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felix. this is my second layer of blog. dm if you need the url to my more public-facing blog.

sent my catboy on a trip and it came back british

AND i have a migraine and now i'm stressed on top of that. i hate it hereeeeee

i need to own a house immediately so i can live my life without getting emails like "hi we're entering your home at some point in the next 14-48 hours ostensibly to replace a/c filters and check smoke detectors" in which every involved party knows that if the place is messy they can fine you hundreds of dollars

also being 26 is conceptually very scary. i've fully tipped past the midpoint of my 20's. and i think possibly past the point where i imagined myself being a person. not even in a suicidal ideation kind of way i don't think it's just like. hard to imagine myself as a person being any older. which is always true to some extent but extra true right now

ourgh i feel like i've done nothing today and it's largely because i'm stressed about the things i have to do which is the worst cycle to be in and tomorrow's my birthday and i don't really have plans or anything and i feel like i'm just going to sit there feeling like i should be studying or something

actually if you're writing poetry about doctor who characters and all the lines are in an order that makes linear sense i think you are incorrect

ohhh my god i just realized the second i was about to actually get my period my life immediately seemed 100% more livable all the things i need to do seemed 100% more doable etc etc etc how on earth is so much of the population expected to live like this. why does anybody just accept menstruation as a fact of life

something is happening. to me

oubhhh the despair... the despair...