catransmiku

i NEED my fiancée to infodump transformers lore to me hhhnfgg

getting really, really fucked up drinking from a robot girls coolant line. sort of trying to hear whatever she’s saying, but you’re already too fucked to process words and shes starting to stutter from overheating anyway

i want to do something. I dont know what. i need some kind of purpose. I dont really think its making really good art and gaining recognition for that, although id like that too, but i think its a little more about the money with art, which im yet to make any of. its somewhat out of financial desperation. dont get me wrong i love drawing, and really i do want it to be a thing that I do, but I dont want it to be my main thing I want it to compliment other things- fanart for things that i like, or for things that I create maybe. I would like to animate, but animating is so time consuming whatever i do is like a big project where finishing it is unfathomable, its like this with big regular art projects too sometimes, its why im only making sketches lately or if i do color its not ultra detailed and perfect. some of the things in my head lately are inspired by WARHOUND, by Kallidora Rho. Its like my favorite thing right now that isnt a person. Never read much mechsploitation before that, but my brain will never be the same. before that i read some HDG stuff, and i thought it was awesome but then mechsploitation, sort of a similar genre maybe but it just fits in my head so much better, it scratches just all the exact right itches in my brain, not new things that i didnt know i was into by the way but it puts it all together in this perfect way and then gives it a universe i can think about and maybe imagine myself in or how id interact with it. Reading WARHOUND it almost felt like this shit was like beamed straight out of my skull somehow, and put out by someone who actually knows how to write. I wish I could write like that, maybe someday ill be able to, but then it feels like what I have to write is already written out, perfectly. Maybe if I read enough mechsploitation ill get enough input of other ideas of the setting where ill be able to put something specifically and uniquely mine in my brain, and itl just naturally be its own thing, different from WARHOUND and whatever else there is. So theres one thing, I want to write, write something peak. another thing that bounces around in my head is what if i just, animated WARHOUND, and got people to like, voice characters and stuff?? i fucking love WARHOUND. I feel like id have to like, ask permission to do that, its a bit different than the typical fanart. and it would be like an actual, huge project. but I do kind of feel like I need a project to absorb my time, but im gonna have to get a job soon anyway and then i wont have time anymore. someone please commission me minimum wage to animate warhound..... you couldnt anyway actually because i still dont know how to draw a mech cockpit,, ill figure it out one of these days.