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The scars in my hands as it trembled. Open to the bloody flesh, open to the rotting death.

I could see just a memory. A person lying awake, livers staining the ground with maggots eating my wounds out

Their eyes stare at me. They all stared at me.

Not a single sound. Not a living soul. All was left was a monster and the cold.

The flowers drenched in their blood. Reminding me of the heart they could've loved.

I look in the window. Eyes staring at me. A monster. A murderer. Someone who should've died long ago.

I didn't mean it. I never meant it. I never meant it I never meant it. I never meant to do it I didn't do it I DIDNT DO IT I DIDNT DO IT I DIDNT DO IT.

They've left me.

My voice can't cry out. Blood running on my shirt as the knife pokes at the little voice I have left. It hurts to cry. My tears mixed with blood.

It hurts.

It hurts.

It hurts.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I never meant to live. I never meant to survive. IM SORRY. IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY.

I can't speak. They look at me with lifeless eyes. I try to apologize but the knife in my throat cuts deep. And yet I'm still alive.

Why.

Why couldn't I have just died.

Why couldn't I have just died.

WHY.

WHY DO I EXIST.

Please.

Just kill me.

Burn me of my misery.

A flashlight shines in my eyes and I wake up in a hospital bed. Tears dripping down my face as I saw them.

They were alive.

And it wasn't a knife.

It was the rope.

I looked at the mirror once again.

Their blood wasn't theirs.

It was mine.

My best friend, who's beautiful name is El, (who had a reputation of being a pick me and being "that girl" despite not being that girl) was one of the kindest people I've ever met. She was tall, tan, and sassy. But basically, there was a time where she was really suffering with mental health and I gave some vague answer like, "when you're in the darkness, just search for the light" and she looked at me right in the eyes and said, "you are the light." AND LET ME TELL YOU I GENUINELY GOT STABBED BY CUPIDS ARROW

Not to mention, she sat on my lap on several occasions and one time when we were spending time together a friend of mine came to take me and she just instantly grabbed my hand and was like "No, I'm still talking to her." Like she literally dragged me down on my seat and said that. AND MAN PLEASE TELL ME I'M NOT ALONE IN THIS I MEAN COME ON.

She'd always buy things for me too, even when she barely had any money. Most days and oh my days I miss her so much.

AND when I'd leave the school, she'd ask for all kinds of things from me as a "parting gift" and she even asked me for my phone keychain for some reason and I was like "pfft no? This is literally hand made" (it broke a few months later. Probably shouldve just given it to her.) and GOD oh my days is that gay??? Like she was acting like I was going to war holy I think I am in love let me just tell you the things I'd do for her GOD. I wish I could see her again. I still wear her friendship bracelet to this day.

Straight girlies PLEASE tell me if she was a homosexual or not like come on did she even like me?!?! Like she's my best friend and I'd do anything and oh my goodness I'd love to hold her hand and kiss her WJAT I mean excuse me I'm just like I don't know sleep deprived but fellas please tell me if she's gay or not.

Zoro got sent to a place where most inhabitants are just bears and the strongest swordsman is just there chilling (to be fair I don't think Kuma knew about Zoro's and Mihawks beef so he probably sent Zoro there to get him taught on swordmaster or whatever)

Nami got sent to a place where she LITERALLY learns more not just about navigation but the science behind it and fully develops her skills over all

Ussop got sent to a place where he can eat all the food he wants (which to be fair is probably the place I'd send Ussop to if I was Kuma I mean look at him he's so skinny he could use a few pounds. Plus the best type of strength is the will to survive in the wilderness.)

Chopper is in some island with some beef against humans and animals (which Kuma probably got confused on what he is so he just sent him there cause they seem fit)

And Robin got sent to a slave camp which actually was gonna be the place where the very cool revolutionary people exist and Kuma entrusted her to them.

Franky literally goes to a place where Dr. Vegapunks lab exists (like y'know. Just the number one inventor and genius in the planet) cause he's a ROBOT.

And Brook? Got sent to some cult (no need for explanation the guy is a skeleton of course Kuma would think he's a demon)

But Sanji. Gets sent to KAMABAKKA. Island.

Now, I know some of y'all gonna say, "but mann... It's cause his ol' friend Ivankov is in there" SHUSH. Look at the people Kuma entrusted them with. Tell me, very closely, they ALL. Have a purpose colerating (don't correct me I hate this language) to their identity.

Very closely. This is the FIRST impression he got of the Straw Hats crew. And he chose them islands that collerate to their identity...

Now, I'm not saying Sanji's gay or anything... But give me ONE thing. One reasonable reason on how throwing him to an island full of gays makes sense.

Like you could say "oh cause he runs away and he gets so good at running" DO YOU THINK KUMA THOUGHT THAT??? Like what was Kuma's intent here?! More people need to speak about this holy.

Like genuinely. It's driving me insane why people talk about this so LITTLE.

I'mma give you my THEORY (theory folks. This aint a testimony)

I think... Sanji got placed into an island full of gays... Cause Sanji's view on masculinity is so fragile that he sees gender in a stereotypical manner and that he himself, cause he's a man, should hold up to certain rules as "never hit a woman."

Sanji's character holds on to the fact that he views women as something incredibly precious. And again and again, he finds himself in situations that he follows the rule so incredibly much that he breaks himself in the process.

Maybe, it was to expose him that Femininity, is much more than what he may believe. And that in the island, he's there to fight a woman (literally). Basically the embodiment of femininity. And in the process, he starts to learn what it's actually like being a woman. Exploring his femininity in the process.

In the island, it's even shown that he starts to be happy as he becomes a bit more feminine. Of course until the idiot starts to trace back to his own solidified beliefs again and says "Noo!! I'm a man!!! I don't be friends with girls I love them!" Then it completely ruins the reason.