too. They will insult physical features characteristic for certain races in their wish to bash someone's fanart unless they're told that these features are racial. They will insult certain elements in costumes and hairstyles, or certain housing customs and habits unless they're told that these are just cultural things for these people. They will insult your talking quirks unless they're told that this is you struggling to adapt your very different language to English or that it is a kind of a dialect within race. They will only hide it and get in line when they're informed they treaded a controversial territory, but non-white people already have seen it. They have seen how much hate these people felt naturally, without being given context, and that their concern is to not be cancelled rather than being a decent human being to their non-white friends and community members.
Heck, sometimes knowing context doesn't help either! Didn't that bully Soren from Soulsborne creators server straight up turned you and another Asian artist down when you guys tried to explain that events like Secret Santa literally work differently in your communities and this is what caused the misunderstanding? Sometimes it is colorism because, you see, Eastern Asians are "acceptable targets" for hate and bullying when they are "white-passing" in such people's eyes.
I am honestly sick of seeing this happen and I am sick of not being able to find words to express it so thank you for this post, really, because it helped me to even get started. People really fail to see how much hatred they truly harbor for other races/cultures/nations and how easily this attitude slips through when they're not given "warning" (again refer to how they get back in line when they learn your identity, diagnosis etc).
No Patrick, you are NOT inclusive of these non-white people just because you redesigned a character to be inspired by their aesthetic. You will be inclusive when you STOP spilling constant hate every time they show the traits (in content, discussions and behavior) that COME from them being non-white people.
My recommendation for you as someone who attracted many anon hates for years over lore and art style as well is to open ask box and KEEP it open. Not only that, but also never turn off anons. Developing the habit of talking back at the bullies and calling their bullshit for what it is is one of the best things you can do for yourself. You said yourself, a bunch of your non-white mutuals straight up deactivated their blogs or at least just stopped engaging with English-speaking fandom, so like. Don't become another one, ever. Showing weakness and bending to BAD people have never solved anything. Bullies only feel so confident and thrive because based people do nothing! Develop a habit of never EVER allowing someone to feel safe to hurt you!

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My favorite crack proof to support my favorite crack headcanon "Velka is mother of Nameless King" is the ring of her covenant (cut content since Velka covenant was cut, now it's the miracle Karmic Justice) works the same way as Old Sun Ring in DS2. Old Sun Ring is a ring that depicts 8 rays sun, has gold and red color, and is found in the Shaded Woods where we also find many things link NK/Faraam to this place (Vengarl who is a Forossan with lion imagery and sells gold pine resin, Lion Clan warriors who worship a war god and have a sun symbol on their belt, Chloranthy Ring, and Falconers who drop Sunlight Medals)
All and all, I think I still love being on Tumblr because this is the place where I can consistently see people getting unhinged about their favorite characters. I find it's a very beautiful and inspiring thing for me, like whenever I see that I can't help but think I want to draw their blorbo or ship, because I love this media and through their love, I love it even more. Is that a weird sentiment to have? Idk I really just want to celebrate their blorbo and their love with them, because I too feel the same about my blorbo. Especially not too popular characters at the present. I see you people who love Leda, Lost Sinner, Velstadt, Raime, Aldia, Patches, Gehrman, Alsanna, Nashandra, Lorian and everyone else. I love you and your blorbos.
I really don't know how I attract a lot of anon hate mails during my 8 months on tumblr, while my moots who have been here longer never had any. Maybe it's because I yap about lore a lot and have some strange takes that people don't like, but my suspicion is the reason being the way I talk is kinda...? meek...? Because I'm really awkward and at the same time I don't want to push my thoughts like the absolute truth so I tend to use soften words. And that's like an open invitation for bullies or something. One can only bully you if you allow them to or something something, they smell my weakness and I really am weak dsjkjks
But at the same time, the content of those hate mails are really weird. Like I understand if I got hate mails for saying something really bigoted or controversial takes, but they hate when I said Gwyndolin was inspired by Tsukuyomi aka the male moon god of Japan who sometimes get depicted as female and lives a more quiet life compared to his sun sister and his storm brother. Or when I say Grynn is not pushed as the canon name of Nameless King and we should just do what we want, I just adapt that name for him since I find it thematically fit, they called me stupid and not "figure out the lore like Miyazaki wanted to". Or when I say NK and the dragon cult are inspired by Buddhism, I got a mail that told me to stop making things up and my takes are stupid. Or when I draw Quelana with some Khmer inspirations because Izalith (city) is inspired by Angkor Wat, someone just had to send me an ask about how my drawing is ugly.
Idk there seems to be a pattern here with how they target asian-related stuff but I really cant be sure. Like I'm sure I made uglier drawings than that Quelana piece but they just have to have a problem with that specific one. I spent quite a time researching on that and I am from Khmer heritage myself so I put lots of love into it. Anw guys that's why I turned off the ask box (sorry if that's an inconvenience or sth) and why being on tumblr is very difficult to me sfksdjkj Really though, why me.
> Watch video about every cat in Souls series
> Ornstein is there but not Vengarl
Yeah he's a cat boy while Vengarl is a lion man, 100% correct take 🫡
One funny headcanon of mine to start the day. In DS2 our sources of farming sunlight medals are these guys in Harvest Valley and the Falconers, both are 2-in-1 enemies which means they are doing jolly cooperations just like any proper Warrior of Sunlight.

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The source of 'the gene of Moon, Darkness, Bloodspill and Water' within Gwynevere's descendants: a hint towards her other lover and a deity Kirk used to follow before
I am a bit unhappy with how much it is formatted like two pages but the alternative was making image too long, which is bigger evil. I've finally put all about this theory in one place!
It is far not the only time you find out Fromsoft written a character into lore that they did not... ACTUALLY write, just "implied" through hints that they've scattered across Pthumerian Labyrinths. The more I went back and forth on this theory the more confident I was becoming about it! Not meaning to insist on Queen of Lothric being named Juniper TOO much though! I've justified why I believe that to be the case but all in all it was for the convenience!
It's so criminal that (as far as I'm aware) the ost 'Queen of Drangleic' didn't make it fully into the game. You hear the intro as the intro to Nashandra's boss theme, but the full soundtrack with the piano would have been so good to play as you met her in Drangleic Castle..